To Express Myself ;

2010-10-02T21:51:00.000-07:00

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2010-08-28T13:34:00.000-07:00

Look forward to something, Look back at nothing, Live For One Thing. _Brother-in-Law

Happy knowing that he was there for me. Confused on what really is 'there'. Depressed cas I played the game and lost, again. Sad cas now, after all this, I know that im losing them both

I feel stupid for playing the game. I really didn't intend to hurt anyone. Now, just thinking about it. Time to come out clean. I just feel so disappointed in myself. I knew something was gonna happen. But then again, I still went for it. I like him but im starting to feel that 'love' for him again as well. I don't know what to do anymore. Its like every time this happens, im always gonna be the one getting hurt in the end. But its better than having them hurt right ? *Sigh* .. I hate how I can't make up my mind easily. It just gotta be so complicated. I swear, it would only be better if I just concentrated on whats important instead of falling in love again. But .. I don't know. Thas just me. I keep telling myself everything's gonna be okay but I know im just BS'sing myself. Well, all I can do now is come out clean, fix the problem and get over it.

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2010-08-16T17:01:00.000-07:00

Date : August 16, 2010

First Day at Sheldon High School: Sophomore Year ;D

Morning, met up wit Babe and got our schedules. Then he showed me around campus and we just hung out for the time remaining. First period, Piano Lab. I made a new friend lols. She's my partner for piano. Its kinda hard but I have to get used to it and keep up wit the pace. Second period, Japanese. I don't know anyone YET but its cool. Teacher is boring. Hopefully I learn a lot though ! Third period, PE. I have a PE buddy. She's also my walking home and lunch buddy ;D Lols. She's nice. I have other friends that I know in that class too. So its all good. The people I meet introduce me to other people too xD Lols, its all good. After PE is lunch. Got it wit Babe:) We just hang out by the stairs because you can feel the breeze on the hot day lols. Fourth is AP World History. That class is funny :D I have it wit Cutaay too ! Babe walked me to all my classes which was sweet:) BestFriend and I kept trying to find each other but we ended up seeing each other aftah school lols. At least I got to see him. Then walked home a lone since my phone died and didn't know 'walking home, PE, lunch buddy' walked home too D; Overall, day was awesome ;D But helluh miss FAS Ladies ! D; Hopefully see them every Friday ! We'll see:) Stay Focused and Be Positive Kids mmkays ?:)

_Very first DECENT school picture ever !

Sheldon High School Term 1 Schedule

2010-08-09T20:35:00.001-07:00

First period : Piano Lab AB
Second period : Japanese 1 P
Third : PE 10-12
Fourth : World History & Modern World

*So HEAVENLY :D. I wonder what lunch period I have though D: I hope I have it wit BestFriend, Cutaay Jessica, Son, and Him.

AND I PROMISE BFF THAT I WOULD FOCUS ON MY STUDIES AND DO WELL<3

Random Post #2 :D

2010-08-09T20:21:00.000-07:00

Kuya : "Your lucky. Going to this school. Oooh, filipino football players."
Mommy : "Does your boyfriend go here ?"
Me : "Yeah"
Kuya : "Uh-huh, someone's gonna be cheatin'"
_LMFAO.

Kuya : "I love my Family Guy"
Me : "I love my nuts :D"
Me : *walks away then turns around*
Kuya : 0_0
Me : "My Adobo Flavored NUTS :D"
Kuya : "Aha. I got you. I got you."

_ LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

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2010-08-09T07:52:00.000-07:00

Date : August 9, 2010

Confession ? Just blogging.

I may seem like "the innocent lito girl" when we first meet or when you see me. But once you get to know the real me, you will surely be surprised. You would expect me to be the typical Asian kid who gets straight A's, never gets in trouble, would never smoke, drink, always obeys their parents, rich, and overall a good background. Well, that all, isn't true. I confess, I don't get straight A's. I get the typical B's and occasional C's but I strive my hardest to get A's to make my parents happy and also for myself. I don't get in trouble wit them "hard core" shit but I do get in trouble. No, I don't smoke but I do drink. Its not an everyday thing but its a thing that I do when I want to. But I mainly do it when my Kuya offers. Hm, obeying my parents ? Yeah, I do but when they get on my nerves, its like asdfghjkl; -_- Rich ? Aha, thas funny. Since I was lito, we were never rich. We were like middle class; not that poor and not that rich. It still is. I don't really expect much from my parents so I get what I get and I don't complain no matter how horrible it is. I mean, I do but not to the point I get lectured at. My background. Hm, what to say .. It was not what you could imagine. I didn't always get what I wanted. I lived wit what I had. Everyday was the same routine when I was lito and it still is. Kind of. I got into situations that you wouldn't even imagine me being into. I lived in the 415, 650, 510, 707 and now the 916. I moved a bunch of times. It wasn't because of how the house looked it, it was mainly the cost. My family and I aren't those "typical families" that are ohso well wit each other. We have the occasional fights but still love each other unconditionally. I'm not that close to any of my family members actually. I only talk to my brother about certain things but not everything. I don't tell my parents everything that goes on in my life because I know what they would think. I would want to be close to my mommy but its difficult. Its funny how im closer to my Tita and my Cawsin instead of my own parents. I'm pretty decent, chill, understanding, caring and helpful but never really 'happy'. I would always put on that 'fake smile' to make people think I am when im not. I don't like showing that im sad, depressed or even upset because I don't want them thinking much about me. I always put my friends and family first before myself. Whatever situation im in, I always think to myself "stay strong because everything will be alright after." I learn from the best. I have the best Inspirations ever. And I am thankful to have them in my life. Been in and out of love but still hoping. I have problems but I don't go around bugging people about them. There is nothing to be said. I only tell my problems to my mains if needed. Which is not very often. Well, I guess thas all. Let's be friends, yeah ?:) Lols. Stay Focused and Be Positive Kids mmkays ?:)

Update

2010-08-01T02:29:00.000-07:00

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2010-07-31T12:45:00.000-07:00

*Old Picture(x

Because we're gonna start off fresh:)

July 31, 2010 @ 3:01AM<3

Original Date ; October 14, 2009 @ 3:23PM.

I love you. Always&Forever. I promise.

M.V.+A.F. ;D

Random Post ;D

2010-07-28T21:28:00.000-07:00

AIM:
AnnjeanetteLynne status : "Rawr."

[21:24] BFOGF > ;D: Rawr = I love you in dinosaur? LOL!
[21:24] annjeanettelynne: YES ;D
[21:24] BFOGF > ;D: Your status is for me? .
[21:24] BFOGF > ;D: LOLOLOLOL!
[21:24] annjeanettelynne: No xD
[21:24] annjeanettelynne: LMFAO
[21:24] BFOGF > ;D: =O.
[21:24] BFOGF > ;D: =*(.
[21:24] annjeanettelynne: Now look at my status xD
[21:25] BFOGF > ;D: It's the same thing? Lol.
[21:25] annjeanettelynne: I lahv you though !
[21:25] annjeanettelynne: xD
[21:25] BFOGF > ;D: I love you too! =D.
[21:25] annjeanettelynne: I put our conversation xD

[21:27] dani ELLE 9542: PSH!
[21:27] dani ELLE 9542: AJ!
[21:27] dani ELLE 9542: YOUR STATUS IS FOR ME!
[21:27] dani ELLE 9542: LMFAO!
[21:27] annjeanettelynne: LMFAO
[21:27] annjeanettelynne: AHAHA
[21:27] annjeanettelynne: OMG

I LOVE THEM<3

Likes, Dislikes, First Impression, and a Confession of me

2010-07-26T00:06:00.000-07:00

[00:05] FawkingAte(:: Like: You're my one and only cute Ading. Dislike: How we hella don't see each other or hang out as much. First impression: Pretty and now my friend. Confession: I hella love you and you're awesome!(:

[00:07] dani ELLE 9542: Like: How you're outgoing, sweet, caring, and got my back ;D Dislike: How you're not sleeping over here at the moment! -__- First Impression: ... I ... HAVE NO IDEA xD Confession: I LOVE your clothes xD

[00:11] BFOGF > ;D: Like: You're deep. Dislike: You're quiet. First impression: Uh-oh. I'm scared. She's going to bite me. Confession: When I talked to you on aim, you were hella mean!

5 Ways to Describe Me :D

2010-07-25T23:41:00.000-07:00

[23:39] BFOGF > ;D: Quiet, deep, smart, outgoing, and shy. BOTH work. LOL.

[23:39] BFF !: Cute, outgoing, funny, down to Earth, CUTE

[23:39] FawkingAte(:: Random, funny, weird, loveable, and awesome.

[23:42] Kuya :D: funny,smart,cute,loser,Bestfriend

[23:43] RawritsAlexxxx: Random
energetic
(I haven't spent a lot of time w/ you but you seem like it) fun
Funny
Cute ? if that counts ? xD

[23:45] Jessica ;D: Funny. Nice. Easy to get along with. Smart. And pretttty.

_They are the BEST<3

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2010-07-25T23:03:00.000-07:00

Date : July 25, 2010

Update of myself.

Hola. I'm AnnjeanetteLynne. Finally a Sophomore. Going to Sheldon High School. Youngin' at the age 15. Flying solo. Family&Friends mean the most to me in life. FAS Ladies for sure though:) I've been through a lot the past years or so. 3 deaths, moved 3 times, breakups, losing friends, car accident, back surgery and family fights. You can't say 'you know me' if you don't know my whole story. I'm not the type of girl that would do anything to please people. I like to be respected with dignity and pride. I am who I am. You can't change that. Even though I may seem happy and wonderful, deep down, I can be depressed as fuck. I put a fake smile everywhere I go so I won't show the other side of me. I love to help my friends and family wit anything. I'm not as open but I can be trustworthy at all times. I give good advices but I learn from the best. I like being outgoing because staying home bores me. I may not be fascinating but I can be the most truest girl you ever know. Okay, that may be a lie but I can be true if there's no drama between us. I hate [emphases on hate] drama. It just annoys the hell outta me. Please, bring it somewhere else. If I know im right, I won't stop till you agree I am. I can be hard-headed at times but I can work things out easily. My friends think I write "deep" but I just say what things mean to me. I love creative writing. Expressed my emotions at times. I've been in and out of love but when I know its true, I would like to keep it that way. I've been hurt a lot if times but I bounce back up again. I may be shy but once you know the real me, you would be like "omg, this girl is crazy but cool :D". I can guarantee that 100.1%. I love photography and baking. I always tend to bring my camera everywhere [at times] I go just in case a memory needs to be taken. I tend to bake every chance I get wit my Ate Karyz and/or when there is a party. When I grow up, I wanna be successful and make my Mama proud. At times, I may be a "lover not a fighter" but if any by all means, I can fight. I might not be as strong but I fight for whats right. I admit, I talk shit but at least I don't go spreading around rumors that are unnecessary. I am a total neat freak. I like things organized and clean. When it comes to school, I procrastinate A LOT but this year, im going to try and not. Volleyball and basketball are my thing. Played since I was in 3rd grade. I may not be a pro but I can try to be the best. My cell phone is a everyday thing for me. Always need to keep in touch wit my friends if im not on the computer. I can go BI wit my Ate which is fun. I have bi-tendencies but hey, all girls have it too. [Cyndee May, Kathie Pham&Ashely Vee are my girl crushes ;D] I may not be the brightest kid in school but I do learn a lot. Hm .. What else to say ? Music calms me down every time. I love Hello Kitty since I was born. I was born wit a circumstance but I got out safely. Thank God. I'm a Catholic but I don't go to mass as often anymore. Well, I guess thas all to know for now. Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?:)

_I love how this blog is "69" ;D <3

August 2010

2010-07-24T22:42:00.000-07:00

*Will be updated once I have other plans.

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2010-07-14T00:04:00.000-07:00

Date : July 14, 2010

Update ?

Hola, kamusta ?! ;D Summer's been .. Boring -_- Not how I wanted it to turn out. Hopefully, I do something by the end of the summer that will make up for all my boring days at home. So far, I slept over BFF's house for one week like last year. It was the best ! Got to go around SF where I haven't gone before. It was an amazing week. Kick it wit FAS was fun of course. Got to do the sleep over at Snoopy's house wit Ate and SOB xD Aha, NOT WHAT I EXPECTED but it was funny. Family trip to Reno for 3 days wasn't what I expected but at least I had kind of fun. It was cool overall. Trynna kick it wit Nhia, but failing): Whenever he invites me, I always cancel because my stupid parent. FML moment. Hm .. Let's check over my Summer 2010 list shall we ? I've watched Paano Na Kaya, Valentines Day and Dear John and I loved them :D Well, thas sad, I didn't do much from the list D: I hope I succeed before summer ends. I doubt it. Well, Nhia still owes me a date so we're trynna figure how that is gonna go. And FAS is trynna figure out more kick its before next month since I have a feeling we're ALL gonna be busy next month. Well, I know I am. FAS aren't fading so its all good ;D Got my eyebrows threaded last Saturday and it hurt like a BITCH :O I was LITERALLY crying ! It hurts that much ! Imma try to go shopping for sophmore year next month. Hopefully. But I better D: First started drinking was wit Kuya and he offered ever since when he drinks. I only drink 1 bottle since I get drunk easily xD Lols. I fail :D OH, I found my school books last month ! Lmfao, helluh random but yeah xD I'm going to Sheldon for the rest of my high school year. Trynna start fresh. But hey, I get to see my BestFriend and CFF buddy Jessica agains ! Thas a good thing ;D I missed them ohso much. If you noticed, I got a Facebook since last week because EVERYONE told me to get one so I got annoyed and just got one. Even my family kept telling me to get one. So, THERE YOU GO xD Aha. I'm starting to watch Korean Drama agains because of mommy, Ate and BFFAAE lols. But the one im watching is CUTE ;D Aha. I don't know what else to put so imma just talk random. I bought Pokemon cards my last day at SF wit BFF, BFOGF and BFF's siblings xD AHA. Thas how cool BFF's siblings and I are ;D Gonna get my hair bleached on Saturday ! YAY :D I can't wait ! And plus I want to cut my split ends. They are annoying the crap outta me -__- Friday, planning to go to the State Fair at Arco Arena wit FAS and meet up wit Amy Tran and other MTHS people. Amy Tran was my friend since middle school and she invited me because she wanted to see me again since she missed me(x so it's a good opportunity for the FAS to kick it too. Hm .. What else is happening .. We WERE supposed to go to Canada the first week of August as a family trip but papa doesn't have enough money and daddy doesn't wanna go. I was looking forward to seeing Canada but oh well .. So, instead of Canada, Tita Achie is planning for us to go to Vegas. If we go there, I really wanna drink, meet new people and have helluh fun. BFFAAE is going to Vegas too and probably the same day so I hope things will work out and we get to go to Vegas TOGETHER ;D It's gonna be fun if we do ! Then after Vegas, my family is going to stay at San Diego for a few days because mommy and daddy want to take Sebastian to Legoland. That'll be interesting, aha. Haven't been there since I was .. 5 years old ? So it would be nice to go there agains. This summer, I've been staying up till 3am and waking up at 2pm. Sleeping habits are gonna be screwed once school comes up xD So imma start sleeping early 2 weeks before school starts at it start on August 16th. Ugh, I hate the thought of school -_- ANYWAYS xD Lols. Right now, im just listening to music on youtube, talking to Ate on aim and waiting for Nhia to call. Well, I guess thas all. If any updates, I will blog ;D Stay Focused and Be Positive Kids mmkays ?:)

*Happy 9 months anniversary.

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2010-07-02T01:56:00.000-07:00

Date : July 2, 2010

A Heart That Wouldn't Quit.

The feeling of not ready to be let go is the most difficult feeling to acknowledge. Just knowing that the person you were attached to is slipping away from you. But when you know that your really in love, you wouldn't give up on them. You would fight until you are finally settled wit what you started. Just knowing that the other still has the same feelings for you and you have the same should lead up to the greatest. Even though things go down hill, you bring it back up together because if the relationship is worth it, then everything's good. Striving for what you believe in says it all. If you say things will work out, then don't just say it, do something about it. If it really is something worth hanging onto don't ever let go. If your willing to hold onto something for this long that means that your meant to be. And if not, you can always say "I never gave up." Seeing your loved one walk away breaks your heart. But if your other loves you enough, they would come back to you in a heart beat. Even in the smallest situations, you guys will still work things out just to be together. These types of relationships that are worth every single penny are the most memorable and happiest ever. Through the thick and thin, nothing can get in the way of your guys' love for one another. Don't give up on love. If you get your heart broken, your learning to what is to come. You get hurt but get back up and try again.Striving for the better is what you can do. Picking up the pieces to a broken heart can hurt but that's part of life. You can forgive, but never forget. A heart always has hope. Never think that you'll never have another opportunity again.

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2010-07-01T13:56:00.000-07:00

Date : July 1, 2010

"I Love You."

Those words. They are the most sweetest words you can ever hear from someone. Family, friends, partner. You mostly hear those words from couples that are in love. But it can also be the most abused word. Some take it for granted. Others, take it to heart. Just hearing someone say "I Love You" makes you smile and you get the happy feeling in your heart. Most young couples say it but don't really realize what it truly means. When you hear those words, the first thoughts are "i love you too". Love is such a wonderful thing. You get that warm feeling in your heart that just feels like sparks. Some may get other feelings too. Those words are the most memorable words. Love. The most sweetest, cherished, heart-warming feeling. Saying those words to someone has to have a meaning to them. When we're really in love we tend to think deeper on the meaning of it and that significant other. At first, when you say it to a person, you don't know what they might say back and your nervous on how they will react. In relationships, some tend to just forget about thinking deep on the meaning and just say "i love you too" so the other person is happy. That shouldn't be the case. If you say it without meaning, don't care to say it at all."I Love You" comes in different meanings. One may be for comfort, second may be for just saying "i care about you" which may not be the appropriate word in this case and third may be sexual passion. Experiencing the words coming out of someone else' mouth is such a big deal. Because love, its a intense feeling. An affection for others. But only you can really express what you feel about it. Emotions, ethics and joy are the key elements of love. "Love means pleasure" but please, don't take it for granted. "I love you" is the most common phrase so far. But is has also been overused. Finally,

There is so absolute meaning of love.

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2010-07-01T00:14:00.000-07:00

Date : June 30, 2010

Definition of love=INDESCRIBABLE.

Its a feeling. A great sensation shared by two people. Everyone wants to know what “love” is. There are many ways to express love or even put in words. There is no wrong in loving someone. You are not too young or too old to love. Everyone can do it. May it be to your family, a friend or even to your significant other. People share it everyday. Seeing couples share their love for each other is what you call beauty. Sitting around waiting for his/her call, always happy to see him/her, wit every chance you get wit him/her you make it the best, late night talks, just mentioning his/her name makes you smile, seeing his/her name makes you smile. Even the smallest things from them makes you go wild. The feeling you can’t sleep but think about that person. You would do anything for that person. Your heart racing when your wit that person. All your focus on that person. That special someone. That. That is when you know your in love. Like and Love are two different things. Like is a kind feeling. Or even a friendly feeling. On the other hand; Love is a profoundly tender, a need, passionate affection. We could feel love. Also its the greatest feeling you can ever get. It makes people happy. Knowing that their in love just gives them a good feeling inside and out. Many people nowadays ~~abuse~~ the word. Some, take it to heart. Saying that your in love may or may not be true. You never know until you actually experience it. Some wish upon a star and hope they find true love. Sooner or later, we’ll find that right person. The person who really is meant to be in your life forever. For us kids, we may not be in love but we tend to say so. But later on, we’ll finally experience being in love. We’ll finally experience that happy feeling inside that adults do. In conclusion,

Love is a friendship set on fire.

BestFriend:)

2010-07-01T00:11:00.000-07:00

Date : June 30, 2010

Happy Birthday BestFriend ! Miss you and lahv yous:) See you at Sheldon soon ! Hope to kick it wit you too. Have a great day today.

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2010-05-27T16:33:00.000-07:00

Date : May 27, 2010

Heeeey, I haven't blogged in a while so imma try to update. R.I.P. Mama , miss you dearly): Always praying for you. Summer break begins ! Passed freshman year strong liked I hoped:) Babe and I are still strong as well, 7months in the making. About to go to frisco soon and kick it wit my st.charles besties. Found my old uniform(x Lols. Birthday passed ; I got an iPhone ;D Lols. I finally got to watch Paano Na Kaya and I have the movie plus the poster :D F.A.S. is still together but kinda slipping apart =/ Hopefully summer will make things better. Trynna find a summer job to get money. Sad part is, im still a minor D; I want to work at frisco but I would need my own place which I don't have. Cawsin and I already settled on our new haircut and hopefully things work out lols. Gonna look for asian but cute as well, teehee:) Weather here in Sacramento is bipolar as fck -_- Kinna missin' the hot ass weather in this time of the year. Still kinna stressin' wit those family drama shit. But pullin' myself together everyday as always. Well, I guess thas all ? Oh yeah. IMMA SOPHMORE ;D Kbye !

Pwuahaha.

2010-05-27T16:31:00.000-07:00

Passed 4th term strong wit 2 A's, 1 B and 1 C :D Im so proud of myself ! Omg, this made my day lols.

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2010-05-02T16:12:00.000-07:00

Date : May 2, 2010

WHOAH, it's been a while since I blogged. Whas good ?

Saawp ? Typical Sunday much. Boring but chill ? Well, too many things went on the last time I blogged. So, its 4th term and I think 4 weeks left till school's ovah ? AND SUMMER STARTS ;D I already have plans so its all good:) FAS is still awesome as always. Kickin' it once in a while but cherishing those moments. Babe&I are getting stronger every day. 7months this month:) Helluh plans for this week D: Pamangkin's birthday on Wednesday, Confirmation practice Thursday, Confirmation on Friday and Sonia's Quince on Saturday. Well, at least all of these events will keep me occupied right ? Lols. OH, mommy went to the Philippines last night. Imma miss her): She's gonna be there for 2 weeks so she's coming back May 13th. I get to sleep in my parents room nows xD Lmao. Because dad is sleeping in Sebastian's room just in case. So I have rights to the computer now :D Lols. Now im taking advantage before mommy comes back xD Ugh, school tomorrow -__- I have to get my grades up before school year ends. AND I have to find my freakin' school books still -__- I'm pissed. All im thinking about is the parties imma attend to and SUMMER BREAK :D Lols. Also, imma be working this summer at Kohls for money because I need money obviously. I finished 5 books so far this school year xD I sound like a nerd but hey, its all Nicolas Sparks books ;D Lols. I still needah find another book -__- OMG, so like I was shopping wit mommy on Friday since we didn't have school and guess who I saw ? HIM. I was like WTF. I helluh pointed him out to mommy xD I was shocked kind of-ish ? He was wit the Mexican bitch so that wasn't a surprise. He ruined my day. But then I bought clothes and started forgetting about him so it was okay. OH, I bought my dress for Sonia's quince like last week ? When I went to Fairfield xD Lols. Its pretty:) Mommy bought it for me too(x Lols. And then she bought me shoes to go wit it since mommy, tita achie, tita ada, and mama didn't think I should wear my white flats since "it didn't go wit it". Khaila and I were just laughing when they told me xD Lols. But yeah, I can't wait starting Thursday:) Sadly, Shawn and Pamangkin can't come to my Confirmation because Shawn has his prom and Pamangkin has her Data graduation): Oh well, hope they have fun. Imma take lots of pictures for Pamangkin as well(x Lols. I don't know why but I wanna go party nows xD Lmfao. Helluh random but yeah. I don't know, im just weird ;D Kuya finally got his car last month. Its blue but nice I guess ? Lmao. So he drives me places nows xD I can't wait till July or so :D I get to get my highlights when mommy's friend comes back from the Philippines so YAY :D Lmao. Dirty blond ;D Babe thinks it looks cute when girls have highlights so I was like okay ? Aha, I wanted to get highlights even before he told me that xD 21 days till my birthday:) Teehee. I don't wanna be conceited like my boyfriend so I don't really talk about how my birthday is coming up xD Lols. I'm so bored right now. Might take a shower soon. So, I watched Dear John Friday night and I cried because it was sad D: I WAS gonna watch it wit Babe but he couldn't come over and I couldn't go to the movies wit him, his sister and her boyfriend sadly. But hope he had fun:) *AHEM*FAITHFUL*AHEM*:) Lols. Did I mention he has a phone now ? Lols. He got it like 3 days after his birthday I think ? Lols. But yeah, we get to text, at times now. His phone is nice though, a touch screen too D: I'm jealous xD Lols. I hope my mommy buys me a new phone in the Philippines xD Lols. AND Ate got her phone back like 3 days after her birthday too so thas good lols. I use Tumblr now so I don't really go on Blogspot as much anymore(x Check out my tumblr though. Well, the FAS tumblr ;D I'm so tired of typing now xD Imma go watch tv now :D Ttyl:)

Fa's project

2010-03-18T20:41:00.000-07:00

Tumblr.

2010-03-14T10:14:00.001-07:00

Because I was bored and decided to make a tumblr ? Lols. Yeah xD Follow !

rawritsthafas.tumblr.com

Confirmation/Sonia's Quence ?

2010-03-07T08:26:00.000-08:00

Dress 1 or 2 ?

Still looking, not sure yet. I don't have to decide until end of April though. Any ideas ? Get at me:)

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2010-03-06T14:45:00.000-08:00

Date : March 6, 2010

2010 GOALS;

_Date wit Babe
_BIG events wit FAS
_San Francisco wit FAS
[021410]Carnival wit FAS
[w/mexasian030510]_Movies wit FAS
_Sleep over SOB's house wit FAS
_Shopping wit FAS
_Lent; Stop procrastinating !
_Watch these movies
[021310]>Time Travelers Wife
>Paano Na Kaya
>Dear John
>Valentines Day
>When In Rome
_More pictures wit FAS
_Learn to breakdance
_Learn to play one song on the piano :D
_Don't give up cwalking !
[Gizela 020710]_Hang out wit old friends

*I'll add more later ;D

My Calendar; May2010

2010-03-06T12:29:00.001-08:00

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2010-03-06T08:04:00.001-08:00

Date : March 6, 2010

Updating for this week ?

So, this week was finals week. &yes I passed as you can see on my last blog. Lols. Kickin' it wit my two Kuya's and BFFAAE is always fun. Different adventures everyday:) I fail during Lent xD I can't stop procrastinating because its a habit for me. But I have to try to stop once in a while. Hm .. What else happened .. Got to kick it wit Babe on Thursday. Friday, went to the movies wit BFFAAE, Sonia, Monique and my Kuya's. Watched Alice In Wonderland lols. Appearantly, its my Kuya's favorite movie now xD Aftah the movie, we just hung out in the theaters. BFFAAE, my Kuya's and I did our contest, "Who can hold ice on their hands the longest" lmfao. SOB won D: Snoopy was in second place, BFFAAE and I were last but I was the loser D: Ghey lols. Oh well, it was stupid but hilarious. 8 more days of CFF classes :D Babe's birthday is coming up next month. Then its Ate's. Then Pamangkin's. Then mine. Then SOB's. Then BFFAAE's. Helluh events coming up in May ! Friday is the last kick it till May. We are gonna lay off kickin' it because their is helluh events in May. I'll post a calendar later :D Lmao. Well, imma go to CFF soon. OH, im done wit 3rd term ! One more term left then im done wit Freshman year :D Dang, helluh fast though :O Lols, thas all for now:) Follow me on my 365project.

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2010-03-06T07:59:00.000-08:00

Date : March 6, 2010

GOOD NEWS :D

I passed all my finals wit a B ! My science grade went up from a D- to a C because Fa and Hao tutored and helped me wit my study guide that we got to use on the test :D Thanks to them, I don't have to retake General Science sophmore year ! YAY:) Omg, I was so scared I was gonna fail and would have to retake it but NOPE ;D Ahaha. Yay me ! ANDANDANDANDANDAND ! I passed my Speech Proficiency in English ! I don't have to take it anymore in high school :D I'm so happy ! Ahaha. Well, thas all wit good new. Ttyl:)

Asian Much:)

2010-02-24T19:40:00.000-08:00

Because my brother and I were bored and helluh hyper and wanted to play around wit Picasa lmao.

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2010-02-24T19:11:00.001-08:00

Date : February 24, 2010

Because when your ready to talk, step up.

It's hard when people don't take you seriously. But then again, if your playing around, they assume pretty much the opposite of what's suppose to be "funny". I hate how people get all serious and then assume shit in a stupid situation. Like really though, you can work it out calmly. There shouldn't be anymore complications when working things out. Act your age. People say that because you shouldn't act like a lito kid anymore. Yeah, I confess. I act immature at times but I step it up sooner or later. I know how to act so I don't need anymore comments. I love helping people in tough situations just to make them happy. Even if I have to suffer, I still help. But if you want me to help, you also have to be the bigger person in the situation. Fuck that kid shit. It's all about the real world. I may be a bitch at times but I say whats on my mind. You should do that to. Don't even be a bitch and say "its all your fault". Helluh shady. Freal though, try being a lito more mature about things. Even though things may be bothering you, stop acting all emo and shit just because your sad. Be optimistic. Yeah, you can hide it inside but feel happy on the outside so there won't be anymore mishaps. If your in a situation that involves talking it out wit the other person, why don't you just do that than just being a bitch about it. I'm tired of people talking shit. Gets me annoyed. Thas all I wanted to get off my mind .. Might add more later.

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2010-02-24T16:39:00.001-08:00

YES ! Downloading Picasa agains :D I helluh miss it though D:
Helluh random but it's worth sharing ;D Yes, im weird<3

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2010-02-24T15:58:00.000-08:00

Date : February 24, 2010

Making a decision ? xD

So, people at school said I should get a Tumblr. Same shit as this though xD Hm .. Whas your opinion ? Lols. 2 people told me to keep blogspot because its .. Me ! Aha. Well, still gonna decide. I have a myspace [boring], aim, friendster, yahoo, youtube, 365project, tokbox and thas about it. Hit me up on anythang ? ASK ;D

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2010-02-23T20:54:00.000-08:00

Date : February 23, 2010

"Fuck the bitch, I don't need this shit. Imma live life to the fullest and have NO regrets.":)

So, next week is my last week at Monterey Trail. Hope to go to Sheldon though. Florin's wack. No offense Ate ;D Lols. Lent started, im giving up procrastinating. Yes, hard but imma have to try hard. Hanging out wit the my mains aftah school. Pretty chill though so its all good. Drama flowing but I tend to always try to get out of it. Getting my grades up before next week. Luckily SOB and Snoopy are trying to help me in General Science(x SOB is pedo for lito kids at McDonald's ! Lmfao.Confirmation on May 7th ! Yes, mains are going ;D Whoo hoo ! Lols. Babe&I are trying hard not to fade. But I still love him a lot. Always&Forever right ?<3>:D Lmao. I've been waking up in the middle of the night nowadays. Don't know why but its ghey =/ Well, thas all for an update right ? Remember to follow me on my 365project:)

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2010-02-20T18:17:00.000-08:00

Date : February 20, 2010

Because its the fact that he's back ..

So, everything goes great and all of a sudden .. BAM, he's back. Why is this happening ? I know he would come back but why soon ? Why now ? Why ? There's so many questions going through my mind and I just don't know how to figure things out. This week was a total bust. Well, yesterday was great. Except the fact that babe and I fought and it was the scariest night ever for me .. It's all because he's back. I knew this would happen. Things won't be the same. How do I know ? I can feel it. Because its the fact that we ALL reacted the same when we found out. Shocked. Scared. Mad. What else ? How else can we express our feelings ? Venting ? Of course, for me. Wow. Only a week passed since I blogged and A LOT of shit happened. I guess a lot can happen in one week. Stressful isn't it ? I'm hopping things can straighten out soon. Wow, and more things start reveling to me. People need to start realizing the big responsibilities to their faults. I mean sure, you didn't know it at first but now, you need to start growing up and realize what's happening now. Really though, I can help but you need to tell me everything that happened. It's nice how he wants to be friends still. Still scared what might happen when I introduce him to babe though. Shit might happen and I don't want it to happen. Still trynna straighten things out wit babe. He wants to kick it Friday so we'll see if he really comes this time. Well, thas all for now. To be continued ? ..

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2010-02-15T11:09:00.000-08:00

Date : February 15, 2010

Updating ?

Valentines&4 months was yesterday:) Had helluh fun wit fas ! We went to the viet carnival and just hung out for 5 hours lols. Babe gave me a big card, a rose and a gorilla lols. Its cuteeee ! :D I just had helluh fun. Got to see some people from school and especially Sean, the guy I met at Florin homecoming. Lols. Ate and I went on the ferris wheel wit Sean and Justin, her other friend. It was hilarious ! Lols. Hope to have many more fun memories wit the fas this year. Other than that, babe and I are planning to go on a date on Friday to the movies and watch Dear John:) Hope we get to though. We haven't spend time alone in a while so yeah. Too much drama this year. Hope things shape up soon. Family is okay so far. Still in "trouble" for running away. Trynna make family issues less now. Still have goes for this year that I really need to succeed in ! Lols. Well, thas all for now. Remember, follow me at my 365project:)

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2010-02-13T19:12:00.001-08:00

Date : February 13, 2010

Haaaappy 1 year&1 month Best Friend<3

Follow me at : http://365project.org/annjeanette/365

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2010-02-01T17:26:00.000-08:00

Date : February 1, 2010

Convo wit Cawsin:)

[16:56] annjeanettelynne: Heeeey,
[16:57] KhailaZherine: Heyy sawp ?
[16:57] annjeanettelynne: Bored D:
[16:57] annjeanettelynne: Yous ?
[16:57] KhailaZherine: LOL whys that ? Talkina Alex
[16:57] annjeanettelynne: Im bored !
[16:57] annjeanettelynne: How are you and him ?
[16:57] KhailaZherine: Lexy(: 4:57 pm
(4:57:09 PM): did i tell u that

(4:57:15 PM): u looked cute today?
[16:57] KhailaZherine: thats how we are
[16:57] KhailaZherine: xD
[16:58] KhailaZherine: how are you and nhia ?
[16:58] annjeanettelynne: Lols awh
[16:58] annjeanettelynne: Only see each other once a week
[16:58] KhailaZherine: Aww Well that's the kinda love you gotta know is strong(:
[16:58] annjeanettelynne: Yeah
[16:58] annjeanettelynne: &i only talk to him when we kick it
[16:58] annjeanettelynne: His sister is really strict
[16:59] KhailaZherine: wtffff gayness tho
[16:59] annjeanettelynne: Yeah
[16:59] annjeanettelynne: We dont have those "all night talks" anymore like last time ,
[16:59] annjeanettelynne: But i guess its w/e
[16:59] annjeanettelynne: now
[17:00] KhailaZherine: welllll if yer ever unhappy
[17:00] KhailaZherine: dont overcommit yerself
[17:00] KhailaZherine: alright ?
[17:00] KhailaZherine: Cause we're still SO young
[17:00] annjeanettelynne: Im not "unhappy", im just saying, might be best this way
[17:00] annjeanettelynne: So we could both concentrate on whats important for now
[17:01] KhailaZherine: whatevers good with you mmk ? (: if ever you know yer cawsins here ! =D
[17:04] annjeanettelynne: Lols I know(:
[17:05] KhailaZherine: Haha so hows school ?
[17:11] annjeanettelynne: Eh, okay I guess ahaha
[17:11] annjeanettelynne: You ?
[17:11] KhailaZherine: it was pretty good, I'm laggin in some classess
[17:12] annjeanettelynne: Same,
[17:12] KhailaZherine: C- in Conceptual physics x.x
[17:12] annjeanettelynne: Whas that ? o.o
[17:12] KhailaZherine: its like a step down from biology, but its a college course class T_T
[17:13] annjeanettelynne: Im guessing its hard o.o
[17:13] KhailaZherine: yes, our teacher yells formulas at us.
[17:13] KhailaZherine: haha
[17:14] annjeanettelynne: LMFAO @
[17:14] annjeanettelynne: *!
[17:14] KhailaZherine: HAHA yesss! Today he snapped his meter stick on the table. He was like ITS NOT FUNNY
[17:14] KhailaZherine: haha I was dying. XD
[17:15] annjeanettelynne: LMFAO !
[17:15] KhailaZherine: I waslike . lolyernotserious.
[17:15] KhailaZherine: xD
[17:16] annjeanettelynne: Ahaha WOW
[17:16] annjeanettelynne: NICE TEACHER xD
[17:16] annjeanettelynne: LOLS !
[17:17] KhailaZherine: HAHAH (:
[17:17] KhailaZherine: I like how I'm your status
[17:17] KhailaZherine: xD
[17:18] KhailaZherine: He shows us tapes about this dude teaching us about atoms, but the guy looks like a fkin RAPIST
[17:18] annjeanettelynne: AHAHA !
[17:18] annjeanettelynne: You sure it isn't Zhane ?
[17:18] annjeanettelynne: Lmao xD
[17:19] KhailaZherine: LMFAO HAHA ouhhh I'm telling! jkjk haha
[17:19] KhailaZherine: Maybe it is...
[17:19] KhailaZherine: XD
[17:19] KhailaZherine: "IT*
[17:19] KhailaZherine: XD
[17:19] KhailaZherine: "ITTTTT"
[17:19] KhailaZherine: haha
[17:19] annjeanettelynne: Don't worry, zhane knows she's pedo ;D
[17:19] annjeanettelynne: LMFAO !
[17:19] KhailaZherine: LMAO
[17:19] KhailaZherine: so ar eyou! hahaha!
[17:19] KhailaZherine: LOOK AT THE CUTE LITTLE BOY!
[17:19] KhailaZherine: xD
[17:21] annjeanettelynne: SHUT UP ! LMFAO XD
[17:21] KhailaZherine: hahaha yeauh. Didn't forget. LOL
[17:21] KhailaZherine: omg
[17:21] KhailaZherine: today
[17:21] KhailaZherine: in pe
[17:21] KhailaZherine: my teacher
[17:21] KhailaZherine: was bouta pair me up with nick
[17:21] KhailaZherine: cause me and nick were alone
[17:22] KhailaZherine: I was like umm no.
[17:22] annjeanettelynne: Brb gonna ... WTFAWK ?!
[17:22] KhailaZherine: LOL
[17:22] annjeanettelynne: Anyways, brb gonna eat xD
[17:22] KhailaZherine: and nick walked away
[17:22] KhailaZherine: HAHA
[17:22] KhailaZherine: n I was like
[17:22] KhailaZherine: HELL NO
[17:22] KhailaZherine: haha mm
[17:22] KhailaZherine: mmk
[17:25] annjeanettelynne: Wait, im not eating yet xD
[17:25] annjeanettelynne: I was but mommy's not done doing whatever she's doing xD
[17:25] annjeanettelynne: Who was your partner then ?
[17:25] KhailaZherine: LOL
[17:25] KhailaZherine: I went with seth
[17:25] KhailaZherine: and stuff
[17:25] KhailaZherine: xD
[17:25] annjeanettelynne: Lols nice
[17:25] annjeanettelynne: Shoot, imma save this convo xD
[17:26] KhailaZherine: LOL
[17:26] KhailaZherine: and frikken
[17:26] KhailaZherine: Matt
[17:26] KhailaZherine: Nicks friend was like
[17:26] KhailaZherine: HEY KHAILA LOOK HERE
[17:26] KhailaZherine: and I wa slike
[17:26] KhailaZherine: HELL NO
[17:26] KhailaZherine: and walked away
[17:26] KhailaZherine: lol
[17:27] annjeanettelynne: WOW
[17:27] annjeanettelynne: xD
[17:27] annjeanettelynne: He's uglay to look at anyways(:
[17:27] KhailaZherine: hahahaha and I didnt look at that fucker . (:
[17:27] KhailaZherine: LOL
_We talked more but it was loooong ;D

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2010-01-20T20:10:00.000-08:00

Date : January 20, 2010

I feel loved<3

[20:03] ninjaboyfa: We need more one on one talk like this, Idk it feels like your a mother figure to me right now
[20:03] ninjaboyfa: Idk why*

[20:08] babyycakesx33333: even though I just met you
[20:08] babyycakesx33333: I tell
[20:08] babyycakesx33333: people that
[20:08] babyycakesx33333: your my best friend

[20:06] Ate Karyz:) : I LALALOVE YOU!!!!!

Merry Christmas&Happy Holidays 2009 by annjeanette · 365 Project

2010-01-10T10:28:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas&Happy Holidays 2009 by annjeanette · 365 Project

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2010-01-10T09:28:00.000-08:00

Date : January 9, 2010 !

A NEW BEGINNING<3

DAMN, I haven't blogged since November xD Helluh shit been getting in the way so im sorry for not blogging in a while. Here's some updates :D December : My Christmas break was so better than the other years xD Had helluh memories wit Babe<3 I went to Frisco 3 days straight wit mommy(x . I helped mommy wit her Adopt-the-family give away. I also met her new intern, she's pretty ;D We bonding a bit and whatnot lols. Got to kick it wit Christian&Danielle my last day there. I went shopping of course to buy their presents lols. Christmas was UBERFUN:) Cousins came over and whatnot. Had the same "2 parties" like 2 years ago. I got everything I wants; Family&friends. Teehee:) New Years was also fun wit the cousins at Fairfield. Played Taboo wit the family and it was kids vs. adults xD Sadly, adults won): Lols. It was still fun though. Count down started and everyone was watching tv for the count down. January : Texted friends saying "Happy New Years:)" Cawsin&I drank like everyone else ;D Oliver gave us mixed beers and wine xD It was our first time cause he was nice enough to let us lols. He got drunk and it was funny. I got to sleep over cawsin's apartment. Talked to babe on the phone as well that day:) First time I drank more than him lols. Slept like at 3 something in the morning and had to wake up at 7 to go to Fairfield. Went back home at like 12 or so. My new year started okay. But then, last kick it of the year was THABEST<3 Got to hang out wit our lito "groupy" lmfao. Stayed out till 11:30pm. Damn, super fun ;D School started on the 4th. New classes but .. Babe doesn't go to mths no more): He had his 3rd week off. He's gonna start going to Sheldon High School D; But hope we see each other aftah school. Well, thas all for now. Start making many memories this year and don't regret anything. Live your life;) Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

Updates of me; http://365project.org/annjeanette/365/2009-12-25

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2009-11-28T08:53:00.000-08:00

Date : November 28, 2009

&Another one.

Well, let's say things are different .. How was your thanksgiving ? Mine ? Ghey .. I miss last year so much): It kills me knowing that things are different. Hope that next year will be the same in a way as last year. I didn't have that 'family bond' that I was hoping to have. We just fixed the house for Sebastian's party today. We been cleaning the house for 3 days straight ! Yes, im tired but if the party is helluh tight today then it was worth it ;D Lols.

Date : November 29, 2009

SO, yesterday's party was fun but then sad in a way. The only F.A.S. member that came was Ate and I appreciate her for coming along:) Kuya&I picked her up when I got him, kinda. Lols. The REC reunion was okay but then funny towards the end(x Only a few people came and SDCMFFAAE&I felt like we were babysitting -_- We stayed 12 - 2. Then daddy&Kuya picked me up. When we got home, Ate called and said that she can go so Kuya&I picked her up. On the way, my boypren called and he made my phone die D: OMG, Ate FINALLY has a phone ! :D Lols ! &&UNLIMITED TEXTING ! Yessss ;D She has a touch phone, better than mines but at least we both have phones:) So when we got to my house, I gave her a tour around the house a bit. Yes, everyone likes this house so mucho:) Then we helped getting the food and table ready. My mom friends came first then my cousins came. When everyone came, it was soo loud D: The lito kids were like yelling and running around. Then Ate&I helped comfort cawsin cause she was still sad): I feel helluh bad for her. Ihatehim -_- Readers, you don't need to know(: Well, it was a good night mixed wit other stuff too but we had family time. I made my boypren&Khaila a cwalk dedication cause they mean a lot to me right now. Imma upload it laters. Ate&I toke helluh pictures wit her new phone cause it has better quality than my phone xD Kinda. Lols. Aftah the party-ish when my cousins left, my daddy&his friend dropped me off at Ate's house since I slept over cause I go to church wit them on Sundays. Ate, Nerd&I ate brownies, talked, texted, went on the computer and watched tv till we got tired xD Yes, it was a loooong and crazy night xD My boypren couldn't come to the party cause he had another party to go to. So he called me when he was there cause he missed me and he was being faithful, not dancing wit other girls without me:) I helluh love him for that but I feel bad that I didn't go cause he invited me and whatnot. So, making him a dedication cwalk and giving him a surprise will make it up:) So Ate&I slept at 2 something in the morning and we had to go to church at 8. THE EARLIEST I EVER WENT TO CHURCH. I think .. xD Lols. But yeah, we were helluh tired. &we were late to church too, we arrived at 8:30 ish. Aftah church, we went back to their house, ate and then left to their tita's house cause her brother needed to say bye to them since he is going back to Irvine. Her brother is funny though xD Lols. Then aftah that, they dropped me back home and when Nerd, her sister, and their parents saw my house they liked it(x Yes, everyone falls in love wit our house lols. It's true though :D Lols. Well, that was my weekend. Now, imma rest and upload the pictures and video's later. Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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2009-11-25T17:17:00.000-08:00

Date : November 25, 2009

&Again, updating.

A lot has been going on lately. Just recently moved to the new house. Yes, I LOVE the new house:) Still getting used to everything but all good so far. Going to mths still. Kuya drives me to school so yeah. He first drove me to school yesterday and we had such an adventure lols. I'm surprised im still alive xD Lols ! Jkay:) School is school. Getting stressed out as usual. Grades currently dropping because of my laziness and lack of participation on work. Don't worry, im going to bring them up again. Family issues are a bitch. Yes, still going on but hey, im used to it remember ? Those are the only two things I stress about =/ My boypren and I are still going out:) 1 month and 11 days ! Ilovehimohsomuch. Thanksgiving is tomorrow ! I Sebastian's birthday party is on Saturday ;D PAAAARTY ! Lols. I don't know what we are doing for thanksgiving but I'll find out eventually. But I can't wait to party wit the family and friend:) Yes, wit family and friends, it's a BIG party ;D Lols. I don't really go on the computer as much anymore since it's boring to me. I just go on at times when something is needed or when I feel like it. I'll be blogging from time to time if new events come up. Been kinda fading wit the F.A.S lately): I haven't really hung out wit all of them in a while. Hopefully on Saturday we get to spend time wit each other like always. Lot's has been running through my mind lately. People need to stfu and stop always bringing Josh into the topic. Wtf though, I'M OVER HIM. PERIOD. Shit .. Getting on my nerves -_- Anyways, just hoping something good comes into my life sooner or later. Still praying for mama's health that she will be okay. Keeping my dreams up about going to the Philippines next year, May 2010 w/Ate Leigh Anne:) We'll see how it goes. Imma try to find a center where I can learn the Filipino traditional dances ;D Lols. Yes, im weird but hey, trying different things can help you in life some time lols. Living my life to the fullest everyday because my family&friends are my influences. "Love comes and goes but family&friends are forever." Christmas is just a few days away ! Ready to have that break though(x Christmas is my favorite time of the year because my family&friends are always here to have fun. I hoped this year would be better than last year but I guess every year is the same in a way. Please God, let next year be a lito bit different. Music is still an everyday must; keeps me in check. Aim&phone are my everyday routine. Memories should be everyday and be cherished forever. For all my viewers, please pray for my family&I that are 'problem' could be solved easily and soon. Blehh, tired wit all the sadness. I just want to have fun and whatnot, you know ? I wanna party one day, without worrying about all the stress and pressure. Take me away from this world and let me in the dream I've been dreaming about. Yes, I have high hopes for my dreams. Knowing that tomorrow CAN be a new start makes me wonder, 'can it be really tomorrow?'. Fck the drama, let's make it simpler. Hm .. I guess thas all ? I'll update more sooner or later. Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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2009-11-19T10:38:00.000-08:00

Date : November 19, 2009

REC !

Hi, im Sister Annjeanette Fortuno, Rec 92, table of St. Genevieve !:)

Rec was the best ! It was on November 6 - 8. I learned a lot during rec. &Ate was right ; it's emotional and you'll learn a lot. I changed aftah rec though. I don't cuss as much anymore and I listen to my parents more. I also learned that no matter what, we should give it all to God. GOD is love and love is all around us. Everyone can love. &I also learned to forgive and NOT forget. During rec, I was thinking about a lot of things. Total Commitment made me helluh cry =/ It made us think about how our family members and friends are sorry for what they done to us and whatnot. Man, I am for sure going to serve rec 94 ! Lols. During rec, Shawn&I bonded a lot xD Lols. It was funny and cool(: I'll upload the pictures as soon as I move in my new house. Yes, I toke a lot of pictures and made video's as well(x Well, thas all I wanted to say about rec ;D

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2009-11-03T18:08:00.000-08:00

Date : November 19, 2009

Updating A Bit.

So, my Halloween was FUUUUN:) Better than last year xD Lols. I went wit Ate, her friend and my boypren. We walked A LOT ! But it was funny cause my boypren was acting stupid but entertaining us at the same time. Lols. Ate&I were nerds ;D &her friend was a dead cheerleader lols. My boypren didn't dress up cause yeah xD We just had helluh fun and stayed out till almost 12. It was the first time Ate met my boypren and she approves ;D Lols. Well, aftah we had to go, I slept over Ate's house and Ate, Nerd, their older sister and I watched Paranormal Activities. The first part was boring but then the second part was SCARY :o ! Aftah that, we watched Shake, Rattle and Role. It's a filipino scary movie xD They had a marathon so yeah. We didn't sleep till 2 something in the morning. So, her parents, Nerd and her sister woke Ate&I up at 7 something cause we were the only ones still sleeping xD We had to eat and then get ready for church. We didn't go to church till the 11 am mass. Enough with that weekend, here are some updates. BFFAAE's birthday ws on the 13th so we went out to eat suhi and kick it. After school, my boypren and I waited for Ate and Nerd to pick us up since they are our rides to Osaka Sushi next to United Artist. When we were there, we called the birthday girl to come so yeah. Then she came at 5 and thas when the resturaunt opened. It was BFFAAE, Ate, Nerd, my boypren and I. Pamangkin couldn't come cause her auntie wanted to take her out and fatties didn't come cause they are lazy. For BFFAAE's present, I gave her a rose, brownies and a big card wit some pictures we toke on our anniversaries and 8th grade year:) Yes, she liked it ;D Lols. I also gave my boypren a rose cause our 1 month was on the 14th which is a Saturday and obviously we can't hang out on the weekends since im always busy. He didn't get me anything and he felt bad but it's okay because I don't expect anythang ;D Lols. Friday was helluh fun though. We stayed out till 9 pm xD We walked to Foodsco aftah dinner, bought chips, candy and stayed at College Square and toke pictures(x It was funny lols. Well, BFFAAE had a fun time :D My boypren was supposed to take BFFAAE, Ate, Nerd&I to my house but his sister was wit her boypren so when my boypren left we went to Target to wait for BFFAAE's parents to come. It was boring at Target cause there was only a few people there. So when BFFAAE's parents came, she brought Nerd and Ate to my house. When we came to my house, we ate and rest before her sister came to pick them up. That night was the best though:) Lols. Hm .. What else to update .. Im moving): We found a very nice house at Franklin. It is 16 mins away from here. We started to move in Tuesday. &im sick so I missed school. Everyone misses me and I miss them oh so much D; My parents said I can't go to school yet cause im still not well yet but I feel okay. Kuya got me sick first so I hate him for that. This week was supposed to be my last week at MTHS but noo I just had to get sick -_- Ghey. Just hope I go to school tomorrow, Friday, cause I wanna say my last goodbye to second period the most. Imma miss them a lot =/ They always made my day. Of course imma miss Pamangkin, BFFAAE, my boypren, mostly everyone I know ! Ugh, this is so ghey. I hate when I move, I always start to fade from people. Just hope I don't fade wit them .. My boypren cried when I told him I was moving D; I feel bad .. &having a long distance relationship again ? *sigh* Well, we'll see how it goes. I guess thas all the updates for now.

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2009-10-30T21:54:00.000-07:00

Date : October 30, 2009

Poem #1

I'm sorry this ever happened to us.
I'm sorry we messed up.
I'm sorry we didn't work it out.
I'm sorry this ended so fast.
I'm sorry all the memories faded.
I'm sorry for not staying strong.
I'm sorry for not giving my all.
I'm sorry we split up.
I'm sorry you left.
But now that we're through and you moved on,
Why do I have to say sorry ?
_Dedication to him ..

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2009-10-30T21:40:00.000-07:00

October 03, 2009 _MTHS homecoming
I Want To Know What Love Is.MP3<3
October 14, 2009 @ 3:23 PM
: (3:22) "Do you like me enough to love me ?"
: (3:23)"I love you enough to ask you this : would you go out wit me ?"
: (3:23) "Yes"(:

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2009-10-23T20:06:00.000-07:00

Date : October 23, 2009

Updating Time:)

Hay loves. How have you been ? Lols. Well, I FINALLY have time to update my blogspot since it's Friday and I don't really have homework. I had times that I get to go on the computer but I don't really have much time to update so now I get to. Let's see, finally starting second term this week. So far, high school is getting better for me. Let's just say October 14, 2009 @ 3:23 PM was one of my best days. I'm taken though ;D Teehee. His name is Nhia and he's a sophmore. Yes, a sophmore lols. We have second period algebra together and luckily we have it the whole year so it's all good. I helluh love that class though ! Whenever my day is bad at the beginning, my day turns better aftah second period. Well, im starting to get over him. It's a good thing. But he pops up on my mind every now and then cause people start mentioning him which is ghey. Anyways, I did a lot of stuff these past few weeks since I haven't been blogging but its to long to type xD Let's just say a lot can happen in 1 week lols. So, im starting to be a good girl for my parents but they just keep bringing me down every time. It hurts so much when your parents say the negatives about you even though they MIGHT be kidding. All the shit im hearing is fck'n b/s. I'm stressing at home when im supposed to be only stressing wit school and whatnot. But I guess school is the only place that calms me down. I like being away from home at times so I won't have to deal wit all this b/s. But I have to go home so I have to deal wit it. My heart has been going wild nowadays because I hyperventilate a lot =/ Ghey .. Hm .. What else to say .. OH, today was the best day too:) In second period, we had a party to celebrate surviving the first terms lols. We just did the warm up and started watching Transformers and eat food. I brought pancit canton and everyone loved it ;D So, BFFAAE, Sonia, Elizabeth, Nhia&I sat in the back. Nhia was like flirting wit me xD Lols. Then aftah school, he walked me home and we gave each other the longest hug we ever gave each other. Yes, im happy:) Teehee. P.E. is torture ! I swear D: My thighs still hurt like fck. I like 8th grade p.e. better ! The stairs are torture but the track seems easier to run because I guess its rubber and whatnot. I run alone cause Monique runs slow xD So aftah p.e. during lunch, I kept getting compliments because I put my hair up on the side lols. I never put my hair up at school but now I do because of p.e. My classes are okay so far. Trying to still get good grades to make me&my parents happy. Hm .. Am I missing anything else ? OH, NERD LOST THE BET& I WON >:D Hehehe ! I have to make her do something for me xD But im still thinking because I want her to do something embarrassing xD Nerd, I know I said I don't want to make it hard for you but .. Never mind, I changed my mind:) Lols. So, Ate&I's 2 years is on Monday. YAY ! Pamangkin's&I's 1 year is on Sunday ;D I hope Nhia&I last. I have a feeling it will though. We are progressing each day so its all good. He's faithful though:) He doesn't hug girls as much as last time xD &we have our late night conversations before sleeping. Teehee. So, I go to Fairfield on the weekends to visit my cousins and whatnot. It's fun going there though lols. Because I haven't seen them in a while so I get to update wit them. When im there, I usually babysit but its okay, I have fun doing it:) Well, I'll try to update on Fridays when I have time. &I'll post up the new picture on my 'Rawr' blog lols. I guess thas all for now. If I missed something, I'll come back and re-update. Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

Haaaappy 1 year&1 month BFFAAE. iloveyou:) Always&Forever ;

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2009-10-05T20:08:00.000-07:00

Date : October 5, 2009

My Weekend Part 2

  
So, as you should ALL know. Im grounded. I’ll tell you why. But before that, this means I won’t be blogging as much. Right now, imma just blog wit Microsoft word and copy it later to my blog when I get internet back. SO, let’s start off shall we ? So I left off before going to CFF class. When I was walking to class, I saw Cristyln. It was so random O_O Her&me had drama in 7th grade but now its cool I guess. Trying to forget about the past and move on. She said she is signing up for CFF class to. She isn’t going to be in my class because my class is 7th&8th grade. Even though im in 9th grade, I had to go down a grade since I didn’t attend 7th&8th grade year. ANYWAYS, when class started, all of us noticed our teacher wasn’t here when class started [8:45]. We were all like “whoops, she’s late, she gets the after class detention” lmfao xD It was funny. So our T.A. taught the class. She was better than our teacher(x We got to talk and whatnot. So Christian [Ate’s friend] was talking to Jessica, Celine and me. It was cool. We only had to do 1 assignment lols. We didn’t even have to take a test :D We usually take tests after class before leaving but w/e ;D Lols. All of us had to write our names on a paper so our teacher knew we were at class that day. &the best part, we got out of class 10 mins early lmao. After class, Shawn&I talked(x I get to see him&Shantelle every Saturday now:) While waiting for our rides, Jessica&I decided to go on the swings and be lito kid’s lols. It was cool:) I haven’t been on a swing since I last kicked it at the park. So when my daddy&kuya came to pick me up, we went home. Then when I got home, I ate brunch since I skipped breakfast before I left this morning cause I thought I would be late but I was early >.<>.< hour="9" minute="35">9:35 or something like that. I felt helluh bad. I didn’t even notice the time cause I was having so much fun ! When I got in the car, my parents were yelling at me of course&whatnot. When we got home, my mommy talked to me before I slept. She gave me “the talk”. &that’s the story of how I got grounded. When she was talking to me, I was helluh thinking about NewFriend&him. My phone died at the dance so it explains everything. When I put my phone in the charger and it turned on, I got like 10 text messages. I was like DAMN xD Then I fell asleep. I was helluh tired though ! Because it was a fun night to remember:) Well, the homecoming part that is<3 hour="11" minute="0">11 o’clock mass so I woke up early for nothing xD Lols. I got to tell her everything. Nerd got mad cause I danced wit NewFriend xD She still wants me wit him. So then it was like 10 something and Ate&Nerd picked me up for church. When we got to church, we were looking for people we knew xD We didn’t see Christian so we thought he is going to the 12 o’clock mass. We saw FOB though and other people from my class. The mass lecture was very weird cause it was kinda related to me O_O Ate was like “it’s a sign !” xD After church, they dropped me off home. When I got home, I ate, did my homework and then slept since I had no internet and I was still tired. I woke up and my lito brother was awake so I had to baby-sit him since my parents were gone looking for houses. They came home like 10 mins after my lito brother woke up. When they came home, he toke a bath and we ate dinner. After dinner, I toke a shower and got my things ready for school the next day. So overall, my weekend was very tiring and hectic. But even though I got in trouble, homecoming was worth it<3

Im Grounded.

2009-10-05T20:02:00.001-07:00

Date : October 5, 2009

Yes, its true. Im grounded. My hardest punishments are here. No internet, house phone, outside privileges. Nada. All I can do wit my cell phone is to call for emergency's and text. If you need me, TEXT IT. I wonder if my phone is going to be taken away .. Maybe .. Don't know. But I guess this is my last blog till I earn my parents trust back. My mommy gave me the talk and I guess she's right, time to grow up and face the consequences. Imma blog if I get internet privileges anytime. My parents said I have to start sharing computer's wit my kuya since we are moving to an apartment I believe ? Or something. But knowing my kuya, I wont have time to go on myspace, aim [maybe], blogspot, etc. All those things I usually do. So I guess this is a farewell to all my followers .. For now..

Haaaappy Birthday Madre<3

To Be Continued ..

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2009-10-03T07:33:00.000-07:00

Date : October 03, 2009

Another Week Though:)

Spirit week(: Lols. BFFAAE, Pamangkin&I only dressed for 2 occasions; 'Beauty&The Best' and 'Stranded on a Island'. Corny names huh ? Yeah, our schools WOW xD My classes are getting better. 2 more weeks till 2nd term. This term went by fast though. Im getting my grades up to A's and hopefully will stay after the finals. If not, B's are okay. Trying to focus on school work before anything else. So this week, a lot happened for me. Lets just say Nerd MIGHT win. But .. The bet is turning. Im trying to not have feelings for NewFriend. Everyone was like 'if you go out wit him, imma be mad at you. you and Josh look good together !' LOls. Thas true though, Josh&I look like a good match. But then again, there is progression going on but I dont know if we go back out together .. IM SO SORRY BFFAAE ! My fellow readers, you dont need to know why(: But then again .. IMSORRYBFFAAEIMSORRYBFFAAEIMSORRYBFFAAEIMSORRYBFFAAEIMSORRYBFFAAE! Im truly sorry, I dont want to ruin our friendship just cause of this stupid thing =/ Besides that .. Friday was the best day ever ;D We had a rally schedule so our classes were an hour and 18 mins. NewFriend asked me to the homecoming dance today. I said yes:) He's nice though. He begged me this whole week xD We had a bet though. He had to be quiet in second period on Thursday and yesterday. He was but yesterday, he was kinda loud xD When it was quiet on Thursday, my teacher was happy and everyone else too(x So everyone wins ;D LOls ! Back to talking about yesterday ; Kido paid for my dance ticket cause I couldn't find Fa and it was almost time to go to 4th period. Imma pay him back on Monday though(: Tanks Kido ! I thought I was going to be late but I wasn't. THEN in 5th period AVID, we were going to have our vocabulary quiz and Carla&I didn't study BUT THEN our teacher said we are going to have it on Monday cause it was our teacher's birthday on Wednesday. We were saved xD So instead, we played a game. BFFAAE, Sonia, Monique&I were called the Mexasians ;D LMFAO ! We had 14 points. Sonia : "OMG, 14 !" Me : "What a coincidence ;D" LMAO. So after school like at 2:09, school ended and we could attend the rally if we want to and BFFAAE&I went wit NewFriend:) His friends kept shoving him on me xD Such losers LOls. The rally sucked though. After the rally, BFFAAE, NewFriend&I kicked it. So we decided to go see the break dance club. It was fun ! BFFAAE&I were just watching and recorded ;D The video link is on 'break dance club'. LOls. After the break dance club, NewFriend was supposed to give BFFAAE&I a ride but he couldn't. Its okay though, we wanted to walk to my house(x Lols. When BFFAAE&I were walking to my house, we were acting retarted at times but it was funny ;D Lmao. When we went to my house, we went on the computer, ate snacks, talked, etc. Then she had to go ): She's not even going to homecoming D; Imma miss her ! So when she left, thas when I edited the video. Then at like 9 ish, NewFriend wanted me to call him so I did xD We were on the phone for 1 hour and 5 mins cause my daddy had to use the phone xD But I called him back to say gnight lols. Well, imma go to CFF soon. So imma blog part 2 tomorrow. Well, thas all for now:) Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

My Answer To The Question ;

2009-09-28T17:21:00.000-07:00

'Why do you have a boyfriend ?' [WHEN I was going out wit him ..]

We were friends wit benifits at first but then we toke it another level. Even though we were going out, we were still bestfriends. I could tell him anything and everything and he would always be there for me. I love him because he made me realize how my life is precious and he would never let me down. Even though I might not know the REAL reason to this thing called 'love' but I know that we had a special bond that I would call 'love'. Wit him by my side, knowing I have someone to go to whenever I feel like talking to someone, he would always be there for me to open up to him. Even though I had my mains to go to, he would always make me feel special everyday. He was like the best though. "Even though we aren't going out anymore, I miss him the most .." I miss how we used to be and all those memories we had. If I would go back in time, my second choice would be 8th grade. Because thas where it all started.

I love you, always&forever .. Unconditionally, I promise.

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2009-09-28T16:04:00.001-07:00

Date : September 28, 2009

1 Year of Blogspot:)

Why hello there. Yes, today is my 1 year of Blogspot. Yay, lols. The link up there is my first blog. Its boring but w/e right ? ;D So, I wont be talking about Blogspot for this whole blog since thas boring and I want to entertain you, teehee. So, people say 'Tumblr' is better than Blogspot -_- Its the same freakin' thing ! 'Tumblr' is just new in-a-way. But I love Blogspot better :D Lols. OMG, today I feel liked I was harrassed a lot ! NewFriend gave me a lapdance O_O Yes .. EWH ! I was just sitting in my seat side sattle then he put his arm on my shoulder and yeah. HE DID IT TO ME 2 TIMES ! He was like 'you know you liked it' the real answer is that ... HE IS NASTY OMG ! I had my eyes closed of course so I didn't see anything lols. Helluh people said I looked helluh red xD I was though D: Everyone was laughing and me of course even though it was NASTY ! But anyways, after school BFFAAE and I were walking and he saw us so we decided to walk wit us and his friends called him and he was like 'this is my best friend annjeanette !' I was like WOW xD Hannah was laughing lols. He had his arm around my shoulder which was weird. He kept reminding me about the 'lapdance'. Cause he said I could dance too but I don't show it cause I DON'T WANT TO. Lols. But yeah. Uhm, school today went by fast even though it was boring. I saw Ate Kimberly today after first period:) It was cool lols. We started talking and whatnot. I was so freakin' tired today, omg. Im still tired cause of the LONG weekend that was worth it ;D Ahahaha. I was texting Kuya on Sunday at like 12 but then I fell asleep on his as always(x He's used to that lols. I haven't talked to him in helluh long though cause we are busy nowadays wit school and whatnot. But I talk to him from time to time on aim. OH, on Sunday was the FAS 8 months anniversary ;D HAY ! Lols. Well, I guess thas all:) Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

6, 8, 12. MP3

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2009-09-25T20:16:00.000-07:00

Date : September 25, 2009

Damn, week 6 went by fast ..

HAY:) How was your week sweetie ? Mine was good, tanks for asking ;D Well, my classes are getting better. I got extra credit for some of my classes. YES ! LOls. The only part that ruined my week was when problems started to come in. Helluh fcking ghey ... People want to start drama wit me already. DUDe, if you wanna fade, let's go. I hate when people get in your business. Friday, Saturday &today, Sunday is the best:) Friday, I got to hang out wit my Ate&Nerd. It was also Pamangkin&I's 11 months anniversary:) SOB&Fa was supposed to walk me to Florin. So when I got to their house, they said they were sick and I had to go by myself D; I started walking away sad and tired so then I thought that I should just go home. When I just got out of their street, Fa on his bike came and asked if I wanted him to peg me so it was nice of him(: We got to hang out while going to Florin. When we reached Isabelle Jackson, we saw Ate, Nerd and their boyfriends. So it was unexpected xD I felt like a third wheeler though cause I have no boyfriend of course. Oh well .. Now I know how they felt when I was wit him .. Made me think a lot though. So then we started heading for Ate&Nerd's house so we girls could get ready. The guys were just outside. Ate's boyfriend had to leave so it was Nerd's boyfriend&Fa outside waiting for us. It was the first time meeting Nerd's boyfriend and he's cool xD BUT he moves too fast -_- After we girls got ready, we had to drop off Nerd's boyfriend at Florin but then we all didn't want to go cause I was tired so Nerd, her boyfriend and Fa went to drop him off. Ate&I stayed at Toby Johnson Park, talked, layed down and toke pictures ;D When Nerd&Fa came back, we told Fa to go home and get some rest since he was sick. Then us girls started to head to their house so they could ask their parents if they can sleep over my house. I was supposed to sleep over their house but my parents said that we were looking at houses on Saturday. So we waited for their mom to come back and decided to just go on the computer. When their mom came, her parents said yes so they packed quickly and we headed for my house. When we arrived at my house, my brother, daddy&my lito brother went to go pick up my mommy. Ate, Nerd&I decided to take LOTS of pictures in my bathroom and then we went downstairs to set up the table and go on the computer as always. When my parents and brother's came back, we ate and watched the last show of Tayong Dalawa. OMG, Nerd, mommy&I cried ! After the show and eating, I had a cuss fight wit Ate's boyfriend cause he was getting on my last nerves. Then after that, we went outside to talk and in my car and toke pictures. We were tired so we headed up to my room and slept like at 12 cause we had to wake up early on Saturday. Saturday was Ate&I's 1 year&11 months anniversary:) We went to the Key Club breakfast thingy at MTHS so we woke up at 7 and got ready then walked. We waited for Pamangkin cause she had my money. We couldn't pay at the door so Ate, Nerd&I just decided to give my ticket away, get my money and walked towards SOB&Fa's house cause it reminded us about the 8th grade morning 'adventures' ;D After walking towards their house, we went to MTHS again, saw helluh people and just left to my house. When we got to my house, my daddy&Kuya left somewhere so mommy cooked for us. We girls talked about the house problem and whatnot. Then after, Ate, Nerd&I went on the computer and watched the beginning of Grudge 2 because Kuya came and said that we are going to Fairfield so I toke a shower and Ate&Nerd waited. After we got done getting ready, mommy, Kuya, Sebastian, Ate, Nerd&I went to Fairfield. It was Nerd's first time going cause Ate already been there. When we got their, Khaila and Oliver went somewhere. I guess double date ? LOls ! Well, we bonded wit my cousins and toke helluh pictures wit Pita:) We only got to stay there till 4 cause we needed to go home so Ate, Nerd&I could go to their homecoming at 5. So then we headed back to Ate&Nerd's house. Arrived at 5:30. We got ready helluh quick so we could met up wit Nerd's boyfriend at the library. When we got to the school, I saw my old friends from Anna Kirchgator&&&my cooool buddy ;D Jacky noticed me and we gave each other a big hug xD Lols ! When we saw Nerd's boyfriend, he was wit his friend so we decided to head for the line to get in. When we got to the door, their was helluh cute asians OMG ;D Lols ! But then Nerd kept telling them that 'im waiting'. I am but I dont know if he still likes me or not. I don't want to tell the rest of the details cause trust me, it was GHEY -_- I met new friends:) Shawn [if he spells it like that] talked to me and waited wit me cause he had the same reason as me. He was cute though but I don't know if he's wit my friend Jacky. After that night, we went home at 9:30 ish ? We went on the computer, uploaded the pictures on Nerd's myspace and headed for bed at 1 ish ? Lols. On Sunday, today, we went to church at 11. We saw people:) Lols. Then after church we went to Rileys to get food then headed to their house. When we got to their house, we got home and ate. Then I had to leave at 1:30 so then their dad dropped me off home. Overall, my weekend was fun. How was yours ? Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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2009-09-24T17:31:00.000-07:00

Date : September 24, 2009

Today's Horoscpoe For Gemini ;

'Cause it represents me ..

Gemini
(May 21 - Jun 20) -

It still might take a few more days for your life to return to normal, for you have recently been on a wild ride. You are being given a chance to think about your experiences and decide what to do next. Just remember that it's easy for you now to make nearly anything look bigger, better or more important than it truly is. Bringing yourself back to reality is healthier than waiting for someone else to do it for you.

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2009-09-23T18:31:00.000-07:00

Quotes of the Month :

"I can only imagine how my life would be like if everything was simple."

"Cause I go through my days wit a smile on my face and say everything is okay when everything is not."

"Its simple as that. Your gone and im lost."

"Persevering helps me live my life without a simple doubt."

"Even though this thing we have is not normal, everyday, I think we're just fine when we're not."

"Because the fact that your gone and not ever going to be mine again, I miss you the most."

"I've learned it all and seen it all but even though it seems tough, stick your head up high and deal wit it."

I love you, unconditionally. Always&Forever ..

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2009-09-21T16:59:00.000-07:00

Date : September 21, 2009

Mandala Essay.

In life, we all have our stories of what makes us unique and why our life turned

out to be. Some of us lived a simple life, but some, had it harder. This is my story;

If you would ask where it all began, my answer would be St. Charles Borremeo,

San Francisco. I’ve been there since Kindergarten through 4th grade. I moved because

my parents couldn’t afford the tuition anymore. St. Charles Borremeo is special to me

because I learned a lot about being catholic and my perspective of life. I thought I

wouldn’t like the school I would go to next because St. Charles Borremeo was the best

but then again, my life changed.

Edward Harris Middle School, 8^th grade year was the most memorable year

because of the ‘episodes’ that have happened. I met my true friends, the F.A.S., and

importantly, my superman. My life changed while I progressed each day. That year was

where parts of my life started to turn. Some days, I would want to give up but the only

people who kept me up the most, was the F.A.S.

The F.A.S stands for Fly Asian Society. It is our group name. We've

been friends since 8^th grade, but some, since 7^th grade. In our group, we have

Hannah, Sylvia, Karyz, Zhane, Fa, Hao, Kenji, Josh and I. They are what I call my true

friends. We all have been through a lot together and we never gave up on one another.

My life has been pretty rough these past months. My family and I are going

through a lot which makes it hard to balance between school and my life. Finding a house

is enough to deal with but with my grandma having cancer, it’s just too much. We’re

trying to keep it together but for me, I can’t handle having ups and downs all the time.

When I move, it is going to be my 8^th time moving and my last is when I go to the Philippines which

is when im done with high school.

Reminiscing makes me think about how my life turned out so far. Its makes me

wonder if I toke the right paths or not. Knowing that everything will be okay soon makes

me wonder ‘when?’ Because when things start to get rough, my friends and I just have

one thing to say “no matter what happens, it’s always&forever”. Even when things start

turning around for you, don’t stop and hesitate, keep on trying because there is no fear in

trying and trying again. I’ve did it all and seen it all, but im not going to stop because I

know I have to persevere.

Your perspective in life is your own thoughts of how you see life. My

perspective; it’s tough but all you have to do is persevere to do your best. The moon on

my Mandala represents my superman. Because he gave me more advice and we think the

moon is pretty:) The sunset represents the F.A.S. because we love watching the sunset

together. The Filipino flag represents my heritage and how I love to always tell everyone

I am proud to be who I am. My story tells how I always persevere even when life gets

tough and that’s my advice to you; no one has a perfect life, it’s the fact that you’re alive

and never underestimate your circumstances.

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2009-09-19T23:02:00.000-07:00

Date : ...

September 19, 2008 @ 11:30 pm

I Love You. Always&Forever. I Promise.

You may not care about the date but even though, I just wanna say tanks for all those times when you made me happy and actually smile. Sorry for everything I caused .. And those times I made you feel bad, mad, etc .. Even though we're not together, I love you. Always remember that. Pwease ..

September 19, 2009 @ 11:30 pm

'Cause it still seems like it was just last year .. When everything was alright .. Nothing to worry about .. Until now ..

"It's not about holding on, it's about not letting go .."

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2009-09-18T18:09:00.000-07:00

Date : September 18, 2009

Haaaappy Birthday SOB:) Yous helluh cool !

Yes, just a lito shout out to my 'ex brother - in - law' cause today he turned 15. Shoot, his ass is helluh old:) Ahaha. But he's cool ! Yawp. Well, this week was the fifth week of school. This term went by fast. Almost second term ! Trying get my grades to stay in the 'A' range but it's not working ): Im helluh stressed nowadays. Can't even concentrate on school. I know, school first but too many things getting in my way. Helluh annoying. Well, this week, second period keeps getting better everyday ;D I helluh love my second period. Good thing I have it all year long ;D Imma miss it though next year. But like today, my 'new friend' wasn't here so today was too chill in second period D; Nothing to laugh to. &I was looking forward to second period today since it was Friday. So, school is school. Lot's of homework. Classes still chill for now. Eh, school is boring. I only go cause second period ! &lunch wit granddaughter of course. Yesterday was a miracle. Tank you Josh, for the talk:) Thas what I needed to hear. I had like a 'deep conversation' wit him last night. I wanted to webcam him but he had to go and my webcam was freakin' retarted xD Sorry about that. I won't remember what he told me. Guess what today is kids ? Its the eighteenth. Kuya ; don't you remember ? Well, yeah. Today we had Freshman BBQ for only freshman's. it was cool:) After school, BFFAAE&I went to go wait for her mom so she could put her stuff in the car then we waited for Ate&Nerd to come. They came wit there friend Brenda. The one that looks like Pamangkin xD We all headed to the Freshman BBQ to get food xD Yes, we only went to get food ;D Then everyone got to see Ate&Nerd. Then off to Fa's house ! When we were walking, we saw 'ex brother - in - law #2' wit Fredy and that other guy xD Then after we said hi, we continued going to Fa's house. When we got there, I said Happy Birthday to SOB ;D Cause im nice lol. Then SOB, Fa, &Cristian followed us to the Freshman BBQ. I was supposed to kick it wit Fa&SOB but Cristian was wit them so whatever -_- Ruined my plans ! Anyways, when we came back, BFFAAE had to go D; So Ate, Nerd, Brenda&I went back to the Freshman BBQ and just hung out there. Ate&I got to talk to Tino on the phone ! OMG, his voice got deeper xD I missed him ! Last time I saw him was 7th grade D; BUT, he's moving to MTHS Christmas Break ! YAY ;D Ate&I's lito brother is coming back ! Im so happy:) Then unfortunately, we had to go home. So they walked home&I walked home alone. So overall, my day was okay. LOls. Tomorrow, I have CFF then off to Daly City then visit the cousins. OH, the 28th is my 1 year of blogspot ! Of course imma blog that day ;D LOls. Get updated though ;D Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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2009-09-15T17:27:00.000-07:00

Date : September 15, 2009

Cause AVID made me think a lito more ;

So in AVID, we did a Mandala quick write.
The question was :

"Who are the most specialist people to you
and
Why do they make them special ?".

This is what I wrote ..

The most specialist people to me are the F.A.S. group. We have 9 members in the group. My friends in the group are Hannah, Sylvia, Karyz, Zhane, Hao, Fa, Josh, Kenji and myself. We all been friends since 8th grade. For some of us, since 7th grade. The F.A.S. are special to me because they have been by my side for everything. We never go through anything a lone. F.A.S. is our family name. It stands for Fly Asian Society:) Karyz, my older brother and I made the name. We made it on January 27, 2009. So it has been almost 8 months in the making ! We all hang out on occasions so its fun. We support each other in everything and give the best advice ever. The 9 of us are all like brother's and sister's. They are my life. I would give up anything just to be wit them forever .. <3

This was a timed write and it may be short but it looks long on paper(x I would have wrote more but I think too much xD When I wrote this, I was remembering all those times we had when we were all together. Even though we may had 'those times' they still brighten up my day. They are the ones who have my back no matter what. They are the reasons why I go on wit my life each day. This topic made me realize who are my heroes. They are my true ones. I can go to them for anything. I finally found my family that appreciates everything I gave up for them. They know I gave up a lot in the past years and they would never take advantage of me. Unlike others, they would love to help me out in need. They aren't selfish, nor rude. If I would have to describe them, I would say 'family'. No matter what happens, its always&forever<3 know them. They proved themselves to me that I can trust them. We start developing with one another every time we hang out. So all those kick its, yes, they were what you may call 'stupid' but to us, its what we call having fun ;D So thas my story ..

I love the F.A.S. Because they are the realest<3

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2009-09-13T09:11:00.001-07:00

Date : September 13, 2009

Haaaappy Birthday FOB:) MahalKita Sweetie<3

AHA, funny how "Always&Forever" wasn't that long .. I won't forget all those things you said to me and did to me. Cause even though you hurt me, I still love you. You aren't realizing the real point in all of this. Cause you always block out the 'situation' even though I try to talk to you. Sure, your talking to me but thas not what I want to hear. I want to hear the truth. For me the truth, yesterday you really hurt me. Even though the first time was breaking up wit me but last night when I just wanted to let it all out, you just said it. I was thinking to myself "wtf, why did I even bother talking to him". But I knew I was going to be hurt because everything I do is just nothing to you. I make everyone happy but not myself. Helluh bothers me a lot though. &the fact that 'everything will be okay soon' won't even happen anymore. I thought everything would go back to normal but now, I dont think there is a chance. Aha, and I still have those messages on my phone. Why didn't I delete them ? Because I knew I should have something to remind me of you sooner or later. You walked out on me when things were rough. I dont blame you for anything because I should blame myself. I tried to get you back but you didn't let me in. It was not even worth my time. Thinking that you'll try to find your inner self and see all that is going on but now, you can't see the real meaning. Its true, I still do love you and you even know but you don't care. I dont blame you. Its your choice anyways. But its just easy nowadays to make me hurt because I break easily. Sure, crying doesn't do anything but it makes me let it all out in-a-way. I hoped, and I risk everything. I tried not to put all my hopes on "us" but I still did. Because you know why ? Because I thought there was a chance. But now, I guess its really .. over .. I missed how we used to be. I miss those times when we were still together. Sure, we had "fights" but it didn't get to us. We made up and continued on. Ate even misses those times we were being all 'lovey dove dove' together. Its also funny how the day you asked me out keeps popping up in my head. You know why I keep your stuff ? Because those are the only things that make me reminisce about those days. Do you still remember when we were together and you were still here ? All those stuff we did together. But still, no, I don't regret anything. Just the fact that I talked to you yesterday thinking 'everything will be okay' but then ended up crying. All I ask is to read all my blogs. They tell it all. I wouldn't want to tell you everything that I feel because you wouldn't care. No lie, everything you did for me was the best. Actually, you are the best. Thas why I wouldn't want to let you go. Its just hard knowing your over me. Even though Ate&Khaila&Danielle said to not give up, there is a part of me saying give up. But thas only like five percent. We were together for 9 months, 2 weeks&6 days. I actually thought we were going to make it. It was almost 10 months. Going to be a year sooner or later. This coming Saturday is the 19th of September. The supposedly '1 year' .. Aha, funny how we had plans and whatnot to come. With our relationship, I really knew what love was. I thought it was going to be true&worth it. It was. But was it true ? .. Even though we aren't together, it was. Everyone knew it was. They all knew we loved each other so much. Cause everything we told each other was the realest. I trusted you the most. You helped me out wit all my problems. I could talk to you about anything. My only wish, is that you can see the real thing im trying to say .. <3

Haaaappy 7 months BestFriend:)

September 19, 2008 @ 11:30 PM - July 11, 2009 ..

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2009-09-11T20:12:00.000-07:00

Date : September 11, 2009

OMG, Nine Eleven ?!

So, fourth week down and five more weeks till second term. Today was nine eleven as you should all know. At school, we talked about it in all of my classes. School is okay so far. Trying to make the best of it. Freshman year in MTHS then the rest at hopefully Florin ? We'll see. WAS supposed to take a picture with Granddaughter but we can't find each other after school and whatnot. Anyways, this week went by fast cause of Monday, the holiday ;D AHAHA ! Funny ass day huh Ate ? Yawp. It felt weird though, I thought yesterday was Wednesday xD But yeah. My classes are okay - ish ? My grades are dropping to "B's" -_- Freakin' ghey ! UGH. I have to bring them up again. Stupid teachers with ghey ass homework. Besides that, im kinda getting a long wit other people now. Eating lunch nowadays with Granddaughter, Lena and sometimes Kido [Junnel]. I made my AVID Mandala project. It's due Monday but I finished like on Wednesday. It toke me almost two hours D; But worth it ;D I can't believe people think imma pro AHAHA ! Tanks to everyone who called me a pro though. Made me smile(: Imma post the picture on my other blog of course. Check it out ? ;D LOl. Hm ... What else to say .. SOB's birthday is coming up ! Imma get him something:) Teehee, cause he deserves something ;D LOl. I don't like him ! Just saying. To all the people who think that *ahem*ATE*ahem* :D Ahaha. So, today was successful. After school, I walked to Ate's house to kick it. They picked me up like when I was almost near their house cause they saw me walking(x Then we kicked it at Toby Johnson Park wit thatonedude cause he wanted to meet me and I wanted to meet him. He's okay .. FOR NOW. We'll have to see about next week. IF he comes next week cause I have plans. AHA. So, a lot has been going through my head lately. Just thinking about what happened and whatnot. Helluh ghey .. Ate&I cried like two nights ago ? We cry now and then .. We were having our 'deep conversation' on the phone. Then she told me to go on aim but when I did, I felt sleepy so I signed off on her ass(x Teehee. Im nice, yes I know:) Pictures are on my other blog ! Go check it out ;D So, how was your week sweetie ?(: Hm .. I guess thas all ? Stay Focused&Be Positive Kids mmkays ?

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2009-09-08T17:00:00.000-07:00

Date : September 8, 2009

Haaaappy Birthday Ateeee !

Heeeey Ate:) Happy birthday ! Hope your having a great day ;D Wish I can be with you right now but you know, we're far apart and all =/ Hope to see you soon ? Or in the future(x Either one would be nice ! OH YEAH, Philippines 2010:) LOl. Well, I just wanted to say, tanks for everythang you did for me. You've been there for my worst times to make me smile and I know I can go to you for anythang. I love you more than ever though ! Your the best I ever had :D Ahaha. Even though we only went to school together for 4 years, those were the best. When we were in the same Volleyball&Basketball team together, fun times(: I love you forever on ! Your indescribable but for me, the only way to describe you is that your my Ate forever. Teehee. Anyone messes' wit you, hit me up and I'll fck them up for you. Anythang for my Ate ! Duuuude, you give me the best advice ever ! LOl. I know your doing good there so keep it up. Ahaha. Man, your getting old Ate xD AHA ! Jkaaaay:) Pshaw, I need to give you your birthday gift when we meet up for the Philippines ;D Ahaha. &&we need to take helluh pictures ! We haven't had a picture together in agessss ! Since like .. Basketball&Volleyball days xD LOl. I still have those pictures btw ;D You make my day every time I talk to you. Its like you know how to make me smile:) Hehe. Gosh, only if I still lived in Daly City, I would go to the same school as you and kick it wit you like everyday ! That would be nice, won't it ?;) Ahaha. Well, I guess my birthday wish for you is that may all your wishes to come true. Well, one of them is ;D AHA ! You should know what that one is. Teehee. Thas all I wanted to say so take care Ate !

I LUHB YOUS !

Sincerely, Ading<3

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2009-09-06T22:47:00.000-07:00

Date : September 6, 2009

Haaaappy Birthday Gdaughter !

Well, just a lito shout out to my granddaughter. Hope you had fun today ;D Yay, your 14 xD Man, you still call me old though. Ahaha. Well yeah, my day was great tankyouverymuch:) So this morning, I watched ASAP '09 [filipino thang] and the Jabbawockeez performed ! It was the shit though. Worth waking up to ;D Pwuaha. It would be helluh cool if I was at ASAP live though. That would be like worth my trip to Philippines ahaha. Well, after that, my mom, brother, lito bro and I went to Fairfield. Going to Fairfield was helluh funny xD Kuya's smartness came to him. Mom : "You need to eat more squash for your eye sight" Kuya : "Can I just eat something else ?" Mom : "It needs to be a yellow vegetable" Kuya : "Yeah ill just eat an orange" ME : "LMFAO ! That aint a vegetable, thas a fruit &especially, that's an ORANGE ! LMFAO !" OMG, funnest shit ever ! xDD LOl. He helluh failed at that xD Then we listened to Rnb the whole way xD Well, until we reached Vacaville cause nothing good was one the radio. My brother and I were singing along xDD LOl. When we reached to Fairfield, Kuya drove to my cousins house. He's good at driving now. But im still scared when it's going to be us only cause Kuya is going to act stupid. Yes, I know im nice:) Ahaha. Well, when we reached Fairfield, Khaila&I thought of going to the mall so then we asked and Kuya Johnnon, Kuya, Pita, Khaila and I went to Fairfield mall. That was cool, I got to spend time wit my cousins:) Khaila&I were matching ;D We both wore a scarf that our Tita Achie gave us from Florida. Mine was purple and her's was blue of course ahaha. When we got to the mall, we went to Wet Seal cause Khaila was going to buy a vest but instead, we ended up looking at graphic tee's and whatnot for .. 30 min I suppose xD The clothes there were helluh cute ;D Teehee. I need to go shopping again. I haven't went shopping in a while. OH, there was this one shirt that was blue, had a baby chick on it and a crack egg. It said "Fail". LMAO. I helluh loved that shirt xD But instead, Khaila and Pita picked out a Hello Kitty shirt for me ;D Khaila decided to buy it for me cause "it shouted out my name":) Khaila bought a purple ninja shirt that says "who called the ninja's" xD It was tight. Ahaha. Then we noticed that we forgot about the vest she had to get so we started looking at the other side and in front. The vest were okay-ish but then Khaila didn't like them so yeah. She also bought shoes(x After that, we got a vanilla shake. It was the bomb :D Ahaha ! But then we had to go home cause my mom said we were leaving soon. BUT, we didn't leave yet(: When we came back, we all prayed of course. My Tito Gary cooked stake and whatnot. We had like a bunch load of food ! Khaila, Pita and I were waiting for the food to cook so we decided to look at the hello kitty site I looked at yesterday. THEN, Inspiration came ! Oliver decided to join us cause he thought it was interesting too lmfao. The food was cooked so we ate, toke pictures and video's. I don't have the video and pictures cause pita and my Tita Ada toke them wit there camera's so yeah(: I ate helluh though ! My stomach was so fuuuull when I came home xD We went home like at 8 cause Sebastian was getting sleepy. But today was the funnest day ever ! Next Saturday might be the same, I hope. Teehee. Well, im sleepy. Going to sleep&get rest for tomorrow's kick it wit the F.A.S. ladies:) Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

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2009-09-05T17:32:00.000-07:00

Date : September 5, 2009

Aha .. Hilarious ..

First is first, congratulations to my Ate&thatonedude. I know his name, I just like not calling him his name xD Yes, im nice:) Tankyouverymuch ! LOl. Anyways, I just helluh noticed .. Too many couples breaking up. Like .. 4 I believe. Aha, funny, im one of them .. Actually, two for me. [But not counting one] Its helluh weird. Stupid I should say. What ever happened to "Always&Forever". It was a lie. Wtheck though .. -_- I miss the old days .. I want to go back to the way it used to be .. He made me happy. He made me actually smile. I learned a lot from him. Did I do something for this to happen ?.. I would never know .. Until something [a miracle] happens. Almost 2 months since we broke up. 'Why are all the good couples breaking up !' _Ate. I know right Ate ? .. It was so great back then. What happens next ? A LOT ; Im moving. He won't talk to me. Mama might take the 'next step'. Are my prayers not enough ? What else do I have to do to help ?.. It's just sad looking at what happens next. Actually, I don't want to look at what happens next because of course I won't like it. Just one miracle and maybe .. Things will get back its way ? "There's always a rainbow after the rain." Why aren't I seeing it yet ? *Sigh* Things are just too difficult nowadays. I look at my friends life, they have it straight forward and they make it seem easy. Looking at my life ; my family, friends, problems. Its just too hard to make it complete now. I don't want to move because im already adjusting to MTHS and I really want to stay in this house. Yeah, the neighborhood is ghey ass hell but I love the memories that happened here. I really wish I can comprehend wit him again .. I really miss him. My life is just .. Not complete without him ? He made me realize how love really feels. It felt right and I didn't want it to let it go. I was reminiscing about when he was still here and when we were still together. I was actually happy about my life and nothing bad happened. Until he left to the Philippines. I don't blame him for that. Enough about that. The big issue that is going on is about my mama. She is having a hard time. Im praying really hard for her to get better. We all want her to get better. I feel so bad for her .. She was the one who I was talking about in my other blog. Khaila&I have a terrific plan ! When we grow up, we are going back to San Pablo and re-buy our old houses ! Especially mama's house:) We had so many memories there, we just want it all back. Yesterday, we were reminiscing about the old days .. Damn, we had a lot of good times. Then this question came to our mind , "if we were to stay there. if we didn't move. would we all be more successful ?" I would have to say yes. No worries. We are all together. Even though I wouldn't have met my terrific F.A.S. group, I would be with my family. No offense, I LOVE my F.A.S. group. They made my Elk Grove days, I mean YEARS, the best ever. I didn't think my life here would be this successful. But I love it now:) I never regret anything I did here. I love them forever on. Cause they were there for me through anythang. Anyways ; San Pablo was the best years ever. Straight up. *Sigh* I guess thas all I wanted to let out. Let's just say, I would want to go back in time and fix it up. One thing I learned from my life : Live your life to the fullest and have no regrets. Make it your best and make it fun. Well, I guess thas all. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

Dear God ,

Four more years please ..

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2009-09-04T15:53:00.000-07:00

Date : September 4, 2009

Third Week of School Accomplished.

Third week done, Fourth week coming, Five more weeks of first term and A LOT more days of school. Managing of course. So, this week was okay. I still think last week's was better:) I was supposed to make a 2 way cwalk wit Kido [8th grade, Art class nickname] but my camera died -_- AND we had like 1o mins ! UGH, stupid camera. Besides that, this week went by .. Pretty slow I guess. Finally Friday ; kicc it day ! My week of homework done and turned in. Grades are straight A's still. Hope they will stay that way. Just did a test, hope I pass. It was okay I guess. I was falling asleep though. Ugh, I need more rest nowadays. I do too much. But, worth it. High school pretty far is okay. I just need to focus on my grades than other stuff. My classes are still the same. Only second period makes me happy ;D HAHAs. You guys should know why, teehee. WELL, if you don't know .. Read my blogs and get caught up ! AHAHs. The only class I struggle in is English. Algebra 1 is okay so far. General Science is easy so far. AVID, I don't have to worry about;) LOl. GAHH, I don't want first period pe next term ! Helluh ghey -_- I don't remember what classes I have next term but all I know is that I have pe. OH, I also remember I still have third period lunch. I have three, three, four, four. <-- My lunch for the terms xD AHAHA. If we the same lunch period, hit me up though ;D Hm .. What else to say about my week .. Oh, I eat lunch wit gdaughter now. She needs someone to go eat lunch wit her. &she makes me sit wit her friends in the "Asian Table" LOl. It's all good though. Gambling involve. Of course, Asian's gamble every time. Isn't it true ? ;D I sometimes feel left out though cause they are all Viet and whatnot. But, oh well, im used to it. I guess thas all for school. One more thing, next week is Club Rush so I might join Photography Club &also on September 18 is the Freshman BBQ and after is the first football game so imma go ;D I just need to remind my parents xD Wanna come wit me ? Let's go though:) AHAHA. New Friend is ghey(x Buh nice, hehe. J&J are cool too. AHAHA. Well yeah. I make my parents happy wit my grades, makes me feel successful too. Trying to manage myself wit work and home. Especially wit my friends. Making sure I get to talk to them and hang out wit them so we get information wit each other. But have you noticed .. I don't have time for myself ? I make everyone happy and put myself last. I know, im nice:) I love making my family and friends happy. When I think about it .. They make me happy and that's all that I need. They are my life. They complete me. I love them oh so much. I can never be the same without them. Well, thas all for now. Gonna kicc it wit Ate ! &her soon-to-be Boofriend xD He is looking forward to meeting me today. LOl. Funny. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

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2009-09-03T17:45:00.000-07:00

Date : August 6, 2009

To Prepar for the Worst ..

So, as you should know. Im moving. Imma miss this neighborhood .. I had helluh memories here. Even my friends did too. A lot of good memories mixed wit bad ones .. But overall, its sad how things are starting to fade away. I've been keeping track wit my grades and trying not to think about the past but everyday, I still do. No one can ever forget about the past. Because it happened. Even though I was sad back then but .. It felt better than how I feel now. Because I had a lot of time to tell them how much I care about them and how much I love them. They treated me so kind and they always had something to say when I felt bad. Even though I haven't been wit him for a long time, it felt like I knew him. My grandma was the best ! Even when I was lito, when I was crying, I would always go to her. Whenever something happened, I would always call her or go to her for help. She helped me through my "past times" made me feel better. She's so kind and helpful. I remembered everything. I will never forget those memories. I try to visit her on weekends wit my mom and brother but we are busy with finding a house. So now, we got a house ; I hope I get to see my grandma and my cousins more often. I miss seeing them everyday. I miss how things used to be when I was living wit them. Even though we had lito space, at least I was with them. I miss how I used to go to the same school as inspiration and Rec after school. I miss my old life. Because my old life made me realize how precious time is and that you should live it up to the fullest. Never back down cause there is always something ahead that will keep you going. Now, I see life as my own. I want what's best for me family, friends and of course, myself. Im trying to keep it together but I always seem to fail. Even at home, I get in trouble nowadays just cause of one simple thing. Its hard but im trying to manage. Im not "complaining", im just letting out my thoughts. I know, other people have harder lives than me so I shouldn't complain. Just to make it simple, if you tick me off one time, imma go off. I can't really control my anger no more. It's hard. Cause whenever im mad, I always have to hold it in. I never found anything to take out my anger yet. Probably just blogging and taking out my thoughts wit my Ate. Well, I guess that's it ? Gonna blog tomorrow of course to talk about my week. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

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2009-09-02T21:05:00.000-07:00

Date : September 02, 2009

Should I ? ..

There was a chance, and there still is. Should I take the risk again ? From me being happy to sad then happy again. Just thinking about it makes me so emotional. Is it worth a try ? I see that your happy in life and im happy for you too. But can't you see that im dying inside to know the answer to just one simple question I ask ? It's okay though, I understand. Everything is more important right now. I should just try to stop. But something is telling me to keep going and try again. There isn't any harm in trying. All that is scaring me is if I get hurt again [which I possibly am going to]. I just have that same feeling about you but I don't know if you still have it for me or for that other girl. You say she's just your best friend but what if it might be more ? Am I trippin' or what ? Sure, I may be jealous at a point but it won't get in my way. I'll just keep trying and see what there is.

What is there to lose ?

You ..

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2009-08-29T21:26:00.000-07:00

August 29, 2009

Boredom Kills; Blogging is my addiction now:) Music included though ;D

So, today was so interesting but cool. Of course, Ate&Nerd slept over last night. It was fun ! Friday was the best day ever ! Straight up though ;D First, I saw my Ate K, my guy friends kept me company in my classes, I got to hang out wit Ate&Nerd, they slept over and finally, he talked to me;) You can say that I was successful. I was smiling the whole day too, teehee. At first, I didn't think my day would turn out just how I wanted to be but then again, just don't give up cause there is always a brighter day after. I learned from the best inspirations ever. With all that is going on, I learned that to not give up, gives you better hopes in life. Doing what you dream to do and what you want to succeed in gives you the best feeling. Even though you may have those days, just know that the people you love and cherish will always be beside you the whole way. Don't ever think your alone cause no one is ever alone. We go through everything together one step at a time. Even if you don't succeed at first, you learn and know what to do next. Be the bigger person in the situation. Know that everything happens for a reason. Don't trip about other people, just continue on what you do for the best and not what other people want you to do. Peer pressure ? Yawp, thas what im talking about. Don't ever let that happen to you. Even if you think its "cool", trust me, it isn't. Remember, even if you do one simple thing wrong, it ruins everything. You learn from it and move on. I experienced everything so don't judge me by what you hear or saw. Know who I stand for and what I believe in. Anyone can judge but always know how it makes the other person feel after. Trust in yourself cause low self esteem is bad. I know, I sound like a adult(x But I just know what to say cause I experienced it all. Need advice ? Just come to me anytime:) Well, thas all for now. Stay Focused&Be Positive kids mmkays ?

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2009-08-29T00:50:00.000-07:00

Date : August 29, 2009

Second Week Past ;

Damn, another week passed ?! Man, I can't believe im still alive xD LOL. Jkeeeeding(: Well, this week went by fast o.o I thought it would go by slow cause of everything but it went .. Pretty well ? Im used to my classes but not my teachers of course. I made a new friend(: He is cool but stupid xD LOL. But today, I mean yesterday .. Someone switched their first period to my class. I really don't like him. We get along but I just don't like him. FAS and him had them days. Well, the other hand. Second period is getting better. Its funny(x Lunch is the usual. Fourth period is getting better but stupid at times. J&J are cool:) They make me productive in class now xD They care about me LOL. Fifth period is the usual. Funny&retarted but fun ;D J&J didn't get my my cooookie or Starbucks D; LOl. We kid around a lot as you noticed. Hm .. What else happened. OH, yesterday when I was walking to first period. Guess who I saw ?! My Ate K came up to me ! I didn't even notice her at first(x We started talking but eventually we had to go to class so we just said goodbye and hugged(: She has pe and I had English so yeah. At least we got to see each other for the first time ! I was happy. Yesterday was the bestest day ever ! I got to see my Ate K, my guy friends kept me company in my classes, &last but not least, I got to hang out wit my Ate&Nerd ! After school, I walked all the waaaay to her house [it was far >.<] and we went to the park wit her friend. Nerd stayed home cause she is ghey like that. LOl. Then we dropped off her friend and went to my house. I was supposed to sleep over her house but my parents said that they should sleep over here. &her parents said yes too(: We were on the computer and guess who FINALLY signed on ?! It was him. When he signed on, [no lie] I was hyperventilating at first cause I didn't talk to him in a while and I really missed him. He was talking to Ate on her aim [we were on the same computer xD] then he IMed me. I was like "omg, he's talking to me !" I was happy though:) He made my day ! LOL. Then we made a chat room wit the FAS [without BFFAAE&Pamangkin&SOB]. It was so funny ! LMAO. Omg, I wished I could have saved the conversation but SOMEONEOVERHERE forgot to remind me xD LOl. Well, at least we got to talk and stuff. But he had to go so we said that we would wait for him so now we are staying up for him. I think it's worth it IF he signs on:) So now im talking to Ate's future boofriend(x He is such a .. Loser ? LOl. I don't know but somewhat I guess. OH, I had to take pictures on Wednesday. You can see all my pictures on my "Rawr" blog. I'll probably post it up later or so. Lol. Everyone said my picture is cute but I don't like it xD I don't know, im pretty picky about my pictures LOl. Yes, I know, im a weirdo:) Tankyouverymuch ! My background was red of course. You could of known too. Hm .. What else to say .. OH, im sorry, how was your day sweetie ?(: If you ask me, I think your pretty cute ;D LOl, im weird xD Ate's bestest day was yesterday too :D I know it was, cause she saw and talked to people too ! LOl. Well, overall, this week was better than last weeks. Teehee ! OH, I webcamed Foodwhore. It was funny xD &he finally saw how Ate&Nerd looks like. So, he called me a fatty cause he saw me eating ice cream. LOl. But yeah .. Hm .. I think thas all ? If im missing something, ill edit later. Stay Focused&Be Positive mmkays kids ?

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2009-08-25T18:16:00.000-07:00

Date : August 25, 2009

To Get Things Outta My System ;

'Cause if you haven't noticed, im the type that never gives up. If I say "Always&Forever", I mean it. Not like your b/s saying "give up". Fck that, I KNOW you. That is NOT you. If deleting me from everything makes you happy ? FCK IT. I thought we would try to make it even work out still. 1 month passed by and I still haven't seen or heard anything that would make it up. "There's another reason behind the break up but he told me not to tell you and I promised him I won't" WTF is that about ? I've been waiting for like twofeakingmonths and I still didn't get the message. What is really going on with you ? I really wanted to work it out and all but I guess your the one who won't comprehend. If you have to tell me something, tell me straight up. If you think it might hurt me, JUSTDOIT. Im already hurt so might as well just face it now right ? I was even thinking of waiting till a miracle happens but you know what, I don't even know anymore. Yeah, im still gonna wish for that but not all of my hopes are going up for that. Yeah, I am getting hurt but fck it. I think its worth it ? I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE. "Keep your head up no matter what cause maybe there is a brighter side in the end." Im willing to keep my promise and im hoping you would. With all thas going on, I don't even know how im going to do that. You won't even talk to me or reply to me. It's like were strangers nowadays. Am I really that contagious ? "We can still be friends." WhattaLie. Your just one big LIE. I thought I really wanted to be with you forever but you broke my heart. Yeah, I still love you. Why ? Cause we had helluh memories together ; Fck, why do I feel bad ? You HAD a realest but I guess you just threw it away like you can just easily throw away a paper. I thought my life would been like crap without you. But .. The way I look at it. It doesn't look like crap. It just feels like im missing something important. Don't say im sprung cause clearly, im not trying to talk to you. I want you to come to me. "Patience is a virtue." Yeah, I know that. Thas why im willing to wait and see what happens.Why do we love the ones who hurt us, hurt the ones who loves us, ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us? Even though your not reading this and you don't give a fck, I miss you. Even though your a jerk and broke up wit me, I love you. Because we actually ALMOST lasted. Because your the one who stood by me when everyone was walking out on me. Because I came to you for anythang and you saved me. Because when we were together, it felt like nothing else was around me except you. Because .. Thas how much I love you.

Haaaappy 10 Months Pamangkin:) Your my baby no matter what mmkays sweetie.

To The One That Knows Me The Best ;

2009-08-22T15:41:00.000-07:00

Date : August 22, 2009

Dear Foodwhore ,

Heeeey:) Sup ? Lol. Well, I told you I would make you a "letter" type on blogspot(x Well yeah. I just wanted to say tank you for everythang you done for me. You did a lot. All those sacrifices and promises, it means a lot to me. I know I gave you some hard times but I promise you, that will never happen again. I know you want me to tell you everythang, but at times, I might have to keep them to myself to protect you, you know ? Well, we've been friends for 9 years. Thas a miracle xD Let's tank the people for making electronics :D *clap* *clap* *clap* LMAO. Damn, I have a lot of nicknames for you ahaha : Best Friend, Kuya, Foodwhore, Bitch, Slut, Loser, Everythang, SAB, &more. LOL, I made like 12 nicknames for you. They suit you though ;D Ahaha. Your like my Frisco buddy too ! With Danielle of course(: St. Charles Borremeo [Kindergarten] was the first time when we met. You liked me first(x I just thought you were adorable ahaha. &the story about how people found out you liked me LOL. Nice story huh ? xD Well, even though it wasn't meant to be for now, its Kuya&Ading all the waaaay ! Fck what people say, we're the fcking best nigguh ;D Ahaha. I love our late night calls. Its funny lol. Cause its fun making fun of you. You know why ? BECAUSE YOUR A FATTY ! Ahaha. Jkeeeeding. ... Maybe ? ... Ahaha. Well, you should be used to me calling you a fatty. &thas how I made Foodwhore :D Oh yes, im cool ! Lol. Our Frisco kick its are fun cause we always do our usual thing. METREON&YERBA BUENA GARDENS ! Lol. Its all good(: Damn though, imma miss those Frisco Kick Its. Summer was fun but now its over ): So sad .. Let's just hope we get to kick it sometime soon, yeah ? Our families like each other and whatnot xD Thas how cool we are though. Pwuahaha. You know me helluh well though. Its like we been Kuya&Ading since birth ahaha. You wish xDD Well, I don't know how long imma write but imma be random now. Lalala .. I just went to Fairfield to visit my cousins. OH, my Tita bought me a purple scarf from Disneyland, Florida ;D Its helluh cute though ! Lol. OH YEAH, tanks for the gifts when you went to Disneyland(: Your the best ! Teehee. Im so bored at home. Mommy&Daddy are gone, Kuya is in his room, Sebastian is sleeping and im just downstairs on the computer. Ghey xD Ahaha. I wanted to kick it wit my mains today but I don't know. OMG, let's hope I can go bowling wit all my cousins tomorrow ! Hm .. What else to say .. I guess thas all ? OH. I love you, always&forever Kuya. Till the end nigguh:) Ahaha.

Sincerely, AnnjeanetteLynneFortuno "Ading":)

They Made My Day:)

2009-08-21T22:18:00.000-07:00

Ateeee - 9:16pm : aha of course she does! my adinggg's got steeeeeze. ahaa

_I Love Her Eternally Forever<3

SOB - 10:13pm : ADD people are losers

_Cause I asked him to say that(: He even posted it up on his status ! Damn my SOB's cool(x

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2009-08-21T17:42:00.000-07:00

August 21, 2009

Friday ; I can't belive I lasted.

Dang, I lasted this whole week of school xD At first it was slow but now, its Friday, I think it went by pretty quickly don't you think ? Well, just thinking about school and whatnot in school keeps me occupied without those other things I mainly think about. Being occupied is better than doing nothing so I guess going back to school is good. I have to focus a lot on school for now to keep my grades up the rest of the year. Im looking forward to learning a lot more and making new friends:) Stay active ! Thas the main thing(x Well, what else to say .. My week was okay I guess. Better than usual. Classes are boring except AVID so I have to get used to them. Im doing my work on time and making sure I don't get distracted. I always get hungry in Science xD &thas my 4th period class, right after lunch LOL. Yes, im a weirdo &im proud bxtch ;D LMAO. Sorry, I talk a lot about myself, how was your week sweetie ?;) Teehee. People are changing but I hope for the better [even though it may not seem like it]. Im trying to keep myself on check everyday wit my "everyday schedule" so wanna help out a girl ? Lol. Man, I can't believe I lasted though ! I've always been thinking if im still going to keep "the promise" .. Should I though ? IS it worth it ? *Sigh* .. A month or 2 past .. But im not going to give up until I know the reason why to. No matter what you say or do, I'll always love you. Im not sprung over that much, just a tad bit. I still have those memories in my heart and I always think about those times. Many people remind me about those times but no tear drop falls out of my eyes. I keep them inside cause I guess the pain is worth it ? We did have some pretty good times. *Sigh* I just wonder if it's still worth it &if there is by any chance another second time ... ? Anyways : Supposed to do the "Friday Kick It" but everyone is busy, especially me. I hope to see you ladies tomorrow or next week hopefully ?(; Let's hope ! Lol. Hey, I know im a nerd so tanks for the compliment sweetie ;D Im not conceited, just like to play around a lot at times. Thas why you should get to know me, yes ? Ahaha. Jkeeeeding. Im not forcing you, just asking tankyouverymuch(: But yeah .. So I can say, overall, this week was okay. I hope next week will get a lito better. But I know its going to be hectic wit school work and whatnot. Thas all for now. Stay Focused&Be Positive mmkays kids ?

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2009-08-20T18:05:00.000-07:00

Date : August 20, 2009

Right now ;

"Don’t say you love me unless you really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it."

"If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be."

"Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it."

"Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same."

"They say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices But I'll rather take pains and lots of sacrifices than not to be love by you."

"Love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear."

"LOVE: We think about it, Sing about it, Dream about it && Loose sleep worrying about it. When we don't know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear loosing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. But we don't know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define && IMPOSSIBLE to live without."

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."

"Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have."

"True love never dies, even if you have found a new love, the sweet memory of the past will continue to hunt you for the rest of your life."

"Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt."

"Boys are like stars, there are millions of them out there, but only one can make your dreams come true."

"Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs. Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet."

More to come ..
AnnjeanetteLynne ; Status Away Message : "Don’t say you love me unless you really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it."

[17:53] Brother-In-Law : I love you! =D
[17:53] Brother-In-Law : and i MEAN IT!

_'Cause I couldv'e relate ..

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2009-08-17T16:26:00.000-07:00

Date : August 17, 2009

Freshman Year ! Class of 2010:)

First things first, summer overall was okay but didn't turn out to be what I planned. So, today was first day of Freshman year. I was scared and nervous at first but it wasn't so bad. So when I came to school, I waited for Pamangkin in the back of the high school. OH, did I mention mommy dropped Kuya&I off today ?(; Well, Pamangkin came so we went in the cafeteria to get our schedules. When we were in line, BFFAAE came. Of course I waited for her after I got my schedule. So after we got our schedule, we went outside cause it was crowded and it was almost time to go. So we had to go to Advocacy first. BFFAAE&I had advocacy class together cause of AVID ;D I knew most of the people there of course lol. First period was English. I knew 4 people in that class. I usually don't talk to them but they talked to me so it was okay. Second period was Algebra and BFFAAE&I had that class together too ;D I knew most of the people there. Third period was lunch and I thought I wasn't going to know anyone there but I came across my granddaughter while going to lunch and she said she had lunch wit me so it was all good(: BFFAAE&Pamangkin had fourth period lunch so that was ghey D: Granddaughter was my lunch buddy as well as others. Lunch was soo ghey cause we were so used to having everyone we know at lunch but now its different of course. I knew some guys at lunch who are in different grades which was so weird xD So at lunch, we just kept talking about the classes and gdaughter was criticizing people lmao. Fourth period was Science. I knew some people in that class too. We got our text books and whatnot. Then fifth period was AVID. It was the best ! I will always look forward to fifth period(: Cause I knew everyone there and of course BFFAAE was there too ;D Overall, my day was not exactly what I thought in the beginning but it was okay for the first day, not as bad. Well, I only stay at MTHS for 2 weeks them im moving so its going to be a hassle for me =/ OH, also did I mention I got a haircut over the weekend and new clothes on the weekend ? Well, yes I did(: Lol. Just a reminder, school is beginning so I might not make blogs everyday. Probably Fridays and weekends or so. Of course first year of high school is important so I gotta get my grades up and pass. I just finished my homework and talking to Ate. OMG, it was so weird going to school without Ate&Nerd though ! Im so used to going to school wit them and hanging out wit them and whatnot. But now, without them, I feel different. Well, hopefully we'll get together as usual(: We still have our Friday kick it's so its all good:) Teehee. Well, thas all for now. Stay focused&Be positive mmkays kids ?

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2009-08-14T18:04:00.000-07:00

Date : August 14, 2009

Live It Up, Do It Big ;D

DAMN, what a night I had(x So first is first, Ate&Nerd slept over last night. They came over in the afternoon so we worked out, kicked it and what not. We were mostly in the backyard the whole time xD Overall = FUN ! We had the deep conversation ; half after working out and half at night. I finally got everything off my chest to Ate to tell her what I feel about 'it'. THEN she told me things that I never heard before. I was pissed but oh well, it was 7th grade days. The past was the past, you can't change it now. After diner, we worked out again and stayed outside till 10 pm ish. It felt good outside. A couple things happened out there but you know, over all it was funny. We played truth or dare outside before going back in xD Nerd was going OFF ! She just kept coming up wit the nasty est things ever LOL. So then we got tired and went back in. We washed off before getting ready to watch movies. We watched the movies in my kuya's room cause he wasn't at home, no one could here us scream and then we slept there too xD We watched The Unborn, Uninvited, The Haunting In Connecticut &Saw V. We watched The Hangover after the Uninvited to calm us down xD Damn, we felt successful after we watched all that ! LOL. Of course we drank and what not. We were just so hyper and out of it. We kept eating chips and stuff. Yes, I know, fatties much right ?(: That was my 4th time drinking this summer ! We slept at 5 am cause we passed out xD We were supposed to do a all nighter but I guess we passed out. When we woke up, weirdest shit happened. Nerd had a scare, my head was hurting like fck and Ate didn't remember anythang either ! Lmao. None of us remembered what happened. HANGOVER ! LOL. But, Ate&Nerd left around 5 pm something xD Right now, my head is still hurting and im just waiting for my mommy and kuya to come home. Well, I lived it up last night ;D

Haaaappy Belated 7 Months Best Friend Abraham !

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2009-08-12T18:31:00.000-07:00

Date : August 12, 2009

Living the Single Life

So .. BestFriend broke up wit me last night [Tuesday] around 10 ish ? Yes, I cried but not as much. Yes, I was sad but im getting over it. I just need to think about other stuff for a while. But im just saying ; WOW, 2 break ups in 1 summer ? WHATTA SUMMER HUH ? Yes. Anyways, so I know everything happens for a reason. I knew this was going to happen so at least I knew right ? SAB's though right Khaila ?(x So, this morning [12 - 5 AM] there was supposed to be a meteor shower and Ate, Nerd and I were on the phone. I was looking out the window and they were outside. We didn't see anythang except stars xD Ghey ! LOL. Well, at least I had laughs last night. Tanks to Ate(: She comforted me while I was crying. I know I can always count on her. I was talking to her, deep conversation, and we were helluh thinking. Things were too good to be true. OH, Nerd helped too xD Im tired of life. But no matter what we do, we can't stop life. Its like, impossible. Im tired of hearing the same shit over and over again. Its getting old. Im tired of lies and breaking of promises. PROMISE is a PROMISE. Fck you. I feel like im done but im not. There is something else to do but I dont know. "My heart speaks first and it's telling me to Love You". No matter what I do to forget about everything, there is just that something inside of me that won't let go. What happened to Always&Forever ? It was a lie -_- Not to me, it was forever promise. But to you ? I don't know. I dont know anymore. Its confusing. Imma just keep my head and up still keeping my promise to everyone about that one promise. Even though it may be hard but imma still go for it. No matter how hard I have to try, I want things to be the same like old days. Giving up isn't in my vocabulary, not even in the FAS vocabulary. I thought things would fix itself but, I guess I was the fool. Somethings you have to make it happen and the most important one is that you have to be there. Even though im going through a lot, im still going to put my problems aside for my love ones. No matter what im going through, they are first in my list. Fck my problems, my love ones mean the most to me and its an Always&Forever wit them:) Easier said than done right ? Yes. Just gotta take it one step at a time ;

Haaaappy Birthday SDCMFFAAE/Daughter ! Mahal Kita:)

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2009-08-11T18:34:00.000-07:00

Date : August 11, 2009

Unexpected(x

So, today was ..(x Lol. I thought it was going to be like usual cause mommy didn't go to work. But then when Sebastian was taking his nap and I was going to take my nap, my mommy and daddy called me to go down cause they wanted to talk to me. So first, they asked me about the last kick it wit Danielle&BestFriend Christian. THEN they asked me about HIM. I was like, whattheheck ?! SO RANDOM. I told them about how he used to take me out and take care of me well. They like him(: They APPROVE of HIM. Man, best news(x BUT, im not going out wit him anymore ... After I told them everything, my mommy asked if I wanted to go shopping and of course I said yes ;D I didn't get a lot but just some jeans and shirts. I was happy cause at least I got something new for school:) Lol. So, we only went out for about 2 - 3 hours. After I told them about HIM, I was thinking about how everything used to be when HE was still wit me .. Damn, I miss those days .. Im not giving up though ;D Cause I promised I won't give up. HE was a good boyfriend. I really Love HIM. HE toke care of me well and never did anything that I would think of him as a failure. HE was the best ! A real gentlemen though:) Even though we're not going out, I still think of him as the best. Don't judge me wrong please xD Well, that was basically my day. So short right ? LOL. I promise I'll probably write more some time tomorrow or so ? xD We'll see ;D OH, one more thing ...

Haaaappy Birthday Angeline Sky ! I love you cousin<3

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2009-08-10T19:09:00.000-07:00

Date : August 10, 2009

Today was .. Productive ?

So, today was the High School Orientation for MTHS. I walked to school at 8:45 and when I got there, the first person I saw was Madre :D &she came up to me and was glad that I was going there wit her(x BUT, its only "temporary". Cause I don't know when im moving. Its hard but I gotta adjust. Well, then I met up wit BFFAAE &Pamangkin(: Well, we went in like at 9 and started the whole Orientation. We were split up in groups but at least it was kinda fun ? Lol. Well, I was in group 17 wit Sonia, Rebekah, Joceline and others. We did different activities in the class room until 12 and then started the tour around the campus. Our Leaders were wow xD They were funny lol. No one changed though. Well, few had haircuts and such but they are still the same. But when people saw me, the first thing they asked was "how are you&josh ?" .. Damn, when I heard that, I was like .. Wow .. I wanted to cry D; Of course everyone knew cause we WERE the couple of the school. *Sigh* Those WERE the days .. Well, of course I saw BFFAAE&Pamangkin around the campus so it was all good(x But when I saw Kenji still wit Teresa .. I was like DAMN. I thought Josh&I were going to last like them .. The weird part was that some people didn't come though. Oh well, probably see them next week ? Hope so. I had to walk back and it was HOT. I was sweating and shit xD When I got home, I saw my cousin Khaila, her boyfriend and my Tito getting their stuff. But damn, I went upstairs and changed cause it was fcking hot xDD Then I went on the computer, called Ate to tell her everything and we had a deep conversation ..): &then ate, then toke a nap(: Well, you can say my day was productive. I wanted to cry my eyes out today .. It made me reminisce about those days wit him .. Man .. How I wish I can go back in time ... But no one can ever go back, just gotta wish for the best. But I know there is still a chance so im not giving up. I can do this(: Right ? Lol.

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2009-08-07T23:38:00.000-07:00

Date : August 07, 2009

'Cause it hurts so much ..

Im trying to forget about you but then again I can't. I just love you so much. All those memories we had , some are fading away but I won't forget the day. The day you asked me out .. Even though you hurt me so much by saying to "give up" , im never going to give up. We've been through helluh shit together and just to give that up like this ? I dont think so. I've cried helluh times cause of you but then again I love you. Everyone said you are the one for me ; Were they right ? Looking back to what we had : yes. You are the one for me, but now, I have to say "were" .. Even though we're not together no more, always remember this : I Love You. Mahal Kita. Saranghae. I know I say "I hate you" at times but deep down, I know thas not true. We lasted 9 months. 9 MONTHS. I thought we were going to last forever, but to you, I guess forever was a lie .. If you still had/have feeling for me, why didn't you try to help me save this relationship ? Why did you have to give this up so fast ? I admit, even though im going out wit someone else, I still love and care about you. He even knows that. We even talked about it ; Maybe we were just meant to be friends. Cause all I can think about is you&how we used to be. Do you think its to late ? Do you think we can fix this ? Im willing to. I love you so much. I just still can't believe your gone. I thought this love was a sure thang .. I can never erase the memories we had together. All those long walks, talks, BIG loooong hugs, &more .. I just miss them a lot. Even though those days are long gone, they aren't that far away from my heart. You said you would never break my heart but then again, you did. Why ? What was the real reason behind the break up ? I would like to know. I mean. I would LOVE to know. Am I mad at you ? Im pissed at you. But that doesn't mean I literally hate you. I know im confusing at times but you used to help me through this. Now that your gone and not talking to me, I feel lost and confused. I always try to talk to you when your on but .. I guess im .. Scared. Why don't YOU try talking to me ? Im not a disease or anythang like that. Would you ever think that ? ARE you thinking that ? IF you are, thas fcked. I've gave up a lot for this relationship and it was going well until you HAD to break it off. Yeah, I know, your going through a lot. But, would it matter if you just help out ? I admit, you caused a lot right now but im willing to help out if you want me to. I know, everyone is like pissed at you and shit but don't you ever think why they are ? Cause you made a stupid decision. Thas why. I saw a lot that I couldn't handle even though it was lito. I was pissed and I guess teared cause of that shit. Really ? You would do that ? I know, you think I moved on wit him but NO. I still think about you. You can even ask him if its true. I really thought we would make it, but I guess not. Everyday I hope something good will happen but I guess thas a fail. But .. Im willing to wait to see if a miracle would happen to me. Ateeee ! :D : just give it some time, I'm SURE he'll realize that shaawty you da best he ever had (= _Mahal Kita Ateeee<3

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2009-08-07T00:05:00.000-07:00

Date : August 07, 2009

Feel like venting ?

Guys are hard to understand, or lemme say "comprehend". When you tell them something important, they get all emotional and what not. Lemme just say this, its better if you talk it out than just acting like a jerk. Like really though, it makes us girls feel disappointed. When you lie, it makes us feel heart broken. When you say "always&forever" but you know its going to come out to "never", we can never forgive you for what you done. But then again .. Why do we still fall for you over and over again ? I guess when things are just too perfect you don't want to let it go. Don't you wonder why its like that ? I always do. UGH, SAB's ! Right Khaila ?(: You want to hurt them, but then again you love them too much to do such thing. You want them to die, but you can't live without them. Its COMPLICATED. Your mind says one thing but we try to listen to your heart too. Its hard to let go cause there is always something holding you back. Once you let go, everything will change. Even though change would be "better" but would you want to give up on what you had or have ? Its hard to understand at first but you have to give it some time. You just gotta hope for the best and stay strong.

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2009-08-06T20:47:00.000-07:00

Date : August 06, 2009

My Last Frisco Kick It Day(;

So, today was fun lol. I went to Frisco wit my mom to go kick it wit my BestFriend Christian&Danielle. Today is our Official Last Kick It D; It was sad but we had fun(x Damn. We WERE supposed to go to the Pier but they were scared we might get lost LMAO. So we just watched G - Force 3D then kicked it at Yerba Buena&Metreon. Christian came to my mom's work around 7 so we went to go pick up Danielle at her house at Daly City. We watched the movie at 11:30 at Century Theaters. It was a funny movie though ! We were like the first ones to go watch G - Force xDD It was helluh funny ! When we went in the theater we saw like NO ONE there ! We were talking helluh loud and stuff(x Then later on, 2 families came but that was it. The movie had helluh Rn B(x It was cool. After the movies, we just chilled at Yerba Buena for a while. Walked through "Memory Lane" for one more time .. ): Then off to the Arcades in Metreon ! LOL. We wasted most of our money there LMAO. But, at least we got to hang out and stuff. We didn't take any pictures this time o.o It was weird xD Maybe cause we toke helluh last time and we are tired LOL. I was supposed to make a 2 way video wit BestFriend BUT he didn't want to D: So we ended up just talking. It was okay though. I had to tell them the "truth" about what's going on wit my problem. It was hard but I finally got it out of my chest. I just need to figure it out .. I've been thinking about it ever since and I still don't know what to do. Anyways, we dropped of Danielle like around 2 and I had to get back to my mom's work before 4. I thought I was going to be late but Christian&I made it back on time ;D LOL. Overall, my day was successful but not the part when I had to think. I wish I can have kick it's like this someday soon but school is starting so it ruins it all -_- LOL. Well, that was my day(: OH, im talking to BestFriend Christian on the phone&just on the computer. Tanks to everyone who supports me in everythang, I really appreciate it wit all my heart:)

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2009-08-04T21:14:00.000-07:00

Date : August 04, 2009

My Day ;

Today, I got to kick it wit my BFFAAE, Ate &Pamangkin. OH, these 'fatties' came too xD So, we met up at MTHS at 11. Then we went to Pamangkin's house to give her anniversary gift that Ate&I bought for her like .. Last month ? LOL. Yes, we haven't seen each other in a loooong time D: But at least we got to see her today:) But then she had to go to MTHS for something about school so then BFFAAE, Ate&I went to the 'fatties house' to ask them if they wanted to kick it. We went to McDonald's, Starbucks, Game Stop [spent almost an hour there o.o] and then off to my house. We were supposed to go to the park after Game Stop but we were tired and helluh hot ! D: But, at least we got some good exercise xD LOL. When we were at my house, we ate, I cleaned, watched my old video's xD, played wit water in my backyard ;D, toke pictures and video's then we walked to Pamangkin's house to kick it there. We were helluh tired when we got to her house though ! OMG, we got soo tired ;o But at least we got to talk and take more pictures at her house(: We only spent like about 40 min there ? Lol. It wasn't that long but at least we got to update each other. When we came back to my house, we baked cupcakes and just went on the computer. BFFAAE had to leave at 6 so Ate&I just kept going on the computer. Then my parent's came home and Ate stayed for dinner and while my parents went to look at houses(: My day was going so great BEFORE this thing happened. I was just soo pissed though. If you want to know what happened ? ASK, im not going to post it up in public. My problems are my problems. You have to get my trust before I tell you my 'situations'. Yes, I call them b/s but of course its just life you know ? Well, Ate&I got soo helluh pissed. I was washing dishes and she was on my computer. I was washing utensils and they were sharp. I would've thrown it at something but I held it in. I just kept cussing like crazy though. I was that mad. She was scared. She thought I was going to throw it at her. Psh, I want my Ate ALIVE, not DEAD. She been there for me through everything. Anyways, that 'thing' helluh got me pissed. I guess .. Im jealous ? Damn, I can't believe I said it. I can't believe you even went there .. What happened to everything we had ? OH .. Had .. Well, I just can't stop trippin' over it cause I guess im .. Sprung over you ? *Sigh* I don't know anymore .. I mean like, I want the best for you and all but doing all those stuff ? That just goes far. I want to talk to you but I guess I don't have the courage too. I know I can do it but im just .. Scared .. Scared of what might happen next .. Wow, I guess it is true ; 'Depression' is spreading in the family .. Im always scared of what might happen next. I know, if you really love someone, you would give up something. But, I don't know what should I do .. I just care so much about you. I don't want to put you in situations anymore .. Im tired of hurting you in some way .. But, I just can't let go of you .. Everyday .. Im trying my best to forget about you one step at a time but .. But I guess I can't forget about you .. We've been through helluh situations together and its hard to let go of the person you love. This just caught my attention & Ate also thinks it relates ;

“ Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you’re hard-headed. If you’re quiet, you don’t care. If you call him, you’re too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy. If you don’t love him, he’ll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves. If you don’t fuck him, you’re a tease. If you do, you’re easy. You tell him your problems, he says you’re irritating. If you don’t, he says you don’t trust him. If you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it’s because he ‘cares.’ If you break a promise, he doesn’t trust you anymore. If he breaks it, it’s because he had to. If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance. THEY’RE ALL BASICALLY THE SAME. Guys drink to forget about girls; girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor; when girls are in love, they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can’t forgive; girls can forgive, but can’t forget. When guys are heart-broken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl; when girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love; girls wish to be his last"
- unknown

I just feel .. Lost right now .. I can't think straight. Its just hard for me. All this is just happening at once. I can't take it no more ! I want the old days back &how we used to be. Why can't we go back to those days ? Why did you have to give up so easily. I wanted to work it out but you just said "give up". I really cared about you and how I wanted things to work out, I guess I was just fooling myself. iPromised, I Loved You, I Cared about You. What do I get back ? THIS. ALL OF THIS B/S. That is just not fair ! But then again, life isn't fair. We never know the real meaning till we figure it out ..

09

2009-08-03T20:26:00.001-07:00

Date : August 04, 2009

Updating Myself Though ;

AnnjeanetteLynneFortuno. May23. Filipino. Incoming Freshman. Staying Focused. A Promise is a Promise. Getting my priorities straight in life. Learning from my mistakes from the past. Im looking forward to a new start in High School, [hopefully] go back to the Philippines in May 2010 w/ Ate Leigh Anne:), &start being a bigger person and learn from all of this. My Heroes are the ones who seen me in my worse scenarios and who like me for who I am. My Family, Rawr Boo Bluhd &F.A.S. are my family. Drama is straight up b/s to me. I like to keep it clean. When it comes to parties, its 21&up for me though ;D Once you get to know me, I get loud(x Im shy but nice(: Music is my addiction. Gotta listen to it 24/7. Electronics are my bestfraaaand(: lol. I think lito kids are adorable ! [no pedo though ;D] Keeping myself in check everyday. Friends are my lovers. Gotta love them though ! Kickin' it at San Fransisco and other places. Hit me up &let's make plans shall we ?(; When I say 'I love you', I mean it. Don't play wit my heart cause I break easily. Independent though. I don't like depending on others cause you have to earn my trust before anythang. Camera whore ? Probably .. xD LOL. Jkaaaay, just when kickin' it cause I love them memories:) I love to go down memory lane a lot cause I don't want those times to fade away. Red is my favorite color. Don't ask why(x Blogspot is my favorite site to vent. Myspace is old. Aim is a must. Music is a everyday thang. Youtube is cool too. Im a cwalker. I don't cwalk everyday cause I have better things to do. AJxbaybe is my youtube account. Check out my video's ?(: Pwease&Tank Yous. Teehee. AnnjeanetteLynne is my SN. Let's talk ?(: Follow me in blogspot though ! Lol. Well, thas all for now. Kbyeeee<3

08

2009-08-01T23:02:00.000-07:00

Date : August 1, 2009

St. Charles ;Olden Days ..

St. Charles has been the best school ever ! I've been going to St.Charles Kindergarten - 3rd grade. I moved for 4th grade cause we couldn't pay for the tuition no more): Yes, it is a private school. We had to wear uniforms and all that, but except the uniforms, it was the best school EVER(: I've met a lot of new friends and learned a lot too. Kindergarten ; Thas where it all started. I met all my friends and especially, my #1BestFriend, Christian ! We had this program and it was a dance. We were partnered up and at first, Christian wasn't my partner. Our teacher, St. Genevieve, switched us around a lot and then I ended up wit Christian. Ever since Christian told Angelina his "secret", she told the whole class and I don't remember knowing he liked me till he told me like WAAAAY later on xD Yes, I lose my memories a lot BUT at least, I remembered my Kindergarten days:) Anyways, we were like the "School Cutest Couple". Everyone wanted to hook us up but I guess we didn't want to ? LOL xD We were just Best Friends. We didn't really get to hang out as much till 2nd grade cause thas when he left): He told me that I was the only one who gave him a goodbye gift o.o LOL. Im so thoughtful ;D Ahaha. But after he moved, I missed him oh so much D; &I hoped we could see each other again AND we did :D It was a field trip to I think Raging Waters or something and he saw me then he went up to me(: Thas the only time we got to see each other. But overall, im so lucky I met him though(: Teehee ! OH, my other Main Squeeze was Tiffany Manlapaz. I miss her soo much): I haven't seen her since she moved 2nd grade .. Man, I can't believe she moved .. Danielle [my other main squeeze], Tiffany and I were like the "Three Musketeers" though ! At first, it was just Tiffany and I but then we met Danielle(: We were the best of friends. Man, I really miss the old days .. I had so many good&fun memories at St.Charles. When I look back, im kinda the same person I was. Christian and I were talking about the old days and this is what we found out ;

Christian - "Nerd" type , wanted to be everyone's friend.
Me - "Outgoing" type, everyone wanted to be my friend and I was loud(x
Danielle - Shy&Nice but still is ;D
Tiffany - Cute&Innocent:)
Arjay - "Jock" type LOL. All the girls apparently were into him xD
Angelina - "Popular" type
Julio - Rich boy xDD

We only went that far LOL. St. Charles really changed. Christian and I want to go back and visit St.Charles cause apparently, we have "our spot" where we hung out his last day. Yawp , a lot of memories .. I can say A LOT about St.Charles but I guess thas enough for now don't you think ? I don't xD But sadly im tired &thisloser called me xD

St. Charles Borremeo forever<3

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2009-07-31T21:21:00.000-07:00

Date : July 30, 2009

F.A.S. ;January 27, 2009 ;Always&ForeverKido's:)

Dang, 6 months and still going xD I just wanted to write somethings about the Fly Asian Society ;D We were friends ever since 8th grade started but we decided to make the "group" later on lol. Well, a lot has been going on right now with this thing people call "drama" but its b/s. Im always going to be there for the F.A.S. no matter what. Even when things get rough, I put the F.A.S. before anythang. I love them till death due us part. No matter what happens, its Always&ForeverKido's:) Well, my brother made up the name cause the name Karyz&I made, he said it was stupid and kept making fun of it so I told him to make a name for us and he really made a good one o.o LOL. OH, we have a myspace apparently so hit us up there if needed(x They were the ones that made my day "perfect". Even at times when I just wanted to give up life, they kept me up at all times. Damn though, I helluh love them ! I appreciate everythang they did for me(; Im sorry for the times I put the F.A.S. into but I promise, it won't ever happen again :D Even though we may fade in high school, always know im gonna be here to support all of you forever. I care so much about you all. Your like the #1 Family though ! Im like part of 3 families xD My Own family, Rawr Boo Bluhd &now F.A.S. ! Remember the picture from Spring Fling [up there] ? That was a fun day ! &Fredy wasn't supposed to be in the picture o.o But whatever, it was the only picture that was ALMOST perfect(: I hope we can get another picture together again lol. The next kick it, we are gonna take A LOT of pictures ! LOL. Well, let's just say, I promise to never ever ever ever ever fade. Thas all for now.

F.A.S. is helluh cool though bluhd ;D

06

2009-07-30T22:12:00.000-07:00

Date : July 30, 2009

So, I felt like blogging cause of this "thing" that is going on right now. Well to start off, people need to start telling the truth. Even though it may hurt, its better than just living life with a lie. I've been told lies a lot, even this month. Like wtf. At least just tell me the truth and I could help you. &plus, that lie helluh hurts me so much. You don't know how much I am hurting right now. I know you don't care but at least try to help you know ? Instead of just ending up not ever talking to me again. Avoiding the situation isn't helping either, its just causing more problems. You helluh changed though. Its different now a days. The FAS stood by you all this time and you repay us with this ? What the heck is that ?! I know, im helluh trippin' over this but at least I have a reason. A GOOD DAMN REASON. Yes, I try taking my anger out by blogging but then again tears fall down every time. I had to suffer a lot. All the shit im going through right now with moving and FAS fading are just straight up b/s. Never in my life have I ever been in these kinds of situations before. I really love the FAS. Always&Forever. I would never do anything to them that may hurt them. Im always going to be by their side through thick and thin. We may be fading but know that you will always be in my heart, forever. Back to topic ; All im saying is think before you say or do shit. Its getting helluh annoying how things are just falling apart and only some of us have to suffer. I confess, im not being the bigger person that I should be but I just can't stop trippin' over this. Everyday, I try to think it through but the only thing in my mind right now is how the good old days used to be and how I want that back. I want the old you back. Not the new you that never talks to us no more and how your always "busy" and have to make a lame excuse. What ever happened to the person I fell in love with ? The one that would be there for me no matter what ? Im still the same; still stressing, going through a lot, trying to stay strong for you cause I PROMISED, etc. Man, just thinking about it, do I regret ? NO I DON'T. Cause I know, somewhere inside of you, you are still the same. Please, try not to forget the old you.

-The only thing im looking forward to is a new start in Sheldon High School, [hopefully] go back to the Philippines May 2010 w/ Ate Leigh Anne:) &start being a bigger person and learn from all of this.

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2009-07-18T12:36:00.000-07:00

Date : July 17, 2009

I learned a lesson, I saw it all, I did it all. Yes, dreams do come true when you reach for them. If you do one simple thing wrong, you might ruin it all. Maybe, maybe not. We're kids ; we learn from our mistakes and move on so we can do better in the future. If you focus to much of the future, your gonna miss out on a lot thas going on now. Be careful of what you chose cause you never always get a second chance. Always&Forever isn't really what it seems, sometimes it comes out to never. Crying can't solve anything. You can cry all you want to let it out but you can also do something about it. Hearts are fragile, its never fixed up easily. Seeing life go pass by you makes you think what to do next. Even though there may be something holding your happiness back, move on cause maybe there is something good that may come after. Its never a happy ending cause everyone has something that isn't that .. Happy.

04

2009-07-01T16:13:00.000-07:00

Date: June 30, 2009

We may be foolish and stupid but I guess its cause we are just kids . No one can really understand what love means till it comes to you. In life, we always get b/s but I know we can't all be perfect. At some point, we get karma but thas part of life. Even if you do only one simple thing wrong, it might ruin you forever so be careful and take it one step at a time. "When life gives you apples, you just get lemons". Rushing things aren't going to help. Its just going to give you more pain and suffering. I experienced making decisions and it isn't easy. You may think its easy cause its just choosing one thing from the other but they have meanings. Trying to find the deeper meaning takes time so don't rush. "Probably your heart is trying to tell you something. It's just not the right time yet. So your heart will be given some time." I learned from a friend<3

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2009-07-01T16:12:00.000-07:00

Date: June 21, 2009

Mmkays, well I haven't wrote something "new" in a while so imma just write about whas wrong. These past few days, I wanted to cry my eyes out ! I can't handle this shit no more. Drama in summer ? Really ? UGH. Fcking b/s. I know, I cuss a lot. Only when im mad though. First thing first ; I helluh love my boypren though(: We been together for 9 months and 2 days<3 Even though we may fight at times, we talk it out and get over them pretty easily. I love him. Always & Forever. ipromise. Second thing ; being in a "love triangle" is hard. I love them both the same but they gotta realize that its harder for me cause im the main. Love&like is two different things. [I learned the best from Inspiration&my boypren] Third thing ; the past is hard to forget. You can't get away from it cause its your past, it follows your everywhere. Like drama. Everywhere, all the time. People say you cant forget your 'first love'. Thas true .. You don't have to forget about them, just don't be sprung over them. Its just going to bring you more pain. Yes, I experienced it. Being in situations isn't easy. I want to cry my eyes out right now but I cant cause of my heart condition. Yes, I still have my heart condition. Its not serious but I have to be careful. Im like tearing right now. Its so hard. Thinking is not easy. My life is so complicated right now. This may sound stupid but its hard for me cause im not used to it. Too many stuff are happening and im trying to keep it together. Cause I promise my boypren I wont cry when he's not here.

_All is said than done.

02

2009-07-01T16:07:00.000-07:00

Date: June 9, 2009

Love ; Its not just a common word, its something we share. Its a special gift God gave us to cherish and keep. It may be painful but no one said its going to be easy. Love is a strong and meaningful word. If you use it, it has a meaning. People use it, but always regret it. For us kids, love isn't the real thing older adults seem it be, but to us, its a feeling you get when you share your compassion wit someone else. No one should be young or old enough to love. We should all have a right. What is love ? Its a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend. People like to say, love knows no boundaries or age. Love is fate. Love has the power to overcome all difficulties. Love life is just a personal choice, and they strongly resent being judged by other people's standards of right and wrong. However, with love comes responsibility. Loving someone is about being responsible for your own feelings and your own decisions. Loving someone is agreeing to take responsibility for yourself and the person you love.
From the bible :
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
I Corinthians 13:4-8

To be continued ..

01

2009-07-01T16:06:00.000-07:00

Date : December 22, 2008

Once again, family problems. Getting yelled at isn't a good thing especially for me. I just can't deal with these things anymore. I thought this year was going to be different but it isn't. It is just worst. I always reminisce about the past because that's the only thing that i was happy about in my life. Living life to the fullest is important for every kid. The only days that i found happiness was when i found 2 very special people. My NERD and HIM. I love my NERD. She's always there when i needed someone to talk to and HIM. He is always there to make sure i have a smile on my face(: I love them both. Without them, i wouldn't be able to be living my life right not. They are very important to me and if anything happens to them, i wouldn't even know what i will do. My NERD, INSPIRATION, Cousins, Ate's, KUYA & HIM are the people that bring me up and the reason why im still living. Without any of them, i wouldn't be able to handle the things that are accuring now. NERD always makes me smile and laugh through anything. INSPIRATION gives me good advices that i can always use. My cousins are always there for me when i need someone to make me laugh or just when i need to tell someone something. My Ate's are always there when i just need someone who can keep me company. KUYA is always there when i need someone to talk to and when im bored he makes me laugh xD Thas how corny we are haha. Last but not least, HIM; I luhb him<3 He always makes me smile and he tries to make me laugh when he has the chance. 3 months and still growing strong. Thas all that is need to be said. Kbye(: I luhb you<3