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Date : September 02, 2009

Should I ? ..

There was a chance, and there still is. Should I take the risk again ? From me being happy to sad then happy again. Just thinking about it makes me so emotional. Is it worth a try ? I see that your happy in life and im happy for you too. But can't you see that im dying inside to know the answer to just one simple question I ask ? It's okay though, I understand. Everything is more important right now. I should just try to stop. But something is telling me to keep going and try again. There isn't any harm in trying. All that is scaring me is if I get hurt again [which I possibly am going to]. I just have that same feeling about you but I don't know if you still have it for me or for that other girl. You say she's just your best friend but what if it might be more ? Am I trippin' or what ? Sure, I may be jealous at a point but it won't get in my way. I'll just keep trying and see what there is.

What is there to lose ?

You ..

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August 29, 2009

Boredom Kills; Blogging is my addiction now:) Music included though ;D

So, today was so interesting but cool. Of course, Ate&Nerd slept over last night. It was fun ! Friday was the best day ever ! Straight up though ;D First, I saw my Ate K, my guy friends kept me company in my classes, I got to hang out wit Ate&Nerd, they slept over and finally, he talked to me;) You can say that I was successful. I was smiling the whole day too, teehee. At first, I didn't think my day would turn out just how I wanted to be but then again, just don't give up cause there is always a brighter day after. I learned from the best inspirations ever. With all that is going on, I learned that to not give up, gives you better hopes in life. Doing what you dream to do and what you want to succeed in gives you the best feeling. Even though you may have those days, just know that the people you love and cherish will always be beside you the whole way. Don't ever think your alone cause no one is ever alone. We go through everything together one step at a time. Even if you don't succeed at first, you learn and know what to do next. Be the bigger person in the situation. Know that everything happens for a reason. Don't trip about other people, just continue on what you do for the best and not what other people want you to do. Peer pressure ? Yawp, thas what im talking about. Don't ever let that happen to you. Even if you think its "cool", trust me, it isn't. Remember, even if you do one simple thing wrong, it ruins everything. You learn from it and move on. I experienced everything so don't judge me by what you hear or saw. Know who I stand for and what I believe in. Anyone can judge but always know how it makes the other person feel after. Trust in yourself cause low self esteem is bad. I know, I sound like a adult(x But I just know what to say cause I experienced it all. Need advice ? Just come to me anytime:) Well, thas all for now. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

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Date : August 29, 2009

Second Week Past ;

Damn, another week passed ?! Man, I can't believe im still alive xD LOL. Jkeeeeding(: Well, this week went by fast o.o I thought it would go by slow cause of everything but it went .. Pretty well ? Im used to my classes but not my teachers of course. I made a new friend(: He is cool but stupid xD LOL. But today, I mean yesterday .. Someone switched their first period to my class. I really don't like him. We get along but I just don't like him. FAS and him had them days. Well, the other hand. Second period is getting better. Its funny(x Lunch is the usual. Fourth period is getting better but stupid at times. J&J are cool:) They make me productive in class now xD They care about me LOL. Fifth period is the usual. Funny&retarted but fun ;D J&J didn't get my my cooookie or Starbucks D; LOl. We kid around a lot as you noticed. Hm .. What else happened. OH, yesterday when I was walking to first period. Guess who I saw ?! My Ate K came up to me ! I didn't even notice her at first(x We started talking but eventually we had to go to class so we just said goodbye and hugged(: She has pe and I had English so yeah. At least we got to see each other for the first time ! I was happy. Yesterday was the bestest day ever ! I got to see my Ate K, my guy friends kept me company in my classes, &last but not least, I got to hang out wit my Ate&Nerd ! After school, I walked all the waaaay to her house [it was far >.<] and we went to the park wit her friend. Nerd stayed home cause she is ghey like that. LOl. Then we dropped off her friend and went to my house. I was supposed to sleep over her house but my parents said that they should sleep over here. &her parents said yes too(: We were on the computer and guess who FINALLY signed on ?! It was him. When he signed on, [no lie] I was hyperventilating at first cause I didn't talk to him in a while and I really missed him. He was talking to Ate on her aim [we were on the same computer xD] then he IMed me. I was like "omg, he's talking to me !" I was happy though:) He made my day ! LOL. Then we made a chat room wit the FAS [without BFFAAE&Pamangkin&SOB]. It was so funny ! LMAO. Omg, I wished I could have saved the conversation but SOMEONEOVERHERE forgot to remind me xD LOl. Well, at least we got to talk and stuff. But he had to go so we said that we would wait for him so now we are staying up for him. I think it's worth it IF he signs on:) So now im talking to Ate's future boofriend(x He is such a .. Loser ? LOl. I don't know but somewhat I guess. OH, I had to take pictures on Wednesday. You can see all my pictures on my "Rawr" blog. I'll probably post it up later or so. Lol. Everyone said my picture is cute but I don't like it xD I don't know, im pretty picky about my pictures LOl. Yes, I know, im a weirdo:) Tankyouverymuch ! My background was red of course. You could of known too. Hm .. What else to say .. OH, im sorry, how was your day sweetie ?(: If you ask me, I think your pretty cute ;D LOl, im weird xD Ate's bestest day was yesterday too :D I know it was, cause she saw and talked to people too ! LOl. Well, overall, this week was better than last weeks. Teehee ! OH, I webcamed Foodwhore. It was funny xD &he finally saw how Ate&Nerd looks like. So, he called me a fatty cause he saw me eating ice cream. LOl. But yeah .. Hm .. I think thas all ? If im missing something, ill edit later. Stay Focused&Be Positive mmkays kids ?

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Date : August 25, 2009

To Get Things Outta My System ;

'Cause if you haven't noticed, im the type that never gives up. If I say "Always&Forever", I mean it. Not like your b/s saying "give up". Fck that, I KNOW you. That is NOT you. If deleting me from everything makes you happy ? FCK IT. I thought we would try to make it even work out still. 1 month passed by and I still haven't seen or heard anything that would make it up. "There's another reason behind the break up but he told me not to tell you and I promised him I won't" WTF is that about ? I've been waiting for like twofeakingmonths and I still didn't get the message. What is really going on with you ? I really wanted to work it out and all but I guess your the one who won't comprehend. If you have to tell me something, tell me straight up. If you think it might hurt me, JUSTDOIT. Im already hurt so might as well just face it now right ? I was even thinking of waiting till a miracle happens but you know what, I don't even know anymore. Yeah, im still gonna wish for that but not all of my hopes are going up for that. Yeah, I am getting hurt but fck it. I think its worth it ? I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE. "Keep your head up no matter what cause maybe there is a brighter side in the end." Im willing to keep my promise and im hoping you would. With all thas going on, I don't even know how im going to do that. You won't even talk to me or reply to me. It's like were strangers nowadays. Am I really that contagious ? "We can still be friends." WhattaLie. Your just one big LIE. I thought I really wanted to be with you forever but you broke my heart. Yeah, I still love you. Why ? Cause we had helluh memories together ; Fck, why do I feel bad ? You HAD a realest but I guess you just threw it away like you can just easily throw away a paper. I thought my life would been like crap without you. But .. The way I look at it. It doesn't look like crap. It just feels like im missing something important. Don't say im sprung cause clearly, im not trying to talk to you. I want you to come to me. "Patience is a virtue." Yeah, I know that. Thas why im willing to wait and see what happens.Why do we love the ones who hurt us, hurt the ones who loves us, ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us? Even though your not reading this and you don't give a fck, I miss you. Even though your a jerk and broke up wit me, I love you. Because we actually ALMOST lasted. Because your the one who stood by me when everyone was walking out on me. Because I came to you for anythang and you saved me. Because when we were together, it felt like nothing else was around me except you. Because .. Thas how much I love you.

Haaaappy 10 Months Pamangkin:) Your my baby no matter what mmkays sweetie.

To The One That Knows Me The Best ;

Date : August 22, 2009

Dear Foodwhore ,


Heeeey:) Sup ? Lol. Well, I told you I would make you a "letter" type on blogspot(x Well yeah. I just wanted to say tank you for everythang you done for me. You did a lot. All those sacrifices and promises, it means a lot to me. I know I gave you some hard times but I promise you, that will never happen again. I know you want me to tell you everythang, but at times, I might have to keep them to myself to protect you, you know ? Well, we've been friends for 9 years. Thas a miracle xD Let's tank the people for making electronics :D *clap* *clap* *clap* LMAO. Damn, I have a lot of nicknames for you ahaha : Best Friend, Kuya, Foodwhore, Bitch, Slut, Loser, Everythang, SAB, &more. LOL, I made like 12 nicknames for you. They suit you though ;D Ahaha. Your like my Frisco buddy too ! With Danielle of course(: St. Charles Borremeo [Kindergarten] was the first time when we met. You liked me first(x I just thought you were adorable ahaha. &the story about how people found out you liked me LOL. Nice story huh ? xD Well, even though it wasn't meant to be for now, its Kuya&Ading all the waaaay ! Fck what people say, we're the fcking best nigguh ;D Ahaha. I love our late night calls. Its funny lol. Cause its fun making fun of you. You know why ? BECAUSE YOUR A FATTY ! Ahaha. Jkeeeeding. ... Maybe ? ... Ahaha. Well, you should be used to me calling you a fatty. &thas how I made Foodwhore :D Oh yes, im cool ! Lol. Our Frisco kick its are fun cause we always do our usual thing. METREON&YERBA BUENA GARDENS ! Lol. Its all good(: Damn though, imma miss those Frisco Kick Its. Summer was fun but now its over ): So sad .. Let's just hope we get to kick it sometime soon, yeah ? Our families like each other and whatnot xD Thas how cool we are though. Pwuahaha. You know me helluh well though. Its like we been Kuya&Ading since birth ahaha. You wish xDD Well, I don't know how long imma write but imma be random now. Lalala .. I just went to Fairfield to visit my cousins. OH, my Tita bought me a purple scarf from Disneyland, Florida ;D Its helluh cute though ! Lol. OH YEAH, tanks for the gifts when you went to Disneyland(: Your the best ! Teehee. Im so bored at home. Mommy&Daddy are gone, Kuya is in his room, Sebastian is sleeping and im just downstairs on the computer. Ghey xD Ahaha. I wanted to kick it wit my mains today but I don't know. OMG, let's hope I can go bowling wit all my cousins tomorrow ! Hm .. What else to say .. I guess thas all ? OH. I love you, always&forever Kuya. Till the end nigguh:) Ahaha.

Sincerely, AnnjeanetteLynneFortuno "Ading":)

They Made My Day:)

Ateeee - 9:16pm : aha of course she does! my adinggg's got steeeeeze. ahaa


_I Love Her Eternally Forever<3













SOB - 10:13pm : ADD people are losers

_Cause I asked him to say that(: He even posted it up on his status ! Damn my SOB's cool(x

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August 21, 2009

Friday ; I can't belive I lasted.

Dang, I lasted this whole week of school xD At first it was slow but now, its Friday, I think it went by pretty quickly don't you think ? Well, just thinking about school and whatnot in school keeps me occupied without those other things I mainly think about. Being occupied is better than doing nothing so I guess going back to school is good. I have to focus a lot on school for now to keep my grades up the rest of the year. Im looking forward to learning a lot more and making new friends:) Stay active ! Thas the main thing(x Well, what else to say .. My week was okay I guess. Better than usual. Classes are boring except AVID so I have to get used to them. Im doing my work on time and making sure I don't get distracted. I always get hungry in Science xD &thas my 4th period class, right after lunch LOL. Yes, im a weirdo &im proud bxtch ;D LMAO. Sorry, I talk a lot about myself, how was your week sweetie ?;) Teehee. People are changing but I hope for the better [even though it may not seem like it]. Im trying to keep myself on check everyday wit my "everyday schedule" so wanna help out a girl ? Lol. Man, I can't believe I lasted though ! I've always been thinking if im still going to keep "the promise" .. Should I though ? IS it worth it ? *Sigh* .. A month or 2 past .. But im not going to give up until I know the reason why to. No matter what you say or do, I'll always love you. Im not sprung over that much, just a tad bit. I still have those memories in my heart and I always think about those times. Many people remind me about those times but no tear drop falls out of my eyes. I keep them inside cause I guess the pain is worth it ? We did have some pretty good times. *Sigh* I just wonder if it's still worth it &if there is by any chance another second time ... ? Anyways : Supposed to do the "Friday Kick It" but everyone is busy, especially me. I hope to see you ladies tomorrow or next week hopefully ?(; Let's hope ! Lol. Hey, I know im a nerd so tanks for the compliment sweetie ;D Im not conceited, just like to play around a lot at times. Thas why you should get to know me, yes ? Ahaha. Jkeeeeding. Im not forcing you, just asking tankyouverymuch(: But yeah .. So I can say, overall, this week was okay. I hope next week will get a lito better. But I know its going to be hectic wit school work and whatnot. Thas all for now. Stay Focused&Be Positive mmkays kids ?