To Prepar for the Worst ..
So, as you should know. Im moving. Imma miss this neighborhood .. I had helluh memories here. Even my friends did too. A lot of good memories mixed wit bad ones .. But overall, its sad how things are starting to fade away. I've been keeping track wit my grades and trying not to think about the past but everyday, I still do. No one can ever forget about the past. Because it happened. Even though I was sad back then but .. It felt better than how I feel now. Because I had a lot of time to tell them how much I care about them and how much I love them. They treated me so kind and they always had something to say when I felt bad. Even though I haven't been wit him for a long time, it felt like I knew him. My grandma was the best ! Even when I was lito, when I was crying, I would always go to her. Whenever something happened, I would always call her or go to her for help. She helped me through my "past times" made me feel better. She's so kind and helpful. I remembered everything. I will never forget those memories. I try to visit her on weekends wit my mom and brother but we are busy with finding a house. So now, we got a house ; I hope I get to see my grandma and my cousins more often. I miss seeing them everyday. I miss how things used to be when I was living wit them. Even though we had lito space, at least I was with them. I miss how I used to go to the same school as inspiration and Rec after school. I miss my old life. Because my old life made me realize how precious time is and that you should live it up to the fullest. Never back down cause there is always something ahead that will keep you going. Now, I see life as my own. I want what's best for me family, friends and of course, myself. Im trying to keep it together but I always seem to fail. Even at home, I get in trouble nowadays just cause of one simple thing. Its hard but im trying to manage. Im not "complaining", im just letting out my thoughts. I know, other people have harder lives than me so I shouldn't complain. Just to make it simple, if you tick me off one time, imma go off. I can't really control my anger no more. It's hard. Cause whenever im mad, I always have to hold it in. I never found anything to take out my anger yet. Probably just blogging and taking out my thoughts wit my Ate. Well, I guess that's it ? Gonna blog tomorrow of course to talk about my week. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?
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