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Date : September 5, 2009

Aha .. Hilarious ..

First is first, congratulations to my Ate&thatonedude. I know his name, I just like not calling him his name xD Yes, im nice:) Tankyouverymuch ! LOl. Anyways, I just helluh noticed .. Too many couples breaking up. Like .. 4 I believe. Aha, funny, im one of them .. Actually, two for me. [But not counting one] Its helluh weird. Stupid I should say. What ever happened to "Always&Forever". It was a lie. Wtheck though .. -_- I miss the old days .. I want to go back to the way it used to be .. He made me happy. He made me actually smile. I learned a lot from him. Did I do something for this to happen ?.. I would never know .. Until something [a miracle] happens. Almost 2 months since we broke up. 'Why are all the good couples breaking up !' _Ate. I know right Ate ? .. It was so great back then. What happens next ? A LOT ; Im moving. He won't talk to me. Mama might take the 'next step'. Are my prayers not enough ? What else do I have to do to help ?.. It's just sad looking at what happens next. Actually, I don't want to look at what happens next because of course I won't like it. Just one miracle and maybe .. Things will get back its way ? "There's always a rainbow after the rain." Why aren't I seeing it yet ? *Sigh* Things are just too difficult nowadays. I look at my friends life, they have it straight forward and they make it seem easy. Looking at my life ; my family, friends, problems. Its just too hard to make it complete now. I don't want to move because im already adjusting to MTHS and I really want to stay in this house. Yeah, the neighborhood is ghey ass hell but I love the memories that happened here. I really wish I can comprehend wit him again .. I really miss him. My life is just .. Not complete without him ? He made me realize how love really feels. It felt right and I didn't want it to let it go. I was reminiscing about when he was still here and when we were still together. I was actually happy about my life and nothing bad happened. Until he left to the Philippines. I don't blame him for that. Enough about that. The big issue that is going on is about my mama. She is having a hard time. Im praying really hard for her to get better. We all want her to get better. I feel so bad for her .. She was the one who I was talking about in my other blog. Khaila&I have a terrific plan ! When we grow up, we are going back to San Pablo and re-buy our old houses ! Especially mama's house:) We had so many memories there, we just want it all back. Yesterday, we were reminiscing about the old days .. Damn, we had a lot of good times. Then this question came to our mind , "if we were to stay there. if we didn't move. would we all be more successful ?" I would have to say yes. No worries. We are all together. Even though I wouldn't have met my terrific F.A.S. group, I would be with my family. No offense, I LOVE my F.A.S. group. They made my Elk Grove days, I mean YEARS, the best ever. I didn't think my life here would be this successful. But I love it now:) I never regret anything I did here. I love them forever on. Cause they were there for me through anythang. Anyways ; San Pablo was the best years ever. Straight up. *Sigh* I guess thas all I wanted to let out. Let's just say, I would want to go back in time and fix it up. One thing I learned from my life : Live your life to the fullest and have no regrets. Make it your best and make it fun. Well, I guess thas all. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

Dear God ,

Four more years please ..