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Look forward to something, Look back at nothing, Live For One Thing. _Brother-in-Law

Happy knowing that he was there for me. Confused on what really is 'there'. Depressed cas I played the game and lost, again. Sad cas now, after all this, I know that im losing them both

I feel stupid for playing the game. I really didn't intend to hurt anyone. Now, just thinking about it. Time to come out clean. I just feel so disappointed in myself. I knew something was gonna happen. But then again, I still went for it. I like him but im starting to feel that 'love' for him again as well. I don't know what to do anymore. Its like every time this happens, im always gonna be the one getting hurt in the end. But its better than having them hurt right ? *Sigh* .. I hate how I can't make up my mind easily. It just gotta be so complicated. I swear, it would only be better if I just concentrated on whats important instead of falling in love again. But .. I don't know. Thas just me. I keep telling myself everything's gonna be okay but I know im just BS'sing myself. Well, all I can do now is come out clean, fix the problem and get over it.

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Date : August 16, 2010

First Day at Sheldon High School: Sophomore Year ;D

Morning, met up wit Babe and got our schedules. Then he showed me around campus and we just hung out for the time remaining. First period, Piano Lab. I made a new friend lols. She's my partner for piano. Its kinda hard but I have to get used to it and keep up wit the pace. Second period, Japanese. I don't know anyone YET but its cool. Teacher is boring. Hopefully I learn a lot though ! Third period, PE. I have a PE buddy. She's also my walking home and lunch buddy ;D Lols. She's nice. I have other friends that I know in that class too. So its all good. The people I meet introduce me to other people too xD Lols, its all good. After PE is lunch. Got it wit Babe:) We just hang out by the stairs because you can feel the breeze on the hot day lols. Fourth is AP World History. That class is funny :D I have it wit Cutaay too ! Babe walked me to all my classes which was sweet:) BestFriend and I kept trying to find each other but we ended up seeing each other aftah school lols. At least I got to see him. Then walked home a lone since my phone died and didn't know 'walking home, PE, lunch buddy' walked home too D; Overall, day was awesome ;D But helluh miss FAS Ladies ! D; Hopefully see them every Friday ! We'll see:) Stay Focused and Be Positive Kids mmkays ?:)

_Very first DECENT school picture ever !

Sheldon High School Term 1 Schedule

First period : Piano Lab AB
Second period : Japanese 1 P
Third : PE 10-12
Fourth : World History & Modern World

*So HEAVENLY :D. I wonder what lunch period I have though D: I hope I have it wit BestFriend, Cutaay Jessica, Son, and Him.

AND I PROMISE BFF THAT I WOULD FOCUS ON MY STUDIES AND DO WELL<3

Random Post #2 :D

Kuya : "Your lucky. Going to this school. Oooh, filipino football players."
Mommy : "Does your boyfriend go here ?"
Me : "Yeah"
Kuya : "Uh-huh, someone's gonna be cheatin'"
_LMFAO.


Kuya : "I love my Family Guy"
Me : "I love my nuts :D"
Me : *walks away then turns around*
Kuya : 0_0
Me : "My Adobo Flavored NUTS :D"
Kuya : "Aha. I got you. I got you."

_ LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

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Date : August 9, 2010

Confession ? Just blogging.

I may seem like "the innocent lito girl" when we first meet or when you see me. But once you get to know the real me, you will surely be surprised. You would expect me to be the typical Asian kid who gets straight A's, never gets in trouble, would never smoke, drink, always obeys their parents, rich, and overall a good background. Well, that all, isn't true. I confess, I don't get straight A's. I get the typical B's and occasional C's but I strive my hardest to get A's to make my parents happy and also for myself. I don't get in trouble wit them "hard core" shit but I do get in trouble. No, I don't smoke but I do drink. Its not an everyday thing but its a thing that I do when I want to. But I mainly do it when my Kuya offers. Hm, obeying my parents ? Yeah, I do but when they get on my nerves, its like asdfghjkl; -_- Rich ? Aha, thas funny. Since I was lito, we were never rich. We were like middle class; not that poor and not that rich. It still is. I don't really expect much from my parents so I get what I get and I don't complain no matter how horrible it is. I mean, I do but not to the point I get lectured at. My background. Hm, what to say .. It was not what you could imagine. I didn't always get what I wanted. I lived wit what I had. Everyday was the same routine when I was lito and it still is. Kind of. I got into situations that you wouldn't even imagine me being into. I lived in the 415, 650, 510, 707 and now the 916. I moved a bunch of times. It wasn't because of how the house looked it, it was mainly the cost. My family and I aren't those "typical families" that are ohso well wit each other. We have the occasional fights but still love each other unconditionally. I'm not that close to any of my family members actually. I only talk to my brother about certain things but not everything. I don't tell my parents everything that goes on in my life because I know what they would think. I would want to be close to my mommy but its difficult. Its funny how im closer to my Tita and my Cawsin instead of my own parents. I'm pretty decent, chill, understanding, caring and helpful but never really 'happy'. I would always put on that 'fake smile' to make people think I am when im not. I don't like showing that im sad, depressed or even upset because I don't want them thinking much about me. I always put my friends and family first before myself. Whatever situation im in, I always think to myself "stay strong because everything will be alright after." I learn from the best. I have the best Inspirations ever. And I am thankful to have them in my life. Been in and out of love but still hoping. I have problems but I don't go around bugging people about them. There is nothing to be said. I only tell my problems to my mains if needed. Which is not very often. Well, I guess thas all. Let's be friends, yeah ?:) Lols. Stay Focused and Be Positive Kids mmkays ?:)

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