07

Date : July 30, 2009

F.A.S. ;January 27, 2009 ;Always&ForeverKido's:)

Dang, 6 months and still going xD I just wanted to write somethings about the Fly Asian Society ;D We were friends ever since 8th grade started but we decided to make the "group" later on lol. Well, a lot has been going on right now with this thing people call "drama" but its b/s. Im always going to be there for the F.A.S. no matter what. Even when things get rough, I put the F.A.S. before anythang. I love them till death due us part. No matter what happens, its Always&ForeverKido's:) Well, my brother made up the name cause the name Karyz&I made, he said it was stupid and kept making fun of it so I told him to make a name for us and he really made a good one o.o LOL. OH, we have a myspace apparently so hit us up there if needed(x They were the ones that made my day "perfect". Even at times when I just wanted to give up life, they kept me up at all times. Damn though, I helluh love them ! I appreciate everythang they did for me(; Im sorry for the times I put the F.A.S. into but I promise, it won't ever happen again :D Even though we may fade in high school, always know im gonna be here to support all of you forever. I care so much about you all. Your like the #1 Family though ! Im like part of 3 families xD My Own family, Rawr Boo Bluhd &now F.A.S. ! Remember the picture from Spring Fling [up there] ? That was a fun day ! &Fredy wasn't supposed to be in the picture o.o But whatever, it was the only picture that was ALMOST perfect(: I hope we can get another picture together again lol. The next kick it, we are gonna take A LOT of pictures ! LOL. Well, let's just say, I promise to never ever ever ever ever fade. Thas all for now.

F.A.S. is helluh cool though bluhd ;D

06

Date : July 30, 2009

So, I felt like blogging cause of this "thing" that is going on right now. Well to start off, people need to start telling the truth. Even though it may hurt, its better than just living life with a lie. I've been told lies a lot, even this month. Like wtf. At least just tell me the truth and I could help you. &plus, that lie helluh hurts me so much. You don't know how much I am hurting right now. I know you don't care but at least try to help you know ? Instead of just ending up not ever talking to me again. Avoiding the situation isn't helping either, its just causing more problems. You helluh changed though. Its different now a days. The FAS stood by you all this time and you repay us with this ? What the heck is that ?! I know, im helluh trippin' over this but at least I have a reason. A GOOD DAMN REASON. Yes, I try taking my anger out by blogging but then again tears fall down every time. I had to suffer a lot. All the shit im going through right now with moving and FAS fading are just straight up b/s. Never in my life have I ever been in these kinds of situations before. I really love the FAS. Always&Forever. I would never do anything to them that may hurt them. Im always going to be by their side through thick and thin. We may be fading but know that you will always be in my heart, forever. Back to topic ; All im saying is think before you say or do shit. Its getting helluh annoying how things are just falling apart and only some of us have to suffer. I confess, im not being the bigger person that I should be but I just can't stop trippin' over this. Everyday, I try to think it through but the only thing in my mind right now is how the good old days used to be and how I want that back. I want the old you back. Not the new you that never talks to us no more and how your always "busy" and have to make a lame excuse. What ever happened to the person I fell in love with ? The one that would be there for me no matter what ? Im still the same; still stressing, going through a lot, trying to stay strong for you cause I PROMISED, etc. Man, just thinking about it, do I regret ? NO I DON'T. Cause I know, somewhere inside of you, you are still the same. Please, try not to forget the old you.

-The only thing im looking forward to is a new start in Sheldon High School, [hopefully] go back to the Philippines May 2010 w/ Ate Leigh Anne:) &start being a bigger person and learn from all of this.

05

Date : July 17, 2009

I learned a lesson, I saw it all, I did it all. Yes, dreams do come true when you reach for them. If you do one simple thing wrong, you might ruin it all. Maybe, maybe not. We're kids ; we learn from our mistakes and move on so we can do better in the future. If you focus to much of the future, your gonna miss out on a lot thas going on now. Be careful of what you chose cause you never always get a second chance. Always&Forever isn't really what it seems, sometimes it comes out to never. Crying can't solve anything. You can cry all you want to let it out but you can also do something about it. Hearts are fragile, its never fixed up easily. Seeing life go pass by you makes you think what to do next. Even though there may be something holding your happiness back, move on cause maybe there is something good that may come after. Its never a happy ending cause everyone has something that isn't that .. Happy.

04

Date: June 30, 2009

We may be foolish and stupid but I guess its cause we are just kids . No one can really understand what love means till it comes to you. In life, we always get b/s but I know we can't all be perfect. At some point, we get karma but thas part of life. Even if you do only one simple thing wrong, it might ruin you forever so be careful and take it one step at a time. "When life gives you apples, you just get lemons". Rushing things aren't going to help. Its just going to give you more pain and suffering. I experienced making decisions and it isn't easy. You may think its easy cause its just choosing one thing from the other but they have meanings. Trying to find the deeper meaning takes time so don't rush. "Probably your heart is trying to tell you something. It's just not the right time yet. So your heart will be given some time." I learned from a friend<3

03

Date: June 21, 2009

Mmkays, well I haven't wrote something "new" in a while so imma just write about whas wrong. These past few days, I wanted to cry my eyes out ! I can't handle this shit no more. Drama in summer ? Really ? UGH. Fcking b/s. I know, I cuss a lot. Only when im mad though. First thing first ; I helluh love my boypren though(: We been together for 9 months and 2 days<3 Even though we may fight at times, we talk it out and get over them pretty easily. I love him. Always & Forever. ipromise. Second thing ; being in a "love triangle" is hard. I love them both the same but they gotta realize that its harder for me cause im the main. Love&like is two different things. [I learned the best from Inspiration&my boypren] Third thing ; the past is hard to forget. You can't get away from it cause its your past, it follows your everywhere. Like drama. Everywhere, all the time. People say you cant forget your 'first love'. Thas true .. You don't have to forget about them, just don't be sprung over them. Its just going to bring you more pain. Yes, I experienced it. Being in situations isn't easy. I want to cry my eyes out right now but I cant cause of my heart condition. Yes, I still have my heart condition. Its not serious but I have to be careful. Im like tearing right now. Its so hard. Thinking is not easy. My life is so complicated right now. This may sound stupid but its hard for me cause im not used to it. Too many stuff are happening and im trying to keep it together. Cause I promise my boypren I wont cry when he's not here.

_All is said than done.

02

Date: June 9, 2009

Love ; Its not just a common word, its something we share. Its a special gift God gave us to cherish and keep. It may be painful but no one said its going to be easy. Love is a strong and meaningful word. If you use it, it has a meaning. People use it, but always regret it. For us kids, love isn't the real thing older adults seem it be, but to us, its a feeling you get when you share your compassion wit someone else. No one should be young or old enough to love. We should all have a right. What is love ? Its a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend. People like to say, love knows no boundaries or age. Love is fate. Love has the power to overcome all difficulties. Love life is just a personal choice, and they strongly resent being judged by other people's standards of right and wrong. However, with love comes responsibility. Loving someone is about being responsible for your own feelings and your own decisions. Loving someone is agreeing to take responsibility for yourself and the person you love.
From the bible :
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
I Corinthians 13:4-8

To be continued ..

01

Date : December 22, 2008

Once again, family problems. Getting yelled at isn't a good thing especially for me. I just can't deal with these things anymore. I thought this year was going to be different but it isn't. It is just worst. I always reminisce about the past because that's the only thing that i was happy about in my life. Living life to the fullest is important for every kid. The only days that i found happiness was when i found 2 very special people. My NERD and HIM. I love my NERD. She's always there when i needed someone to talk to and HIM. He is always there to make sure i have a smile on my face(: I love them both. Without them, i wouldn't be able to be living my life right not. They are very important to me and if anything happens to them, i wouldn't even know what i will do. My NERD, INSPIRATION, Cousins, Ate's, KUYA & HIM are the people that bring me up and the reason why im still living. Without any of them, i wouldn't be able to handle the things that are accuring now. NERD always makes me smile and laugh through anything. INSPIRATION gives me good advices that i can always use. My cousins are always there for me when i need someone to make me laugh or just when i need to tell someone something. My Ate's are always there when i just need someone who can keep me company. KUYA is always there when i need someone to talk to and when im bored he makes me laugh xD Thas how corny we are haha. Last but not least, HIM; I luhb him<3 He always makes me smile and he tries to make me laugh when he has the chance. 3 months and still growing strong. Thas all that is need to be said. Kbye(: I luhb you<3