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Date : November 28, 2009

&Another one.

Well, let's say things are different .. How was your thanksgiving ? Mine ? Ghey .. I miss last year so much): It kills me knowing that things are different. Hope that next year will be the same in a way as last year. I didn't have that 'family bond' that I was hoping to have. We just fixed the house for Sebastian's party today. We been cleaning the house for 3 days straight ! Yes, im tired but if the party is helluh tight today then it was worth it ;D Lols.

Date : November 29, 2009

SO, yesterday's party was fun but then sad in a way. The only F.A.S. member that came was Ate and I appreciate her for coming along:) Kuya&I picked her up when I got him, kinda. Lols. The REC reunion was okay but then funny towards the end(x Only a few people came and SDCMFFAAE&I felt like we were babysitting -_- We stayed 12 - 2. Then daddy&Kuya picked me up. When we got home, Ate called and said that she can go so Kuya&I picked her up. On the way, my boypren called and he made my phone die D: OMG, Ate FINALLY has a phone ! :D Lols ! &&UNLIMITED TEXTING ! Yessss ;D She has a touch phone, better than mines but at least we both have phones:) So when we got to my house, I gave her a tour around the house a bit. Yes, everyone likes this house so mucho:) Then we helped getting the food and table ready. My mom friends came first then my cousins came. When everyone came, it was soo loud D: The lito kids were like yelling and running around. Then Ate&I helped comfort cawsin cause she was still sad): I feel helluh bad for her. Ihatehim -_- Readers, you don't need to know(: Well, it was a good night mixed wit other stuff too but we had family time. I made my boypren&Khaila a cwalk dedication cause they mean a lot to me right now. Imma upload it laters. Ate&I toke helluh pictures wit her new phone cause it has better quality than my phone xD Kinda. Lols. Aftah the party-ish when my cousins left, my daddy&his friend dropped me off at Ate's house since I slept over cause I go to church wit them on Sundays. Ate, Nerd&I ate brownies, talked, texted, went on the computer and watched tv till we got tired xD Yes, it was a loooong and crazy night xD My boypren couldn't come to the party cause he had another party to go to. So he called me when he was there cause he missed me and he was being faithful, not dancing wit other girls without me:) I helluh love him for that but I feel bad that I didn't go cause he invited me and whatnot. So, making him a dedication cwalk and giving him a surprise will make it up:) So Ate&I slept at 2 something in the morning and we had to go to church at 8. THE EARLIEST I EVER WENT TO CHURCH. I think .. xD Lols. But yeah, we were helluh tired. &we were late to church too, we arrived at 8:30 ish. Aftah church, we went back to their house, ate and then left to their tita's house cause her brother needed to say bye to them since he is going back to Irvine. Her brother is funny though xD Lols. Then aftah that, they dropped me back home and when Nerd, her sister, and their parents saw my house they liked it(x Yes, everyone falls in love wit our house lols. It's true though :D Lols. Well, that was my weekend. Now, imma rest and upload the pictures and video's later. Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

47

Date : November 25, 2009

&Again, updating.

A lot has been going on lately. Just recently moved to the new house. Yes, I LOVE the new house:) Still getting used to everything but all good so far. Going to mths still. Kuya drives me to school so yeah. He first drove me to school yesterday and we had such an adventure lols. I'm surprised im still alive xD Lols ! Jkay:) School is school. Getting stressed out as usual. Grades currently dropping because of my laziness and lack of participation on work. Don't worry, im going to bring them up again. Family issues are a bitch. Yes, still going on but hey, im used to it remember ? Those are the only two things I stress about =/ My boypren and I are still going out:) 1 month and 11 days ! Ilovehimohsomuch. Thanksgiving is tomorrow ! I Sebastian's birthday party is on Saturday ;D PAAAARTY ! Lols. I don't know what we are doing for thanksgiving but I'll find out eventually. But I can't wait to party wit the family and friend:) Yes, wit family and friends, it's a BIG party ;D Lols. I don't really go on the computer as much anymore since it's boring to me. I just go on at times when something is needed or when I feel like it. I'll be blogging from time to time if new events come up. Been kinda fading wit the F.A.S lately): I haven't really hung out wit all of them in a while. Hopefully on Saturday we get to spend time wit each other like always. Lot's has been running through my mind lately. People need to stfu and stop always bringing Josh into the topic. Wtf though, I'M OVER HIM. PERIOD. Shit .. Getting on my nerves -_- Anyways, just hoping something good comes into my life sooner or later. Still praying for mama's health that she will be okay. Keeping my dreams up about going to the Philippines next year, May 2010 w/Ate Leigh Anne:) We'll see how it goes. Imma try to find a center where I can learn the Filipino traditional dances ;D Lols. Yes, im weird but hey, trying different things can help you in life some time lols. Living my life to the fullest everyday because my family&friends are my influences. "Love comes and goes but family&friends are forever." Christmas is just a few days away ! Ready to have that break though(x Christmas is my favorite time of the year because my family&friends are always here to have fun. I hoped this year would be better than last year but I guess every year is the same in a way. Please God, let next year be a lito bit different. Music is still an everyday must; keeps me in check. Aim&phone are my everyday routine. Memories should be everyday and be cherished forever. For all my viewers, please pray for my family&I that are 'problem' could be solved easily and soon. Blehh, tired wit all the sadness. I just want to have fun and whatnot, you know ? I wanna party one day, without worrying about all the stress and pressure. Take me away from this world and let me in the dream I've been dreaming about. Yes, I have high hopes for my dreams. Knowing that tomorrow CAN be a new start makes me wonder, 'can it be really tomorrow?'. Fck the drama, let's make it simpler. Hm .. I guess thas all ? I'll update more sooner or later. Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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Date : November 19, 2009

REC !

Hi, im Sister Annjeanette Fortuno, Rec 92, table of St. Genevieve !:)

Rec was the best ! It was on November 6 - 8. I learned a lot during rec. &Ate was right ; it's emotional and you'll learn a lot. I changed aftah rec though. I don't cuss as much anymore and I listen to my parents more. I also learned that no matter what, we should give it all to God. GOD is love and love is all around us. Everyone can love. &I also learned to forgive and NOT forget. During rec, I was thinking about a lot of things. Total Commitment made me helluh cry =/ It made us think about how our family members and friends are sorry for what they done to us and whatnot. Man, I am for sure going to serve rec 94 ! Lols. During rec, Shawn&I bonded a lot xD Lols. It was funny and cool(: I'll upload the pictures as soon as I move in my new house. Yes, I toke a lot of pictures and made video's as well(x Well, thas all I wanted to say about rec ;D

45

Date : November 19, 2009

Updating A Bit.

So, my Halloween was FUUUUN:) Better than last year xD Lols. I went wit Ate, her friend and my boypren. We walked A LOT ! But it was funny cause my boypren was acting stupid but entertaining us at the same time. Lols. Ate&I were nerds ;D &her friend was a dead cheerleader lols. My boypren didn't dress up cause yeah xD We just had helluh fun and stayed out till almost 12. It was the first time Ate met my boypren and she approves ;D Lols. Well, aftah we had to go, I slept over Ate's house and Ate, Nerd, their older sister and I watched Paranormal Activities. The first part was boring but then the second part was SCARY :o ! Aftah that, we watched Shake, Rattle and Role. It's a filipino scary movie xD They had a marathon so yeah. We didn't sleep till 2 something in the morning. So, her parents, Nerd and her sister woke Ate&I up at 7 something cause we were the only ones still sleeping xD We had to eat and then get ready for church. We didn't go to church till the 11 am mass. Enough with that weekend, here are some updates. BFFAAE's birthday ws on the 13th so we went out to eat suhi and kick it. After school, my boypren and I waited for Ate and Nerd to pick us up since they are our rides to Osaka Sushi next to United Artist. When we were there, we called the birthday girl to come so yeah. Then she came at 5 and thas when the resturaunt opened. It was BFFAAE, Ate, Nerd, my boypren and I. Pamangkin couldn't come cause her auntie wanted to take her out and fatties didn't come cause they are lazy. For BFFAAE's present, I gave her a rose, brownies and a big card wit some pictures we toke on our anniversaries and 8th grade year:) Yes, she liked it ;D Lols. I also gave my boypren a rose cause our 1 month was on the 14th which is a Saturday and obviously we can't hang out on the weekends since im always busy. He didn't get me anything and he felt bad but it's okay because I don't expect anythang ;D Lols. Friday was helluh fun though. We stayed out till 9 pm xD We walked to Foodsco aftah dinner, bought chips, candy and stayed at College Square and toke pictures(x It was funny lols. Well, BFFAAE had a fun time :D My boypren was supposed to take BFFAAE, Ate, Nerd&I to my house but his sister was wit her boypren so when my boypren left we went to Target to wait for BFFAAE's parents to come. It was boring at Target cause there was only a few people there. So when BFFAAE's parents came, she brought Nerd and Ate to my house. When we came to my house, we ate and rest before her sister came to pick them up. That night was the best though:) Lols. Hm .. What else to update .. Im moving): We found a very nice house at Franklin. It is 16 mins away from here. We started to move in Tuesday. &im sick so I missed school. Everyone misses me and I miss them oh so much D; My parents said I can't go to school yet cause im still not well yet but I feel okay. Kuya got me sick first so I hate him for that. This week was supposed to be my last week at MTHS but noo I just had to get sick -_- Ghey. Just hope I go to school tomorrow, Friday, cause I wanna say my last goodbye to second period the most. Imma miss them a lot =/ They always made my day. Of course imma miss Pamangkin, BFFAAE, my boypren, mostly everyone I know ! Ugh, this is so ghey. I hate when I move, I always start to fade from people. Just hope I don't fade wit them .. My boypren cried when I told him I was moving D; I feel bad .. &having a long distance relationship again ? *sigh* Well, we'll see how it goes. I guess thas all the updates for now.

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Date : October 30, 2009

Poem #1

I'm sorry this ever happened to us.
I'm sorry we messed up.
I'm sorry we didn't work it out.
I'm sorry this ended so fast.
I'm sorry all the memories faded.
I'm sorry for not staying strong.
I'm sorry for not giving my all.
I'm sorry we split up.
I'm sorry you left.
But now that we're through and you moved on,
Why do I have to say sorry ?
_Dedication to him ..

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October 03, 2009 _MTHS homecoming
I Want To Know What Love Is.MP3<3
October 14, 2009 @ 3:23 PM
: (3:22) "Do you like me enough to love me ?"
: (3:23)"I love you enough to ask you this : would you go out wit me ?"
: (3:23) "Yes"(:

42

Date : October 23, 2009

Updating Time:)

Hay loves. How have you been ? Lols. Well, I FINALLY have time to update my blogspot since it's Friday and I don't really have homework. I had times that I get to go on the computer but I don't really have much time to update so now I get to. Let's see, finally starting second term this week. So far, high school is getting better for me. Let's just say October 14, 2009 @ 3:23 PM was one of my best days. I'm taken though ;D Teehee. His name is Nhia and he's a sophmore. Yes, a sophmore lols. We have second period algebra together and luckily we have it the whole year so it's all good. I helluh love that class though ! Whenever my day is bad at the beginning, my day turns better aftah second period. Well, im starting to get over him. It's a good thing. But he pops up on my mind every now and then cause people start mentioning him which is ghey. Anyways, I did a lot of stuff these past few weeks since I haven't been blogging but its to long to type xD Let's just say a lot can happen in 1 week lols. So, im starting to be a good girl for my parents but they just keep bringing me down every time. It hurts so much when your parents say the negatives about you even though they MIGHT be kidding. All the shit im hearing is fck'n b/s. I'm stressing at home when im supposed to be only stressing wit school and whatnot. But I guess school is the only place that calms me down. I like being away from home at times so I won't have to deal wit all this b/s. But I have to go home so I have to deal wit it. My heart has been going wild nowadays because I hyperventilate a lot =/ Ghey .. Hm .. What else to say .. OH, today was the best day too:) In second period, we had a party to celebrate surviving the first terms lols. We just did the warm up and started watching Transformers and eat food. I brought pancit canton and everyone loved it ;D So, BFFAAE, Sonia, Elizabeth, Nhia&I sat in the back. Nhia was like flirting wit me xD Lols. Then aftah school, he walked me home and we gave each other the longest hug we ever gave each other. Yes, im happy:) Teehee. P.E. is torture ! I swear D: My thighs still hurt like fck. I like 8th grade p.e. better ! The stairs are torture but the track seems easier to run because I guess its rubber and whatnot. I run alone cause Monique runs slow xD So aftah p.e. during lunch, I kept getting compliments because I put my hair up on the side lols. I never put my hair up at school but now I do because of p.e. My classes are okay so far. Trying to still get good grades to make me&my parents happy. Hm .. Am I missing anything else ? OH, NERD LOST THE BET& I WON >:D Hehehe ! I have to make her do something for me xD But im still thinking because I want her to do something embarrassing xD Nerd, I know I said I don't want to make it hard for you but .. Never mind, I changed my mind:) Lols. So, Ate&I's 2 years is on Monday. YAY ! Pamangkin's&I's 1 year is on Sunday ;D I hope Nhia&I last. I have a feeling it will though. We are progressing each day so its all good. He's faithful though:) He doesn't hug girls as much as last time xD &we have our late night conversations before sleeping. Teehee. So, I go to Fairfield on the weekends to visit my cousins and whatnot. It's fun going there though lols. Because I haven't seen them in a while so I get to update wit them. When im there, I usually babysit but its okay, I have fun doing it:) Well, I'll try to update on Fridays when I have time. &I'll post up the new picture on my 'Rawr' blog lols. I guess thas all for now. If I missed something, I'll come back and re-update. Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

Haaaappy 1 year&1 month BFFAAE. iloveyou:) Always&Forever ;

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Date : October 5, 2009

My Weekend Part 2

So, as you should ALL know. Im grounded. I’ll tell you why. But before that, this means I won’t be blogging as much. Right now, imma just blog wit Microsoft word and copy it later to my blog when I get internet back. SO, let’s start off shall we ? So I left off before going to CFF class. When I was walking to class, I saw Cristyln. It was so random O_O Her&me had drama in 7^th grade but now its cool I guess. Trying to forget about the past and move on. She said she is signing up for CFF class to. She isn’t going to be in my class because my class is 7^th&8^th grade. Even though im in 9^th grade, I had to go down a grade since I didn’t attend 7^th&8^th grade year. ANYWAYS, when class started, all of us noticed our teacher wasn’t here when class started [8:45]. We were all like “whoops, she’s late, she gets the after class detention” lmfao xD It was funny. So our T.A. taught the class. She was better than our teacher(x We got to talk and whatnot. So Christian [Ate’s friend] was talking to Jessica, Celine and me. It was cool. We only had to do 1 assignment lols. We didn’t even have to take a test :D We usually take tests after class before leaving but w/e ;D Lols. All of us had to write our names on a paper so our teacher knew we were at class that day. &the best part, we got out of class 10 mins early lmao. After class, Shawn&I talked(x I get to see him&Shantelle every Saturday now:) While waiting for our rides, Jessica&I decided to go on the swings and be lito kid’s lols. It was cool:) I haven’t been on a swing since I last kicked it at the park. So when my daddy&kuya came to pick me up, we went home. Then when I got home, I ate brunch since I skipped breakfast before I left this morning cause I thought I would be late but I was early >.<>.< hour="9" minute="35">9:35 or something like that. I felt helluh bad. I didn’t even notice the time cause I was having so much fun ! When I got in the car, my parents were yelling at me of course&whatnot. When we got home, my mommy talked to me before I slept. She gave me “the talk”. &that’s the story of how I got grounded. When she was talking to me, I was helluh thinking about NewFriend&him. My phone died at the dance so it explains everything. When I put my phone in the charger and it turned on, I got like 10 text messages. I was like DAMN xD Then I fell asleep. I was helluh tired though ! Because it was a fun night to remember:) Well, the homecoming part that is<3 hour="11" minute="0">11 o’clock mass so I woke up early for nothing xD Lols. I got to tell her everything. Nerd got mad cause I danced wit NewFriend xD She still wants me wit him. So then it was like 10 something and Ate&Nerd picked me up for church. When we got to church, we were looking for people we knew xD We didn’t see Christian so we thought he is going to the 12 o’clock mass. We saw FOB though and other people from my class. The mass lecture was very weird cause it was kinda related to me O_O Ate was like “it’s a sign !” xD After church, they dropped me off home. When I got home, I ate, did my homework and then slept since I had no internet and I was still tired. I woke up and my lito brother was awake so I had to baby-sit him since my parents were gone looking for houses. They came home like 10 mins after my lito brother woke up. When they came home, he toke a bath and we ate dinner. After dinner, I toke a shower and got my things ready for school the next day. So overall, my weekend was very tiring and hectic. But even though I got in trouble, homecoming was worth it<3

Im Grounded.

Date : October 5, 2009

Yes, its true. Im grounded. My hardest punishments are here. No internet, house phone, outside privileges. Nada. All I can do wit my cell phone is to call for emergency's and text. If you need me, TEXT IT. I wonder if my phone is going to be taken away .. Maybe .. Don't know. But I guess this is my last blog till I earn my parents trust back. My mommy gave me the talk and I guess she's right, time to grow up and face the consequences. Imma blog if I get internet privileges anytime. My parents said I have to start sharing computer's wit my kuya since we are moving to an apartment I believe ? Or something. But knowing my kuya, I wont have time to go on myspace, aim [maybe], blogspot, etc. All those things I usually do. So I guess this is a farewell to all my followers .. For now..

Haaaappy Birthday Madre<3

To Be Continued ..

40

Date : October 03, 2009

Another Week Though:)

Spirit week(: Lols. BFFAAE, Pamangkin&I only dressed for 2 occasions; 'Beauty&The Best' and 'Stranded on a Island'. Corny names huh ? Yeah, our schools WOW xD My classes are getting better. 2 more weeks till 2nd term. This term went by fast though. Im getting my grades up to A's and hopefully will stay after the finals. If not, B's are okay. Trying to focus on school work before anything else. So this week, a lot happened for me. Lets just say Nerd MIGHT win. But .. The bet is turning. Im trying to not have feelings for NewFriend. Everyone was like 'if you go out wit him, imma be mad at you. you and Josh look good together !' LOls. Thas true though, Josh&I look like a good match. But then again, there is progression going on but I dont know if we go back out together .. IM SO SORRY BFFAAE ! My fellow readers, you dont need to know why(: But then again .. IMSORRYBFFAAEIMSORRYBFFAAEIMSORRYBFFAAEIMSORRYBFFAAEIMSORRYBFFAAE! Im truly sorry, I dont want to ruin our friendship just cause of this stupid thing =/ Besides that .. Friday was the best day ever ;D We had a rally schedule so our classes were an hour and 18 mins. NewFriend asked me to the homecoming dance today. I said yes:) He's nice though. He begged me this whole week xD We had a bet though. He had to be quiet in second period on Thursday and yesterday. He was but yesterday, he was kinda loud xD When it was quiet on Thursday, my teacher was happy and everyone else too(x So everyone wins ;D LOls ! Back to talking about yesterday ; Kido paid for my dance ticket cause I couldn't find Fa and it was almost time to go to 4th period. Imma pay him back on Monday though(: Tanks Kido ! I thought I was going to be late but I wasn't. THEN in 5th period AVID, we were going to have our vocabulary quiz and Carla&I didn't study BUT THEN our teacher said we are going to have it on Monday cause it was our teacher's birthday on Wednesday. We were saved xD So instead, we played a game. BFFAAE, Sonia, Monique&I were called the Mexasians ;D LMFAO ! We had 14 points. Sonia : "OMG, 14 !" Me : "What a coincidence ;D" LMAO. So after school like at 2:09, school ended and we could attend the rally if we want to and BFFAAE&I went wit NewFriend:) His friends kept shoving him on me xD Such losers LOls. The rally sucked though. After the rally, BFFAAE, NewFriend&I kicked it. So we decided to go see the break dance club. It was fun ! BFFAAE&I were just watching and recorded ;D The video link is on 'break dance club'. LOls. After the break dance club, NewFriend was supposed to give BFFAAE&I a ride but he couldn't. Its okay though, we wanted to walk to my house(x Lols. When BFFAAE&I were walking to my house, we were acting retarted at times but it was funny ;D Lmao. When we went to my house, we went on the computer, ate snacks, talked, etc. Then she had to go ): She's not even going to homecoming D; Imma miss her ! So when she left, thas when I edited the video. Then at like 9 ish, NewFriend wanted me to call him so I did xD We were on the phone for 1 hour and 5 mins cause my daddy had to use the phone xD But I called him back to say gnight lols. Well, imma go to CFF soon. So imma blog part 2 tomorrow. Well, thas all for now:) Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

My Answer To The Question ;

'Why do you have a boyfriend ?' [WHEN I was going out wit him ..]

We were friends wit benifits at first but then we toke it another level. Even though we were going out, we were still bestfriends. I could tell him anything and everything and he would always be there for me. I love him because he made me realize how my life is precious and he would never let me down. Even though I might not know the REAL reason to this thing called 'love' but I know that we had a special bond that I would call 'love'. Wit him by my side, knowing I have someone to go to whenever I feel like talking to someone, he would always be there for me to open up to him. Even though I had my mains to go to, he would always make me feel special everyday. He was like the best though. "Even though we aren't going out anymore, I miss him the most .." I miss how we used to be and all those memories we had. If I would go back in time, my second choice would be 8th grade. Because thas where it all started.

I love you, always&forever .. Unconditionally, I promise.

39

Date : September 28, 2009

1 Year of Blogspot:)

Why hello there. Yes, today is my 1 year of Blogspot. Yay, lols. The link up there is my first blog. Its boring but w/e right ? ;D So, I wont be talking about Blogspot for this whole blog since thas boring and I want to entertain you, teehee. So, people say 'Tumblr' is better than Blogspot -_- Its the same freakin' thing ! 'Tumblr' is just new in-a-way. But I love Blogspot better :D Lols. OMG, today I feel liked I was harrassed a lot ! NewFriend gave me a lapdance O_O Yes .. EWH ! I was just sitting in my seat side sattle then he put his arm on my shoulder and yeah. HE DID IT TO ME 2 TIMES ! He was like 'you know you liked it' the real answer is that ... HE IS NASTY OMG ! I had my eyes closed of course so I didn't see anything lols. Helluh people said I looked helluh red xD I was though D: Everyone was laughing and me of course even though it was NASTY ! But anyways, after school BFFAAE and I were walking and he saw us so we decided to walk wit us and his friends called him and he was like 'this is my best friend annjeanette !' I was like WOW xD Hannah was laughing lols. He had his arm around my shoulder which was weird. He kept reminding me about the 'lapdance'. Cause he said I could dance too but I don't show it cause I DON'T WANT TO. Lols. But yeah. Uhm, school today went by fast even though it was boring. I saw Ate Kimberly today after first period:) It was cool lols. We started talking and whatnot. I was so freakin' tired today, omg. Im still tired cause of the LONG weekend that was worth it ;D Ahahaha. I was texting Kuya on Sunday at like 12 but then I fell asleep on his as always(x He's used to that lols. I haven't talked to him in helluh long though cause we are busy nowadays wit school and whatnot. But I talk to him from time to time on aim. OH, on Sunday was the FAS 8 months anniversary ;D HAY ! Lols. Well, I guess thas all:) Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

6, 8, 12. MP3

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Date : September 25, 2009

Damn, week 6 went by fast ..

HAY:) How was your week sweetie ? Mine was good, tanks for asking ;D Well, my classes are getting better. I got extra credit for some of my classes. YES ! LOls. The only part that ruined my week was when problems started to come in. Helluh fcking ghey ... People want to start drama wit me already. DUDe, if you wanna fade, let's go. I hate when people get in your business. Friday, Saturday &today, Sunday is the best:) Friday, I got to hang out wit my Ate&Nerd. It was also Pamangkin&I's 11 months anniversary:) SOB&Fa was supposed to walk me to Florin. So when I got to their house, they said they were sick and I had to go by myself D; I started walking away sad and tired so then I thought that I should just go home. When I just got out of their street, Fa on his bike came and asked if I wanted him to peg me so it was nice of him(: We got to hang out while going to Florin. When we reached Isabelle Jackson, we saw Ate, Nerd and their boyfriends. So it was unexpected xD I felt like a third wheeler though cause I have no boyfriend of course. Oh well .. Now I know how they felt when I was wit him .. Made me think a lot though. So then we started heading for Ate&Nerd's house so we girls could get ready. The guys were just outside. Ate's boyfriend had to leave so it was Nerd's boyfriend&Fa outside waiting for us. It was the first time meeting Nerd's boyfriend and he's cool xD BUT he moves too fast -_- After we girls got ready, we had to drop off Nerd's boyfriend at Florin but then we all didn't want to go cause I was tired so Nerd, her boyfriend and Fa went to drop him off. Ate&I stayed at Toby Johnson Park, talked, layed down and toke pictures ;D When Nerd&Fa came back, we told Fa to go home and get some rest since he was sick. Then us girls started to head to their house so they could ask their parents if they can sleep over my house. I was supposed to sleep over their house but my parents said that we were looking at houses on Saturday. So we waited for their mom to come back and decided to just go on the computer. When their mom came, her parents said yes so they packed quickly and we headed for my house. When we arrived at my house, my brother, daddy&my lito brother went to go pick up my mommy. Ate, Nerd&I decided to take LOTS of pictures in my bathroom and then we went downstairs to set up the table and go on the computer as always. When my parents and brother's came back, we ate and watched the last show of Tayong Dalawa. OMG, Nerd, mommy&I cried ! After the show and eating, I had a cuss fight wit Ate's boyfriend cause he was getting on my last nerves. Then after that, we went outside to talk and in my car and toke pictures. We were tired so we headed up to my room and slept like at 12 cause we had to wake up early on Saturday. Saturday was Ate&I's 1 year&11 months anniversary:) We went to the Key Club breakfast thingy at MTHS so we woke up at 7 and got ready then walked. We waited for Pamangkin cause she had my money. We couldn't pay at the door so Ate, Nerd&I just decided to give my ticket away, get my money and walked towards SOB&Fa's house cause it reminded us about the 8th grade morning 'adventures' ;D After walking towards their house, we went to MTHS again, saw helluh people and just left to my house. When we got to my house, my daddy&Kuya left somewhere so mommy cooked for us. We girls talked about the house problem and whatnot. Then after, Ate, Nerd&I went on the computer and watched the beginning of Grudge 2 because Kuya came and said that we are going to Fairfield so I toke a shower and Ate&Nerd waited. After we got done getting ready, mommy, Kuya, Sebastian, Ate, Nerd&I went to Fairfield. It was Nerd's first time going cause Ate already been there. When we got their, Khaila and Oliver went somewhere. I guess double date ? LOls ! Well, we bonded wit my cousins and toke helluh pictures wit Pita:) We only got to stay there till 4 cause we needed to go home so Ate, Nerd&I could go to their homecoming at 5. So then we headed back to Ate&Nerd's house. Arrived at 5:30. We got ready helluh quick so we could met up wit Nerd's boyfriend at the library. When we got to the school, I saw my old friends from Anna Kirchgator&&&my cooool buddy ;D Jacky noticed me and we gave each other a big hug xD Lols ! When we saw Nerd's boyfriend, he was wit his friend so we decided to head for the line to get in. When we got to the door, their was helluh cute asians OMG ;D Lols ! But then Nerd kept telling them that 'im waiting'. I am but I dont know if he still likes me or not. I don't want to tell the rest of the details cause trust me, it was GHEY -_- I met new friends:) Shawn [if he spells it like that] talked to me and waited wit me cause he had the same reason as me. He was cute though but I don't know if he's wit my friend Jacky. After that night, we went home at 9:30 ish ? We went on the computer, uploaded the pictures on Nerd's myspace and headed for bed at 1 ish ? Lols. On Sunday, today, we went to church at 11. We saw people:) Lols. Then after church we went to Rileys to get food then headed to their house. When we got to their house, we got home and ate. Then I had to leave at 1:30 so then their dad dropped me off home. Overall, my weekend was fun. How was yours ? Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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Date : September 24, 2009

Today's Horoscpoe For Gemini ;

'Cause it represents me ..


Gemini
(May 21 - Jun 20) -

It still might take a few more days for your life to return to normal, for you have recently been on a wild ride. You are being given a chance to think about your experiences and decide what to do next. Just remember that it's easy for you now to make nearly anything look bigger, better or more important than it truly is. Bringing yourself back to reality is healthier than waiting for someone else to do it for you.

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Quotes of the Month :

"I can only imagine how my life would be like if everything was simple."

"Cause I go through my days wit a smile on my face and say everything is okay when everything is not."

"Its simple as that. Your gone and im lost."

"Persevering helps me live my life without a simple doubt."

"Even though this thing we have is not normal, everyday, I think we're just fine when we're not."

"Because the fact that your gone and not ever going to be mine again, I miss you the most."

"I've learned it all and seen it all but even though it seems tough, stick your head up high and deal wit it."

I love you, unconditionally. Always&Forever ..

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Date : September 21, 2009

Mandala Essay.

In life, we all have our stories of what makes us unique and why our life turned

out to be. Some of us lived a simple life, but some, had it harder. This is my story;

If you would ask where it all began, my answer would be St. Charles Borremeo,

San Francisco. I’ve been there since Kindergarten through 4th grade. I moved because

my parents couldn’t afford the tuition anymore. St. Charles Borremeo is special to me

because I learned a lot about being catholic and my perspective of life. I thought I

wouldn’t like the school I would go to next because St. Charles Borremeo was the best

but then again, my life changed.

Edward Harris Middle School, 8^th grade year was the most memorable year

because of the ‘episodes’ that have happened. I met my true friends, the F.A.S., and

importantly, my superman. My life changed while I progressed each day. That year was

where parts of my life started to turn. Some days, I would want to give up but the only

people who kept me up the most, was the F.A.S.

The F.A.S stands for Fly Asian Society. It is our group name. We've

been friends since 8^th grade, but some, since 7^th grade. In our group, we have

Hannah, Sylvia, Karyz, Zhane, Fa, Hao, Kenji, Josh and I. They are what I call my true

friends. We all have been through a lot together and we never gave up on one another.

My life has been pretty rough these past months. My family and I are going

through a lot which makes it hard to balance between school and my life. Finding a house

is enough to deal with but with my grandma having cancer, it’s just too much. We’re

trying to keep it together but for me, I can’t handle having ups and downs all the time.

When I move, it is going to be my 8^th time moving and my last is when I go to the Philippines which

is when im done with high school.

Reminiscing makes me think about how my life turned out so far. Its makes me

wonder if I toke the right paths or not. Knowing that everything will be okay soon makes

me wonder ‘when?’ Because when things start to get rough, my friends and I just have

one thing to say “no matter what happens, it’s always&forever”. Even when things start

turning around for you, don’t stop and hesitate, keep on trying because there is no fear in

trying and trying again. I’ve did it all and seen it all, but im not going to stop because I

know I have to persevere.

Your perspective in life is your own thoughts of how you see life. My

perspective; it’s tough but all you have to do is persevere to do your best. The moon on

my Mandala represents my superman. Because he gave me more advice and we think the

moon is pretty:) The sunset represents the F.A.S. because we love watching the sunset

together. The Filipino flag represents my heritage and how I love to always tell everyone

I am proud to be who I am. My story tells how I always persevere even when life gets

tough and that’s my advice to you; no one has a perfect life, it’s the fact that you’re alive

and never underestimate your circumstances.

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Date : ...

September 19, 2008 @ 11:30 pm

I Love You. Always&Forever. I Promise.

You may not care about the date but even though, I just wanna say tanks for all those times when you made me happy and actually smile. Sorry for everything I caused .. And those times I made you feel bad, mad, etc .. Even though we're not together, I love you. Always remember that. Pwease ..

September 19, 2009 @ 11:30 pm

'Cause it still seems like it was just last year .. When everything was alright .. Nothing to worry about .. Until now ..

"It's not about holding on, it's about not letting go .."

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Date : September 18, 2009

Haaaappy Birthday SOB:) Yous helluh cool !

Yes, just a lito shout out to my 'ex brother - in - law' cause today he turned 15. Shoot, his ass is helluh old:) Ahaha. But he's cool ! Yawp. Well, this week was the fifth week of school. This term went by fast. Almost second term ! Trying get my grades to stay in the 'A' range but it's not working ): Im helluh stressed nowadays. Can't even concentrate on school. I know, school first but too many things getting in my way. Helluh annoying. Well, this week, second period keeps getting better everyday ;D I helluh love my second period. Good thing I have it all year long ;D Imma miss it though next year. But like today, my 'new friend' wasn't here so today was too chill in second period D; Nothing to laugh to. &I was looking forward to second period today since it was Friday. So, school is school. Lot's of homework. Classes still chill for now. Eh, school is boring. I only go cause second period ! &lunch wit granddaughter of course. Yesterday was a miracle. Tank you Josh, for the talk:) Thas what I needed to hear. I had like a 'deep conversation' wit him last night. I wanted to webcam him but he had to go and my webcam was freakin' retarted xD Sorry about that. I won't remember what he told me. Guess what today is kids ? Its the eighteenth. Kuya ; don't you remember ? Well, yeah. Today we had Freshman BBQ for only freshman's. it was cool:) After school, BFFAAE&I went to go wait for her mom so she could put her stuff in the car then we waited for Ate&Nerd to come. They came wit there friend Brenda. The one that looks like Pamangkin xD We all headed to the Freshman BBQ to get food xD Yes, we only went to get food ;D Then everyone got to see Ate&Nerd. Then off to Fa's house ! When we were walking, we saw 'ex brother - in - law #2' wit Fredy and that other guy xD Then after we said hi, we continued going to Fa's house. When we got there, I said Happy Birthday to SOB ;D Cause im nice lol. Then SOB, Fa, &Cristian followed us to the Freshman BBQ. I was supposed to kick it wit Fa&SOB but Cristian was wit them so whatever -_- Ruined my plans ! Anyways, when we came back, BFFAAE had to go D; So Ate, Nerd, Brenda&I went back to the Freshman BBQ and just hung out there. Ate&I got to talk to Tino on the phone ! OMG, his voice got deeper xD I missed him ! Last time I saw him was 7th grade D; BUT, he's moving to MTHS Christmas Break ! YAY ;D Ate&I's lito brother is coming back ! Im so happy:) Then unfortunately, we had to go home. So they walked home&I walked home alone. So overall, my day was okay. LOls. Tomorrow, I have CFF then off to Daly City then visit the cousins. OH, the 28th is my 1 year of blogspot ! Of course imma blog that day ;D LOls. Get updated though ;D Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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Date : September 15, 2009

Cause AVID made me think a lito more ;

So in AVID, we did a Mandala quick write.
The question was :

"Who are the most specialist people to you
and
Why do they make them special ?".

This is what I wrote ..

The most specialist people to me are the F.A.S. group. We have 9 members in the group. My friends in the group are Hannah, Sylvia, Karyz, Zhane, Hao, Fa, Josh, Kenji and myself. We all been friends since 8th grade. For some of us, since 7th grade. The F.A.S. are special to me because they have been by my side for everything. We never go through anything a lone. F.A.S. is our family name. It stands for Fly Asian Society:) Karyz, my older brother and I made the name. We made it on January 27, 2009. So it has been almost 8 months in the making ! We all hang out on occasions so its fun. We support each other in everything and give the best advice ever. The 9 of us are all like brother's and sister's. They are my life. I would give up anything just to be wit them forever .. <3

This was a timed write and it may be short but it looks long on paper(x I would have wrote more but I think too much xD When I wrote this, I was remembering all those times we had when we were all together. Even though we may had 'those times' they still brighten up my day. They are the ones who have my back no matter what. They are the reasons why I go on wit my life each day. This topic made me realize who are my heroes. They are my true ones. I can go to them for anything. I finally found my family that appreciates everything I gave up for them. They know I gave up a lot in the past years and they would never take advantage of me. Unlike others, they would love to help me out in need. They aren't selfish, nor rude. If I would have to describe them, I would say 'family'. No matter what happens, its always&forever<3 know them. They proved themselves to me that I can trust them. We start developing with one another every time we hang out. So all those kick its, yes, they were what you may call 'stupid' but to us, its what we call having fun ;D So thas my story ..

I love the F.A.S. Because they are the realest<3

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Date : September 13, 2009

Haaaappy Birthday FOB:) MahalKita Sweetie<3

AHA, funny how "Always&Forever" wasn't that long .. I won't forget all those things you said to me and did to me. Cause even though you hurt me, I still love you. You aren't realizing the real point in all of this. Cause you always block out the 'situation' even though I try to talk to you. Sure, your talking to me but thas not what I want to hear. I want to hear the truth. For me the truth, yesterday you really hurt me. Even though the first time was breaking up wit me but last night when I just wanted to let it all out, you just said it. I was thinking to myself "wtf, why did I even bother talking to him". But I knew I was going to be hurt because everything I do is just nothing to you. I make everyone happy but not myself. Helluh bothers me a lot though. &the fact that 'everything will be okay soon' won't even happen anymore. I thought everything would go back to normal but now, I dont think there is a chance. Aha, and I still have those messages on my phone. Why didn't I delete them ? Because I knew I should have something to remind me of you sooner or later. You walked out on me when things were rough. I dont blame you for anything because I should blame myself. I tried to get you back but you didn't let me in. It was not even worth my time. Thinking that you'll try to find your inner self and see all that is going on but now, you can't see the real meaning. Its true, I still do love you and you even know but you don't care. I dont blame you. Its your choice anyways. But its just easy nowadays to make me hurt because I break easily. Sure, crying doesn't do anything but it makes me let it all out in-a-way. I hoped, and I risk everything. I tried not to put all my hopes on "us" but I still did. Because you know why ? Because I thought there was a chance. But now, I guess its really .. over .. I missed how we used to be. I miss those times when we were still together. Sure, we had "fights" but it didn't get to us. We made up and continued on. Ate even misses those times we were being all 'lovey dove dove' together. Its also funny how the day you asked me out keeps popping up in my head. You know why I keep your stuff ? Because those are the only things that make me reminisce about those days. Do you still remember when we were together and you were still here ? All those stuff we did together. But still, no, I don't regret anything. Just the fact that I talked to you yesterday thinking 'everything will be okay' but then ended up crying. All I ask is to read all my blogs. They tell it all. I wouldn't want to tell you everything that I feel because you wouldn't care. No lie, everything you did for me was the best. Actually, you are the best. Thas why I wouldn't want to let you go. Its just hard knowing your over me. Even though Ate&Khaila&Danielle said to not give up, there is a part of me saying give up. But thas only like five percent. We were together for 9 months, 2 weeks&6 days. I actually thought we were going to make it. It was almost 10 months. Going to be a year sooner or later. This coming Saturday is the 19th of September. The supposedly '1 year' .. Aha, funny how we had plans and whatnot to come. With our relationship, I really knew what love was. I thought it was going to be true&worth it. It was. But was it true ? .. Even though we aren't together, it was. Everyone knew it was. They all knew we loved each other so much. Cause everything we told each other was the realest. I trusted you the most. You helped me out wit all my problems. I could talk to you about anything. My only wish, is that you can see the real thing im trying to say .. <3

Haaaappy 7 months BestFriend:)

September 19, 2008 @ 11:30 PM - July 11, 2009 ..

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Date : September 11, 2009

OMG, Nine Eleven ?!

So, fourth week down and five more weeks till second term. Today was nine eleven as you should all know. At school, we talked about it in all of my classes. School is okay so far. Trying to make the best of it. Freshman year in MTHS then the rest at hopefully Florin ? We'll see. WAS supposed to take a picture with Granddaughter but we can't find each other after school and whatnot. Anyways, this week went by fast cause of Monday, the holiday ;D AHAHA ! Funny ass day huh Ate ? Yawp. It felt weird though, I thought yesterday was Wednesday xD But yeah. My classes are okay - ish ? My grades are dropping to "B's" -_- Freakin' ghey ! UGH. I have to bring them up again. Stupid teachers with ghey ass homework. Besides that, im kinda getting a long wit other people now. Eating lunch nowadays with Granddaughter, Lena and sometimes Kido [Junnel]. I made my AVID Mandala project. It's due Monday but I finished like on Wednesday. It toke me almost two hours D; But worth it ;D I can't believe people think imma pro AHAHA ! Tanks to everyone who called me a pro though. Made me smile(: Imma post the picture on my other blog of course. Check it out ? ;D LOl. Hm ... What else to say .. SOB's birthday is coming up ! Imma get him something:) Teehee, cause he deserves something ;D LOl. I don't like him ! Just saying. To all the people who think that *ahem*ATE*ahem* :D Ahaha. So, today was successful. After school, I walked to Ate's house to kick it. They picked me up like when I was almost near their house cause they saw me walking(x Then we kicked it at Toby Johnson Park wit thatonedude cause he wanted to meet me and I wanted to meet him. He's okay .. FOR NOW. We'll have to see about next week. IF he comes next week cause I have plans. AHA. So, a lot has been going through my head lately. Just thinking about what happened and whatnot. Helluh ghey .. Ate&I cried like two nights ago ? We cry now and then .. We were having our 'deep conversation' on the phone. Then she told me to go on aim but when I did, I felt sleepy so I signed off on her ass(x Teehee. Im nice, yes I know:) Pictures are on my other blog ! Go check it out ;D So, how was your week sweetie ?(: Hm .. I guess thas all ? Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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Date : September 8, 2009

Haaaappy Birthday Ateeee !

Heeeey Ate:) Happy birthday ! Hope your having a great day ;D Wish I can be with you right now but you know, we're far apart and all =/ Hope to see you soon ? Or in the future(x Either one would be nice ! OH YEAH, Philippines 2010:) LOl. Well, I just wanted to say, tanks for everythang you did for me. You've been there for my worst times to make me smile and I know I can go to you for anythang. I love you more than ever though ! Your the best I ever had :D Ahaha. Even though we only went to school together for 4 years, those were the best. When we were in the same Volleyball&Basketball team together, fun times(: I love you forever on ! Your indescribable but for me, the only way to describe you is that your my Ate forever. Teehee. Anyone messes' wit you, hit me up and I'll fck them up for you. Anythang for my Ate ! Duuuude, you give me the best advice ever ! LOl. I know your doing good there so keep it up. Ahaha. Man, your getting old Ate xD AHA ! Jkaaaay:) Pshaw, I need to give you your birthday gift when we meet up for the Philippines ;D Ahaha. &&we need to take helluh pictures ! We haven't had a picture together in agessss ! Since like .. Basketball&Volleyball days xD LOl. I still have those pictures btw ;D You make my day every time I talk to you. Its like you know how to make me smile:) Hehe. Gosh, only if I still lived in Daly City, I would go to the same school as you and kick it wit you like everyday ! That would be nice, won't it ?;) Ahaha. Well, I guess my birthday wish for you is that may all your wishes to come true. Well, one of them is ;D AHA ! You should know what that one is. Teehee. Thas all I wanted to say so take care Ate !

I LUHB YOUS !

Sincerely, Ading<3

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Date : September 6, 2009

Haaaappy Birthday Gdaughter !

Well, just a lito shout out to my granddaughter. Hope you had fun today ;D Yay, your 14 xD Man, you still call me old though. Ahaha. Well yeah, my day was great tankyouverymuch:) So this morning, I watched ASAP '09 [filipino thang] and the Jabbawockeez performed ! It was the shit though. Worth waking up to ;D Pwuaha. It would be helluh cool if I was at ASAP live though. That would be like worth my trip to Philippines ahaha. Well, after that, my mom, brother, lito bro and I went to Fairfield. Going to Fairfield was helluh funny xD Kuya's smartness came to him. Mom : "You need to eat more squash for your eye sight" Kuya : "Can I just eat something else ?" Mom : "It needs to be a yellow vegetable" Kuya : "Yeah ill just eat an orange" ME : "LMFAO ! That aint a vegetable, thas a fruit &especially, that's an ORANGE ! LMFAO !" OMG, funnest shit ever ! xDD LOl. He helluh failed at that xD Then we listened to Rnb the whole way xD Well, until we reached Vacaville cause nothing good was one the radio. My brother and I were singing along xDD LOl. When we reached to Fairfield, Kuya drove to my cousins house. He's good at driving now. But im still scared when it's going to be us only cause Kuya is going to act stupid. Yes, I know im nice:) Ahaha. Well, when we reached Fairfield, Khaila&I thought of going to the mall so then we asked and Kuya Johnnon, Kuya, Pita, Khaila and I went to Fairfield mall. That was cool, I got to spend time wit my cousins:) Khaila&I were matching ;D We both wore a scarf that our Tita Achie gave us from Florida. Mine was purple and her's was blue of course ahaha. When we got to the mall, we went to Wet Seal cause Khaila was going to buy a vest but instead, we ended up looking at graphic tee's and whatnot for .. 30 min I suppose xD The clothes there were helluh cute ;D Teehee. I need to go shopping again. I haven't went shopping in a while. OH, there was this one shirt that was blue, had a baby chick on it and a crack egg. It said "Fail". LMAO. I helluh loved that shirt xD But instead, Khaila and Pita picked out a Hello Kitty shirt for me ;D Khaila decided to buy it for me cause "it shouted out my name":) Khaila bought a purple ninja shirt that says "who called the ninja's" xD It was tight. Ahaha. Then we noticed that we forgot about the vest she had to get so we started looking at the other side and in front. The vest were okay-ish but then Khaila didn't like them so yeah. She also bought shoes(x After that, we got a vanilla shake. It was the bomb :D Ahaha ! But then we had to go home cause my mom said we were leaving soon. BUT, we didn't leave yet(: When we came back, we all prayed of course. My Tito Gary cooked stake and whatnot. We had like a bunch load of food ! Khaila, Pita and I were waiting for the food to cook so we decided to look at the hello kitty site I looked at yesterday. THEN, Inspiration came ! Oliver decided to join us cause he thought it was interesting too lmfao. The food was cooked so we ate, toke pictures and video's. I don't have the video and pictures cause pita and my Tita Ada toke them wit there camera's so yeah(: I ate helluh though ! My stomach was so fuuuull when I came home xD We went home like at 8 cause Sebastian was getting sleepy. But today was the funnest day ever ! Next Saturday might be the same, I hope. Teehee. Well, im sleepy. Going to sleep&get rest for tomorrow's kick it wit the F.A.S. ladies:) Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

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Date : September 5, 2009

Aha .. Hilarious ..

First is first, congratulations to my Ate&thatonedude. I know his name, I just like not calling him his name xD Yes, im nice:) Tankyouverymuch ! LOl. Anyways, I just helluh noticed .. Too many couples breaking up. Like .. 4 I believe. Aha, funny, im one of them .. Actually, two for me. [But not counting one] Its helluh weird. Stupid I should say. What ever happened to "Always&Forever". It was a lie. Wtheck though .. -_- I miss the old days .. I want to go back to the way it used to be .. He made me happy. He made me actually smile. I learned a lot from him. Did I do something for this to happen ?.. I would never know .. Until something [a miracle] happens. Almost 2 months since we broke up. 'Why are all the good couples breaking up !' _Ate. I know right Ate ? .. It was so great back then. What happens next ? A LOT ; Im moving. He won't talk to me. Mama might take the 'next step'. Are my prayers not enough ? What else do I have to do to help ?.. It's just sad looking at what happens next. Actually, I don't want to look at what happens next because of course I won't like it. Just one miracle and maybe .. Things will get back its way ? "There's always a rainbow after the rain." Why aren't I seeing it yet ? *Sigh* Things are just too difficult nowadays. I look at my friends life, they have it straight forward and they make it seem easy. Looking at my life ; my family, friends, problems. Its just too hard to make it complete now. I don't want to move because im already adjusting to MTHS and I really want to stay in this house. Yeah, the neighborhood is ghey ass hell but I love the memories that happened here. I really wish I can comprehend wit him again .. I really miss him. My life is just .. Not complete without him ? He made me realize how love really feels. It felt right and I didn't want it to let it go. I was reminiscing about when he was still here and when we were still together. I was actually happy about my life and nothing bad happened. Until he left to the Philippines. I don't blame him for that. Enough about that. The big issue that is going on is about my mama. She is having a hard time. Im praying really hard for her to get better. We all want her to get better. I feel so bad for her .. She was the one who I was talking about in my other blog. Khaila&I have a terrific plan ! When we grow up, we are going back to San Pablo and re-buy our old houses ! Especially mama's house:) We had so many memories there, we just want it all back. Yesterday, we were reminiscing about the old days .. Damn, we had a lot of good times. Then this question came to our mind , "if we were to stay there. if we didn't move. would we all be more successful ?" I would have to say yes. No worries. We are all together. Even though I wouldn't have met my terrific F.A.S. group, I would be with my family. No offense, I LOVE my F.A.S. group. They made my Elk Grove days, I mean YEARS, the best ever. I didn't think my life here would be this successful. But I love it now:) I never regret anything I did here. I love them forever on. Cause they were there for me through anythang. Anyways ; San Pablo was the best years ever. Straight up. *Sigh* I guess thas all I wanted to let out. Let's just say, I would want to go back in time and fix it up. One thing I learned from my life : Live your life to the fullest and have no regrets. Make it your best and make it fun. Well, I guess thas all. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

Dear God ,

Four more years please ..

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Date : September 4, 2009

Third Week of School Accomplished.

Third week done, Fourth week coming, Five more weeks of first term and A LOT more days of school. Managing of course. So, this week was okay. I still think last week's was better:) I was supposed to make a 2 way cwalk wit Kido [8th grade, Art class nickname] but my camera died -_- AND we had like 1o mins ! UGH, stupid camera. Besides that, this week went by .. Pretty slow I guess. Finally Friday ; kicc it day ! My week of homework done and turned in. Grades are straight A's still. Hope they will stay that way. Just did a test, hope I pass. It was okay I guess. I was falling asleep though. Ugh, I need more rest nowadays. I do too much. But, worth it. High school pretty far is okay. I just need to focus on my grades than other stuff. My classes are still the same. Only second period makes me happy ;D HAHAs. You guys should know why, teehee. WELL, if you don't know .. Read my blogs and get caught up ! AHAHs. The only class I struggle in is English. Algebra 1 is okay so far. General Science is easy so far. AVID, I don't have to worry about;) LOl. GAHH, I don't want first period pe next term ! Helluh ghey -_- I don't remember what classes I have next term but all I know is that I have pe. OH, I also remember I still have third period lunch. I have three, three, four, four. <-- My lunch for the terms xD AHAHA. If we the same lunch period, hit me up though ;D Hm .. What else to say about my week .. Oh, I eat lunch wit gdaughter now. She needs someone to go eat lunch wit her. &she makes me sit wit her friends in the "Asian Table" LOl. It's all good though. Gambling involve. Of course, Asian's gamble every time. Isn't it true ? ;D I sometimes feel left out though cause they are all Viet and whatnot. But, oh well, im used to it. I guess thas all for school. One more thing, next week is Club Rush so I might join Photography Club &also on September 18 is the Freshman BBQ and after is the first football game so imma go ;D I just need to remind my parents xD Wanna come wit me ? Let's go though:) AHAHA. New Friend is ghey(x Buh nice, hehe. J&J are cool too. AHAHA. Well yeah. I make my parents happy wit my grades, makes me feel successful too. Trying to manage myself wit work and home. Especially wit my friends. Making sure I get to talk to them and hang out wit them so we get information wit each other. But have you noticed .. I don't have time for myself ? I make everyone happy and put myself last. I know, im nice:) I love making my family and friends happy. When I think about it .. They make me happy and that's all that I need. They are my life. They complete me. I love them oh so much. I can never be the same without them. Well, thas all for now. Gonna kicc it wit Ate ! &her soon-to-be Boofriend xD He is looking forward to meeting me today. LOl. Funny. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

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Date : August 6, 2009

To Prepar for the Worst ..

So, as you should know. Im moving. Imma miss this neighborhood .. I had helluh memories here. Even my friends did too. A lot of good memories mixed wit bad ones .. But overall, its sad how things are starting to fade away. I've been keeping track wit my grades and trying not to think about the past but everyday, I still do. No one can ever forget about the past. Because it happened. Even though I was sad back then but .. It felt better than how I feel now. Because I had a lot of time to tell them how much I care about them and how much I love them. They treated me so kind and they always had something to say when I felt bad. Even though I haven't been wit him for a long time, it felt like I knew him. My grandma was the best ! Even when I was lito, when I was crying, I would always go to her. Whenever something happened, I would always call her or go to her for help. She helped me through my "past times" made me feel better. She's so kind and helpful. I remembered everything. I will never forget those memories. I try to visit her on weekends wit my mom and brother but we are busy with finding a house. So now, we got a house ; I hope I get to see my grandma and my cousins more often. I miss seeing them everyday. I miss how things used to be when I was living wit them. Even though we had lito space, at least I was with them. I miss how I used to go to the same school as inspiration and Rec after school. I miss my old life. Because my old life made me realize how precious time is and that you should live it up to the fullest. Never back down cause there is always something ahead that will keep you going. Now, I see life as my own. I want what's best for me family, friends and of course, myself. Im trying to keep it together but I always seem to fail. Even at home, I get in trouble nowadays just cause of one simple thing. Its hard but im trying to manage. Im not "complaining", im just letting out my thoughts. I know, other people have harder lives than me so I shouldn't complain. Just to make it simple, if you tick me off one time, imma go off. I can't really control my anger no more. It's hard. Cause whenever im mad, I always have to hold it in. I never found anything to take out my anger yet. Probably just blogging and taking out my thoughts wit my Ate. Well, I guess that's it ? Gonna blog tomorrow of course to talk about my week. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?