'Why do you have a boyfriend ?' [WHEN I was going out wit him ..]
We were friends wit benifits at first but then we toke it another level. Even though we were going out, we were still bestfriends. I could tell him anything and everything and he would always be there for me. I love him because he made me realize how my life is precious and he would never let me down. Even though I might not know the REAL reason to this thing called 'love' but I know that we had a special bond that I would call 'love'. Wit him by my side, knowing I have someone to go to whenever I feel like talking to someone, he would always be there for me to open up to him. Even though I had my mains to go to, he would always make me feel special everyday. He was like the best though. "Even though we aren't going out anymore, I miss him the most .." I miss how we used to be and all those memories we had. If I would go back in time, my second choice would be 8th grade. Because thas where it all started.
I love you, always&forever .. Unconditionally, I promise.
Why hello there. Yes, today is my 1 year of Blogspot. Yay, lols. The link up there is my first blog. Its boring but w/e right ? ;D So, I wont be talking about Blogspot for this whole blog since thas boring and I want to entertain you, teehee. So, people say 'Tumblr' is better than Blogspot -_- Its the same freakin' thing ! 'Tumblr' is just new in-a-way. But I love Blogspot better :D Lols. OMG, today I feel liked I was harrassed a lot ! NewFriend gave me a lapdance O_O Yes .. EWH ! I was just sitting in my seat side sattle then he put his arm on my shoulder and yeah. HE DID IT TO ME 2 TIMES ! He was like 'you know you liked it' the real answer is that ... HE IS NASTY OMG ! I had my eyes closed of course so I didn't see anything lols. Helluh people said I looked helluh red xD I was though D: Everyone was laughing and me of course even though it was NASTY ! But anyways, after school BFFAAE and I were walking and he saw us so we decided to walk wit us and his friends called him and he was like 'this is my best friend annjeanette !' I was like WOW xD Hannah was laughing lols. He had his arm around my shoulder which was weird. He kept reminding me about the 'lapdance'. Cause he said I could dance too but I don't show it cause I DON'T WANT TO. Lols. But yeah. Uhm, school today went by fast even though it was boring. I saw Ate Kimberly today after first period:) It was cool lols. We started talking and whatnot. I was so freakin' tired today, omg. Im still tired cause of the LONG weekend that was worth it ;D Ahahaha. I was texting Kuya on Sunday at like 12 but then I fell asleep on his as always(x He's used to that lols. I haven't talked to him in helluh long though cause we are busy nowadays wit school and whatnot. But I talk to him from time to time on aim. OH, on Sunday was the FAS 8 months anniversary ;D HAY ! Lols. Well, I guess thas all:) Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?
HAY:) How was your week sweetie ? Mine was good, tanks for asking ;D Well, my classes are getting better. I got extra credit for some of my classes. YES ! LOls. The only part that ruined my week was when problems started to come in. Helluh fcking ghey ... People want to start drama wit me already. DUDe, if you wanna fade, let's go. I hate when people get in your business. Friday, Saturday &today, Sunday is the best:) Friday, I got to hang out wit my Ate&Nerd. It was also Pamangkin&I's 11 months anniversary:) SOB&Fa was supposed to walk me to Florin. So when I got to their house, they said they were sick and I had to go by myself D; I started walking away sad and tired so then I thought that I should just go home. When I just got out of their street, Fa on his bike came and asked if I wanted him to peg me so it was nice of him(: We got to hang out while going to Florin. When we reached Isabelle Jackson, we saw Ate, Nerd and their boyfriends. So it was unexpected xD I felt like a third wheeler though cause I have no boyfriend of course. Oh well .. Now I know how they felt when I was wit him .. Made me think a lot though. So then we started heading for Ate&Nerd's house so we girls could get ready. The guys were just outside. Ate's boyfriend had to leave so it was Nerd's boyfriend&Fa outside waiting for us. It was the first time meeting Nerd's boyfriend and he's cool xD BUT he moves too fast -_- After we girls got ready, we had to drop off Nerd's boyfriend at Florin but then we all didn't want to go cause I was tired so Nerd, her boyfriend and Fa went to drop him off. Ate&I stayed at Toby Johnson Park, talked, layed down and toke pictures ;D When Nerd&Fa came back, we told Fa to go home and get some rest since he was sick. Then us girls started to head to their house so they could ask their parents if they can sleep over my house. I was supposed to sleep over their house but my parents said that we were looking at houses on Saturday. So we waited for their mom to come back and decided to just go on the computer. When their mom came, her parents said yes so they packed quickly and we headed for my house. When we arrived at my house, my brother, daddy&my lito brother went to go pick up my mommy. Ate, Nerd&I decided to take LOTS of pictures in my bathroom and then we went downstairs to set up the table and go on the computer as always. When my parents and brother's came back, we ate and watched the last show of Tayong Dalawa. OMG, Nerd, mommy&I cried ! After the show and eating, I had a cuss fight wit Ate's boyfriend cause he was getting on my last nerves. Then after that, we went outside to talk and in my car and toke pictures. We were tired so we headed up to my room and slept like at 12 cause we had to wake up early on Saturday. Saturday was Ate&I's 1 year&11 months anniversary:) We went to the Key Club breakfast thingy at MTHS so we woke up at 7 and got ready then walked. We waited for Pamangkin cause she had my money. We couldn't pay at the door so Ate, Nerd&I just decided to give my ticket away, get my money and walked towards SOB&Fa's house cause it reminded us about the 8th grade morning 'adventures' ;D After walking towards their house, we went to MTHS again, saw helluh people and just left to my house. When we got to my house, my daddy&Kuya left somewhere so mommy cooked for us. We girls talked about the house problem and whatnot. Then after, Ate, Nerd&I went on the computer and watched the beginning of Grudge 2 because Kuya came and said that we are going to Fairfield so I toke a shower and Ate&Nerd waited. After we got done getting ready, mommy, Kuya, Sebastian, Ate, Nerd&I went to Fairfield. It was Nerd's first time going cause Ate already been there. When we got their, Khaila and Oliver went somewhere. I guess double date ? LOls ! Well, we bonded wit my cousins and toke helluh pictures wit Pita:) We only got to stay there till 4 cause we needed to go home so Ate, Nerd&I could go to their homecoming at 5. So then we headed back to Ate&Nerd's house. Arrived at 5:30. We got ready helluh quick so we could met up wit Nerd's boyfriend at the library. When we got to the school, I saw my old friends from Anna Kirchgator&&&my cooool buddy ;D Jacky noticed me and we gave each other a big hug xD Lols ! When we saw Nerd's boyfriend, he was wit his friend so we decided to head for the line to get in. When we got to the door, their was helluh cute asians OMG ;D Lols ! But then Nerd kept telling them that 'im waiting'. I am but I dont know if he still likes me or not. I don't want to tell the rest of the details cause trust me, it was GHEY -_- I met new friends:) Shawn [if he spells it like that] talked to me and waited wit me cause he had the same reason as me. He was cute though but I don't know if he's wit my friend Jacky. After that night, we went home at 9:30 ish ? We went on the computer, uploaded the pictures on Nerd's myspace and headed for bed at 1 ish ? Lols. On Sunday, today, we went to church at 11. We saw people:) Lols. Then after church we went to Rileys to get food then headed to their house. When we got to their house, we got home and ate. Then I had to leave at 1:30 so then their dad dropped me off home. Overall, my weekend was fun. How was yours ? Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?
It still might take a few more days for your life to return to normal, for you have recently been on a wild ride. You are being given a chance to think about your experiences and decide what to do next. Just remember that it's easy for you now to make nearly anything look bigger, better or more important than it truly is. Bringing yourself back to reality is healthier than waiting for someone else to do it for you.
You may not care about the date but even though, I just wanna say tanks for all those times when you made me happy and actually smile. Sorry for everything I caused .. And those times I made you feel bad, mad, etc .. Even though we're not together, I love you. Always remember that. Pwease ..
September 19, 2009 @ 11:30 pm
'Cause it still seems like it was just last year .. When everything was alright .. Nothing to worry about .. Until now .."It's not about holding on, it's about not letting go .."
