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Date : September 25, 2009

Damn, week 6 went by fast ..

HAY:) How was your week sweetie ? Mine was good, tanks for asking ;D Well, my classes are getting better. I got extra credit for some of my classes. YES ! LOls. The only part that ruined my week was when problems started to come in. Helluh fcking ghey ... People want to start drama wit me already. DUDe, if you wanna fade, let's go. I hate when people get in your business. Friday, Saturday &today, Sunday is the best:) Friday, I got to hang out wit my Ate&Nerd. It was also Pamangkin&I's 11 months anniversary:) SOB&Fa was supposed to walk me to Florin. So when I got to their house, they said they were sick and I had to go by myself D; I started walking away sad and tired so then I thought that I should just go home. When I just got out of their street, Fa on his bike came and asked if I wanted him to peg me so it was nice of him(: We got to hang out while going to Florin. When we reached Isabelle Jackson, we saw Ate, Nerd and their boyfriends. So it was unexpected xD I felt like a third wheeler though cause I have no boyfriend of course. Oh well .. Now I know how they felt when I was wit him .. Made me think a lot though. So then we started heading for Ate&Nerd's house so we girls could get ready. The guys were just outside. Ate's boyfriend had to leave so it was Nerd's boyfriend&Fa outside waiting for us. It was the first time meeting Nerd's boyfriend and he's cool xD BUT he moves too fast -_- After we girls got ready, we had to drop off Nerd's boyfriend at Florin but then we all didn't want to go cause I was tired so Nerd, her boyfriend and Fa went to drop him off. Ate&I stayed at Toby Johnson Park, talked, layed down and toke pictures ;D When Nerd&Fa came back, we told Fa to go home and get some rest since he was sick. Then us girls started to head to their house so they could ask their parents if they can sleep over my house. I was supposed to sleep over their house but my parents said that we were looking at houses on Saturday. So we waited for their mom to come back and decided to just go on the computer. When their mom came, her parents said yes so they packed quickly and we headed for my house. When we arrived at my house, my brother, daddy&my lito brother went to go pick up my mommy. Ate, Nerd&I decided to take LOTS of pictures in my bathroom and then we went downstairs to set up the table and go on the computer as always. When my parents and brother's came back, we ate and watched the last show of Tayong Dalawa. OMG, Nerd, mommy&I cried ! After the show and eating, I had a cuss fight wit Ate's boyfriend cause he was getting on my last nerves. Then after that, we went outside to talk and in my car and toke pictures. We were tired so we headed up to my room and slept like at 12 cause we had to wake up early on Saturday. Saturday was Ate&I's 1 year&11 months anniversary:) We went to the Key Club breakfast thingy at MTHS so we woke up at 7 and got ready then walked. We waited for Pamangkin cause she had my money. We couldn't pay at the door so Ate, Nerd&I just decided to give my ticket away, get my money and walked towards SOB&Fa's house cause it reminded us about the 8th grade morning 'adventures' ;D After walking towards their house, we went to MTHS again, saw helluh people and just left to my house. When we got to my house, my daddy&Kuya left somewhere so mommy cooked for us. We girls talked about the house problem and whatnot. Then after, Ate, Nerd&I went on the computer and watched the beginning of Grudge 2 because Kuya came and said that we are going to Fairfield so I toke a shower and Ate&Nerd waited. After we got done getting ready, mommy, Kuya, Sebastian, Ate, Nerd&I went to Fairfield. It was Nerd's first time going cause Ate already been there. When we got their, Khaila and Oliver went somewhere. I guess double date ? LOls ! Well, we bonded wit my cousins and toke helluh pictures wit Pita:) We only got to stay there till 4 cause we needed to go home so Ate, Nerd&I could go to their homecoming at 5. So then we headed back to Ate&Nerd's house. Arrived at 5:30. We got ready helluh quick so we could met up wit Nerd's boyfriend at the library. When we got to the school, I saw my old friends from Anna Kirchgator&&&my cooool buddy ;D Jacky noticed me and we gave each other a big hug xD Lols ! When we saw Nerd's boyfriend, he was wit his friend so we decided to head for the line to get in. When we got to the door, their was helluh cute asians OMG ;D Lols ! But then Nerd kept telling them that 'im waiting'. I am but I dont know if he still likes me or not. I don't want to tell the rest of the details cause trust me, it was GHEY -_- I met new friends:) Shawn [if he spells it like that] talked to me and waited wit me cause he had the same reason as me. He was cute though but I don't know if he's wit my friend Jacky. After that night, we went home at 9:30 ish ? We went on the computer, uploaded the pictures on Nerd's myspace and headed for bed at 1 ish ? Lols. On Sunday, today, we went to church at 11. We saw people:) Lols. Then after church we went to Rileys to get food then headed to their house. When we got to their house, we got home and ate. Then I had to leave at 1:30 so then their dad dropped me off home. Overall, my weekend was fun. How was yours ? Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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Date : September 24, 2009

Today's Horoscpoe For Gemini ;

'Cause it represents me ..


Gemini
(May 21 - Jun 20) -

It still might take a few more days for your life to return to normal, for you have recently been on a wild ride. You are being given a chance to think about your experiences and decide what to do next. Just remember that it's easy for you now to make nearly anything look bigger, better or more important than it truly is. Bringing yourself back to reality is healthier than waiting for someone else to do it for you.

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Quotes of the Month :

"I can only imagine how my life would be like if everything was simple."

"Cause I go through my days wit a smile on my face and say everything is okay when everything is not."

"Its simple as that. Your gone and im lost."

"Persevering helps me live my life without a simple doubt."

"Even though this thing we have is not normal, everyday, I think we're just fine when we're not."

"Because the fact that your gone and not ever going to be mine again, I miss you the most."

"I've learned it all and seen it all but even though it seems tough, stick your head up high and deal wit it."

I love you, unconditionally. Always&Forever ..

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Date : September 21, 2009

Mandala Essay.

In life, we all have our stories of what makes us unique and why our life turned

out to be. Some of us lived a simple life, but some, had it harder. This is my story;

If you would ask where it all began, my answer would be St. Charles Borremeo,

San Francisco. I’ve been there since Kindergarten through 4th grade. I moved because

my parents couldn’t afford the tuition anymore. St. Charles Borremeo is special to me

because I learned a lot about being catholic and my perspective of life. I thought I

wouldn’t like the school I would go to next because St. Charles Borremeo was the best

but then again, my life changed.

Edward Harris Middle School, 8^th grade year was the most memorable year

because of the ‘episodes’ that have happened. I met my true friends, the F.A.S., and

importantly, my superman. My life changed while I progressed each day. That year was

where parts of my life started to turn. Some days, I would want to give up but the only

people who kept me up the most, was the F.A.S.

The F.A.S stands for Fly Asian Society. It is our group name. We've

been friends since 8^th grade, but some, since 7^th grade. In our group, we have

Hannah, Sylvia, Karyz, Zhane, Fa, Hao, Kenji, Josh and I. They are what I call my true

friends. We all have been through a lot together and we never gave up on one another.

My life has been pretty rough these past months. My family and I are going

through a lot which makes it hard to balance between school and my life. Finding a house

is enough to deal with but with my grandma having cancer, it’s just too much. We’re

trying to keep it together but for me, I can’t handle having ups and downs all the time.

When I move, it is going to be my 8^th time moving and my last is when I go to the Philippines which

is when im done with high school.

Reminiscing makes me think about how my life turned out so far. Its makes me

wonder if I toke the right paths or not. Knowing that everything will be okay soon makes

me wonder ‘when?’ Because when things start to get rough, my friends and I just have

one thing to say “no matter what happens, it’s always&forever”. Even when things start

turning around for you, don’t stop and hesitate, keep on trying because there is no fear in

trying and trying again. I’ve did it all and seen it all, but im not going to stop because I

know I have to persevere.

Your perspective in life is your own thoughts of how you see life. My

perspective; it’s tough but all you have to do is persevere to do your best. The moon on

my Mandala represents my superman. Because he gave me more advice and we think the

moon is pretty:) The sunset represents the F.A.S. because we love watching the sunset

together. The Filipino flag represents my heritage and how I love to always tell everyone

I am proud to be who I am. My story tells how I always persevere even when life gets

tough and that’s my advice to you; no one has a perfect life, it’s the fact that you’re alive

and never underestimate your circumstances.

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Date : ...

September 19, 2008 @ 11:30 pm

I Love You. Always&Forever. I Promise.

You may not care about the date but even though, I just wanna say tanks for all those times when you made me happy and actually smile. Sorry for everything I caused .. And those times I made you feel bad, mad, etc .. Even though we're not together, I love you. Always remember that. Pwease ..

September 19, 2009 @ 11:30 pm

'Cause it still seems like it was just last year .. When everything was alright .. Nothing to worry about .. Until now ..

"It's not about holding on, it's about not letting go .."

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Date : September 18, 2009

Haaaappy Birthday SOB:) Yous helluh cool !

Yes, just a lito shout out to my 'ex brother - in - law' cause today he turned 15. Shoot, his ass is helluh old:) Ahaha. But he's cool ! Yawp. Well, this week was the fifth week of school. This term went by fast. Almost second term ! Trying get my grades to stay in the 'A' range but it's not working ): Im helluh stressed nowadays. Can't even concentrate on school. I know, school first but too many things getting in my way. Helluh annoying. Well, this week, second period keeps getting better everyday ;D I helluh love my second period. Good thing I have it all year long ;D Imma miss it though next year. But like today, my 'new friend' wasn't here so today was too chill in second period D; Nothing to laugh to. &I was looking forward to second period today since it was Friday. So, school is school. Lot's of homework. Classes still chill for now. Eh, school is boring. I only go cause second period ! &lunch wit granddaughter of course. Yesterday was a miracle. Tank you Josh, for the talk:) Thas what I needed to hear. I had like a 'deep conversation' wit him last night. I wanted to webcam him but he had to go and my webcam was freakin' retarted xD Sorry about that. I won't remember what he told me. Guess what today is kids ? Its the eighteenth. Kuya ; don't you remember ? Well, yeah. Today we had Freshman BBQ for only freshman's. it was cool:) After school, BFFAAE&I went to go wait for her mom so she could put her stuff in the car then we waited for Ate&Nerd to come. They came wit there friend Brenda. The one that looks like Pamangkin xD We all headed to the Freshman BBQ to get food xD Yes, we only went to get food ;D Then everyone got to see Ate&Nerd. Then off to Fa's house ! When we were walking, we saw 'ex brother - in - law #2' wit Fredy and that other guy xD Then after we said hi, we continued going to Fa's house. When we got there, I said Happy Birthday to SOB ;D Cause im nice lol. Then SOB, Fa, &Cristian followed us to the Freshman BBQ. I was supposed to kick it wit Fa&SOB but Cristian was wit them so whatever -_- Ruined my plans ! Anyways, when we came back, BFFAAE had to go D; So Ate, Nerd, Brenda&I went back to the Freshman BBQ and just hung out there. Ate&I got to talk to Tino on the phone ! OMG, his voice got deeper xD I missed him ! Last time I saw him was 7th grade D; BUT, he's moving to MTHS Christmas Break ! YAY ;D Ate&I's lito brother is coming back ! Im so happy:) Then unfortunately, we had to go home. So they walked home&I walked home alone. So overall, my day was okay. LOls. Tomorrow, I have CFF then off to Daly City then visit the cousins. OH, the 28th is my 1 year of blogspot ! Of course imma blog that day ;D LOls. Get updated though ;D Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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Date : September 15, 2009

Cause AVID made me think a lito more ;

So in AVID, we did a Mandala quick write.
The question was :

"Who are the most specialist people to you
and
Why do they make them special ?".

This is what I wrote ..

The most specialist people to me are the F.A.S. group. We have 9 members in the group. My friends in the group are Hannah, Sylvia, Karyz, Zhane, Hao, Fa, Josh, Kenji and myself. We all been friends since 8th grade. For some of us, since 7th grade. The F.A.S. are special to me because they have been by my side for everything. We never go through anything a lone. F.A.S. is our family name. It stands for Fly Asian Society:) Karyz, my older brother and I made the name. We made it on January 27, 2009. So it has been almost 8 months in the making ! We all hang out on occasions so its fun. We support each other in everything and give the best advice ever. The 9 of us are all like brother's and sister's. They are my life. I would give up anything just to be wit them forever .. <3

This was a timed write and it may be short but it looks long on paper(x I would have wrote more but I think too much xD When I wrote this, I was remembering all those times we had when we were all together. Even though we may had 'those times' they still brighten up my day. They are the ones who have my back no matter what. They are the reasons why I go on wit my life each day. This topic made me realize who are my heroes. They are my true ones. I can go to them for anything. I finally found my family that appreciates everything I gave up for them. They know I gave up a lot in the past years and they would never take advantage of me. Unlike others, they would love to help me out in need. They aren't selfish, nor rude. If I would have to describe them, I would say 'family'. No matter what happens, its always&forever<3 know them. They proved themselves to me that I can trust them. We start developing with one another every time we hang out. So all those kick its, yes, they were what you may call 'stupid' but to us, its what we call having fun ;D So thas my story ..

I love the F.A.S. Because they are the realest<3